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and instead see a young soul still full of pride, arrogance and ego struggling to keep up a facade of "all knowing," all while professing to be humble

My mother and step-father don't want me anymore and with my felonies and outside influences its been a real struggle to live a normal life (not to mention my spirituality makes me really unattached to shit that is not enjoyable) so I'm probably going to be on the streets tomorrow.

Well anyways, where do you think I should go? I'm only interested in continuing my developing spiritual being so don't bother with suggesting dull, mundane options like: get a job loser, as I do not see how this would benefit anyone. Might freeze to death, might persevere, but I'm in Florida, been extremely cold, colder than normal, but should I stay? I don't know... kind of like the idea of Cali but thats a long way to walk. Maybe I'll just go to the beach.

Not the minimum wage jobs......there are always jobs in the paper.

Of course these aren't jobs the OP wants.......but too bad. You do what you need to do in order to eat.

Gypsy, you know I love ya -

I think many of us, including DW, were not trying to run rough shod over him(?) or drive him deeper into hell - we really were trying to help.

But just like an addict or alcoholic who is suffering, until that person really WANTS help, no amount of wanting it for them will suffice. And honestly, from the way he responded to everyone, the complete lack of gratitude and dismissiveness, I got much more a sense of entitlement or grandiosity as opposed to true misery.

I used to think that tough love was just a phrase to give people the right to be mean - but I have come to learn, having been on the receiving end of it, that sometimes people need to be given the truth, hurtful, harsh, or upsetting as it may be - especially when they are in a state of complete denial. I know I needed it, and I think the tough love I received some years ago actually saved my life. The pity, empathy and sympathy felt a lot better, but they didn't help me to get out of my problems - they just made it less uncomfortable to stay there.

I, as I'm sure many here, do not wish any ill to Judah-Ra, and instead see a young soul still full of pride, arrogance and ego struggling to keep up a facade of "all knowing," all while professing to be humble - a paradox indeed, and one that is extremely detrimental to spiritual growth. Humility - that is the one quality I think every single spiritual master on earth would agree is VITAL to spiritual growth, and he is severely lacking. I and many others suggested being of service to others, helping others, or reaching out, which he completely shot down. That, to me, says a lot about the "Path" he is on.

Like I said, you know I love ya. And perhaps you are right- maybe we could be more loving. But he could also be a little more receptive, a little more gracious, and a little more loving himself. It's one of the oldest universal laws - you get what you give, karma, etc. Perhaps he will learn that, and perhaps not. In any case, I don't feel bad about what I have posted here, and I truly hope he finds what he's looking for.

unless asked, i'd stop telling people about the felonies

I'm just wondering how old are you OP? If you have said already apologies I didn't read through whole thread.

OP is 27
a millennial







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The fact of the matter is I am losing desire all together.

Gypsy, you know I love ya -

I think many of us, including DW, were not trying to run rough shod over him(?) or drive him deeper into hell - we really were trying to help.

But just like an addict or alcoholic who is suffering, until that person really WANTS help, no amount of wanting it for them will suffice. And honestly, from the way he responded to everyone, the complete lack of gratitude and dismissiveness, I got much more a sense of entitlement or grandiosity as opposed to true misery.

I used to think that tough love was just a phrase to give people the right to be mean - but I have come to learn, having been on the receiving end of it, that sometimes people need to be given the truth, hurtful, harsh, or upsetting as it may be - especially when they are in a state of complete denial. I know I needed it, and I think the tough love I received some years ago actually saved my life. The pity, empathy and sympathy felt a lot better, but they didn't help me to get out of my problems - they just made it less uncomfortable to stay there.

I, as I'm sure many here, do not wish any ill to Judah-Ra, and instead see a young soul still full of pride, arrogance and ego struggling to keep up a facade of "all knowing," all while professing to be humble - a paradox indeed, and one that is extremely detrimental to spiritual growth. Humility - that is the one quality I think every single spiritual master on earth would agree is VITAL to spiritual growth, and he is severely lacking. I and many others suggested being of service to others, helping others, or reaching out, which he completely shot down. That, to me, says a lot about the "Path" he is on.

