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when I was younger around 19 I committed some credit card fraud because of the difficulties of my parents (this issue has always been present, it is a matter of spirit vs. religion) and I am now almost 27.

I do not practice anything except meditation and I do not believe in anything at all. This openness to the universe has made my being very unattached so it is really hard for me to do the same routine over and over and over. Its like a hamster who has become aware of his wheel. This is not something I can just force myself to do. I am TOO aware. People who are dead inside displease me greatly, I simply do not function well around them. I want peace, and most jobs I am able to do are fast paced, anxiety inducing crap work that I find absolutely pointless, like a dry cleaner pressers. This is purely emotional and I cannot turn off my spirit. I do not mind doing things, I am not lazy, but I will not be a slave and I have to have peace in my life. I am too interconnected to love to step away from it for long.

when I was younger around 19 I committed some credit card fraud because of the difficulties of my parents (this issue has always been present, it is a matter of spirit vs. religion) and I am now almost 27.

I do not practice anything except meditation and I do not believe in anything at all. This openness to the universe has made my being very unattached so it is really hard for me to do the same routine over and over and over. Its like a hamster who has become aware of his wheel. This is not something I can just force myself to do. I am TOO aware. People who are dead inside displease me greatly, I simply do not function well around them. I want peace, and most jobs I am able to do are fast paced, anxiety inducing crap work that I find absolutely pointless, like a dry cleaner pressers. This is purely emotional and I cannot turn off my spirit. I do not mind doing things, I am not lazy, but I will not be a slave and I have to have peace in my life. I am too interconnected to love to step away from it for long.

Ex thief, people change, you facking moron.

Just because you cannot change does not mean others can.

You will burn by the light you devil. :]

OP life is full of hard knocks, especially when you make dumb mistakes. Here's some tough love:

"when I was younger around 19 I committed some credit card fraud because of the difficulties of my parents (this issue has always been present, it is a matter of spirit vs. religion) and I am now almost 27."

First thing is YOU made the choice to steal, most of all from your parents. Even so, almost a decade later, you still cling to blaming others for YOUR actions, instead of accepting responsibility for what YOU did. That is called FAILURE. Knowing and admitting and understanding YOUR mistake is the first step to overcoming it. Work on this.

Second thing: "I do not practice anything except meditation and I do not believe in anything at all. This openness to the universe has made my being very unattached so it is really hard for me to do the same routine over and over and over." Repitition is what life is about. You learn what is successful and promotes life, love, personal fullfillment, and you repeat it, because it promotes well being. At 27, you should have learned this two decades ago. You say that repetativeness doesn't agree with you , yet you meditate? You say that jobs are too fast paced, pointless, anxiety producing, makes you feel like a slave. Do you like to eat? Wear clean clothes? Take a bath/shower? Have meaningful interpersonal relationships?

Yes. You are lazy. I am betting that I am not the only person to have revealed this to you. I want to believe that your parents tried to instill honorable qualities in you when you were young, but this may have not been the case. In any event, you are long past being an adult. Take charge of your life. Be accountable and responsible for your life choices. Grow some balls and dance to the tune of ALL of the rest of the world, because I can assure you, the world does NOT dance to yours.

I feel for your parents. THEY probably feel like they failed. Hope you grow up. Soon. Also, please don't replicate until you have established a long history of personal success. then you could finally believe in something, namely, yourself. It's not hard, billions of people do it every single day. Start today. If you think this is too harsh, well, too bad. You RICHLY need to hear it.

If I was in FL I'd throw together a shanyboat for short money and live in it, either in one of the lake canals or the lower ICW.

I would refrain from judgement as you have not walked in my shoes.

You do not know that I have attempted to find work and have worked many crappy jobs.

You do not know how my mind works and how my spirit makes me run away from dark things.

You do not know the suffering I have incurred from the purification of my being.

I know you do not understand, I am not upset with you, but you clearly do not see the truth inside you.

You think that not being lazy provides some sense of self worth to you, but you do not see that all of that "hard work" goes away when you die, and you have done nothing but let people profit off you for your entire life, and then enter heaven in darkness because you have not spent any time looking at yourself or what you are. You enter heaven as a dark spirit, thinking you can just put this work off to some Gods in a book written by man. I am sorry for your souls.

And within no time flat you'd be one huge puss ball insect bite if you were in FL living on a shanty boat on any FL waterway.

It's not my judgement, these are things you did or fail to realize about the world in which you live. If a brick is red, I call it a red brick. I don't call it a space ship. If you stole from your parents, then YOU STOLE, period. You really need to come to grips with this, its a central issue with you it appears.

