I am glad to see that you are taking this opportunity to examine your beliefs ... hopefully you will come to realize that records were kept by the chews - that tell us that Mary was given to the Temple - to be raised as a servant ... and that because of her beauty, was the personal maid to Simon the High Priest - who impregnated her - even though he was very old, and had a wife and grown children and grand children

after his circumcisum and Mary was "clean" she presented Jesus to his father - and he proclaimed that he had lived long enough to see the Messiah's birth ... it's in the bible too -

It was covered up by the Priest, who called in the elders living in rural areas, because they would not have heard the rummors - and as their religion demanded, they gave Mary a husband - they assumed would "consumate" the marriage immediately --- but Joseph had a wife he loved and children, almost the same age as Mary ... so he hesitated, and Mary began to "show" - so she ran to her Cousin (Elizabeth) to avoid being stoned ... He took her to Jerusalem at tax time, because he knew that she was due to give birth, and because the trip took a month - noisy neighbors wouldn't question an early birth of a full-term baby - but they never went home - for another 10 years - they fled from Herrods "murder of the innocence" and hid out with the Gnostics in the Hills


the truth is not hidden ... seek and you will find the real story of Jesus and Mary