Like I said, you know I love ya. And perhaps you are right- maybe we could be more loving. But he could also be a little more receptive, a little more gracious, and a little more loving himself. It's one of the oldest universal laws - you get what you give, karma, etc. Perhaps he will learn that, and perhaps not. In any case, I don't feel bad about what I have posted here, and I truly hope he finds what he's looking for.

Lol you're the moon and the stars huh? I recall that there was a character in the Bible who's name was Ramasies who said the exact same thing.. It didn't end well for him. At the end of the day he fiqured out who was God and it wasnt him. You're not God you're a spoiled, self absorbed little twat. You're about as spirtual as my pinky toe.

OH man there is sooooooooooo much I want to say right now, but I will hold my tongue no matter how hard it is!!!!!! UGH!

Best of luck to you OP cause you're gonna need it.

umadbro?

am I tearing down your balcony?

am I uprooting and exposing the lie that is Jesus Christ?

does my unorthodox approach to reality disturb you?

good, the light shall burn you

Time to start sucking dick.

No, she sees you for what you are, but is too nice to say it... but I'm not.

You're an immature, pathetic, sanctimonious, dipshit... with zero personality, except the ugly side you're displaying here.

You're a self-righteous child.

Grow up.

OP life is full of hard knocks, especially when you make dumb mistakes. Here's some tough love:

"when I was younger around 19 I committed some credit card fraud because of the difficulties of my parents (this issue has always been present, it is a matter of spirit vs. religion) and I am now almost 27."

First thing is YOU made the choice to steal, most of all from your parents. Even so, almost a decade later, you still cling to blaming others for YOUR actions, instead of accepting responsibility for what YOU did. That is called FAILURE. Knowing and admitting and understanding YOUR mistake is the first step to overcoming it. Work on this.

Second thing: "I do not practice anything except meditation and I do not believe in anything at all. This openness to the universe has made my being very unattached so it is really hard for me to do the same routine over and over and over." Repitition is what life is about. You learn what is successful and promotes life, love, personal fullfillment, and you repeat it, because it promotes well being. At 27, you should have learned this two decades ago. You say that repetativeness doesn't agree with you , yet you meditate? You say that jobs are too fast paced, pointless, anxiety producing, makes you feel like a slave. Do you like to eat? Wear clean clothes? Take a bath/shower? Have meaningful interpersonal relationships?

Yes. You are lazy. I am betting that I am not the only person to have revealed this to you. I want to believe that your parents tried to instill honorable qualities in you when you were young, but this may have not been the case. In any event, you are long past being an adult. Take charge of your life. Be accountable and responsible for your life choices. Grow some balls and dance to the tune of ALL of the rest of the world, because I can assure you, the world does NOT dance to yours.

I feel for your parents. THEY probably feel like they failed. Hope you grow up. Soon. Also, please don't replicate until you have established a long history of personal success. then you could finally believe in something, namely, yourself. It's not hard, billions of people do it every single day. Start today. If you think this is too harsh, well, too bad. You RICHLY need to hear it.

No, she sees you for what you are, but is too nice to say it... but I'm not.

You're an immature, pathetic, sanctimonious, dipshit... with zero personality, except the ugly side you're displaying here.

You're a self-righteous child.

Grow up.

OP is 27
a millennial







.

when I was younger around 19 I committed some credit card fraud because of the difficulties of my parents (this issue has always been present, it is a matter of spirit vs. religion) and I am now almost 27.

I do not practice anything except meditation and I do not believe in anything at all. This openness to the universe has made my being very unattached so it is really hard for me to do the same routine over and over and over. Its like a hamster who has become aware of his wheel. This is not something I can just force myself to do. I am TOO aware. People who are dead inside displease me greatly, I simply do not function well around them. I want peace, and most jobs I am able to do are fast paced, anxiety inducing crap work that I find absolutely pointless, like a dry cleaner pressers. This is purely emotional and I cannot turn off my spirit. I do not mind doing things, I am not lazy, but I will not be a slave and I have to have peace in my life. I am too interconnected to love to step away from it for long.