I'm just trying to help you grow up. Too bad reality is not reaching you. Good luck, you will need lots of it if you continue on thie path you have chosen for yourself.

And within no time flat you'd be one huge puss ball insect bite if you were in FL living on a shanty boat on any FL waterway.

Yeah, true enough, CG... but the problem is if those mosquitoes and other blood sucking bugs would rapidly develop the same "spirituality" that OP has developed. Not sure why but that'd be one bizarrely funny incident of "The Attack of the Nihilist Mosquitoes!".

I never said the the felonies occurred from stealing from my folks, that is your assumptions. Again, good day. You do not offer me anything but gifts of death. I have come to terms with my past, I do not need you to chastise me. I do not profit from that at all, peace.

when I was younger around 19 I committed some credit card fraud because of the difficulties of my parents (this issue has always been present, it is a matter of spirit vs. religion) and I am now almost 27.

I do not practice anything except meditation and I do not believe in anything at all. This openness to the universe has made my being very unattached so it is really hard for me to do the same routine over and over and over. Its like a hamster who has become aware of his wheel. This is not something I can just force myself to do. I am TOO aware. People who are dead inside displease me greatly, I simply do not function well around them. I want peace, and most jobs I am able to do are fast paced, anxiety inducing crap work that I find absolutely pointless, like a dry cleaner pressers. This is purely emotional and I cannot turn off my spirit. I do not mind doing things, I am not lazy, but I will not be a slave and I have to have peace in my life. I am too interconnected to love to step away from it for long.

Someone's trying to earn their crazy pay.

Ahhhhh hahahaha.

Yeah, true enough, CG... but the problem is if those mosquitoes and other blood sucking bugs would rapidly develop the same "spirituality" that OP has developed. Not sure why but that'd be one bizarrely funny incident of "The Attack of the Nihilist Mosquitoes!".

Go get a server job in the Keys.

You can try to describe me, but you will not make me falter.

I am the wind, I am the dust beneath your finger nails.

I am the moon and the stars and the sky.

You cannot touch me, even if you can see me and feel me.

I am immortal, yet I do not even exist.

Please, keep trying to help me mentally, when all I asked is where a nice place to go would be.

Thanks. Peace.

I will be the guy in shorts and a T-shirt

I know Judah Ra has brought the heat onto their self, but I can't help but to feel despondent for him/her...a him I think.

Truly, Judah is his own worst enemy. This should tell all of you running rough shod over him, knowing what kind of thoughts you're having yourselves, that he lives in a state of personal hell...even if it's a personal hell he's in denial about.

Don't get me wrong darkwolf, I'm not an enabler and this is GLP, the land of the crude and rude, but I am an empath, and the brutalities are going to solve nothing for him. They'll just drive him deeper into the wall of pain.

Ahh, well, nothing I can do about any of it, so I think I'll just have a cry for a fellow human being lost, and move along.

Judah Ra is not the first, nor the last, hopeless case.

I know Judah Ra has brought the heat onto their self, but I can't help but to feel despondent for him/her...a him I think.

Truly, Judah is his own worst enemy. This should tell all of you running rough shod over him, knowing what kind of thoughts you're having yourselves, that he lives in a state of personal hell...even if it's a personal hell he's in denial about.

Don't get me wrong darkwolf, I'm not an enabler and this is GLP, the land of the crude and rude, but I am an empath, and the brutalities are going to solve nothing for him. They'll just drive him deeper into the wall of pain.

Ahh, well, nothing I can do about any of it, so I think I'll just have a cry for a fellow human being lost, and move along.

Judah Ra is not the first, nor the last, hopeless case.

Telling someone to grow up, get a job and obey the law isn't cruelty. It's actually kindness to tell someone this dysfunctional the truth.

I don't like being around other homeless people. Most of them are in fact not very good people.

True enough, Lisa. Unfortunately jobs are a scarce resource nowadays due to Obama and his Masters' actions over the years.

I am done with the lot of you.

Clearly the darkness blinds you all.

Peace out mother fuckers.

Have fun burning. ^O^

I know Judah Ra has brought the heat onto their self, but I can't help but to feel despondent for him/her...a him I think.

Truly, Judah is his own worst enemy. This should tell all of you running rough shod over him, knowing what kind of thoughts you're having yourselves, that he lives in a state of personal hell...even if it's a personal hell he's in denial about.

Don't get me wrong darkwolf, I'm not an enabler and this is GLP, the land of the crude and rude, but I am an empath, and the brutalities are going to solve nothing for him. They'll just drive him deeper into the wall of pain.

Ahh, well, nothing I can do about any of it, so I think I'll just have a cry for a fellow human being lost, and move along.

Judah Ra is not the first, nor the last, hopeless case.