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This was, as I have found it to be in this life, along the Ice Age Trail some twenty miles or so southeast of Ladysmith, Wisconsin. In that day I was a runner, messenger for the different groups of my people, going from, perhaps, Minnesota to Michigan. I do remember being in the Porcupine Mountains and somewhat further east, but not further west, except vaguely, than this place, which was along a creek some 10/12 feet across. It was winter and there was a couple of feet of snow on the ground, the creek frozen solid. I was with an old lady, whom I believe I was taking to another group northeast of where we were, and a young girl, teenage, which was close to my age at the time.
We had lost the trail and were worried about whether it was north of our position or south of it. I said south and, as I was the experienced guide among us, I expected to be listened to. The girl argued that it was north and wouldn't listen to me. She was convinced of her direction and would not take no for an answer, but I was also convinced. She walked off towards the north in a huff, giving me a terrible feeling of what was going to happen to her as I had some feelings for her. The old woman told me to let her go, so I did, but I have chafed over that decision ever since, to this day, which is why it sticks with me as it is a significant event for that reason alone.
I do not remember the rest of the journey, but in subsequent memories the old lady is there and the young girl is not. That old lady was a very significant person to our people and it was a great responsibility for me to get her where she was going so I was thought highly of for my decision to leave the young one to her own devices. Yet, I do feel bad about the whole affair.
Now, this brings to light your feelings of having known someone before, and whether to tell them. I would urge you to do so for if it proves out wrong and somehow laughable to him at least you have gotten it out and can go on. If, however, he believes, or better yet remembers himself, what a joy you could have in the reunion. To do nothing is to carry it around with you until you finally have the courage to let yourself be bold and tell him. I think it's better to get it out.
Quoting: wabishkaeyabe 28000005 Awesome story, it is very sad though :(. Do you know this girl today? Or the old woman? I would love to and for him to remember. He seems sort of closed off with that sort of thing though and doesn't believe in reincarnation, to my knowledge. He also seems insecure, shy, I guess? This is not at all how I remember or see him and I think if he could remember, he would feel more confident. No I don't know her today, but she did look an awful lot like you. I just didn't have much of a chance to get to know her well enough to tell her apart from someone else. As for the old woman, I think so, but you can never tell nowadays by looks. Its what's in the heart that tells the most. I know my personality is still at least close to the same, although I have a good deal more confidence now than then. If I do meet her I hope she's at least changed a little. I hope she can keep her ego in check long enough to listen. As for your situation, we here on the rez need to have our spirit names before we know who we are. We also need to know our clan. With these two things we pretty much automatically feel more confident, because we have our identity, we know who we are. How you do it in your realm has always baffled me, except that many I have seen assume authority, which to our way of thinking is wrong, and thereby reside in a state of false confidence that must always be sustained by bravado and machisimo. A person who is shy or insecure would have a higher esteem than one of those others to us. If he lives in fear, however, this could be a problem. His reaction could go anywhere and backfire in your face. Sorry, that's reality as I see it. Oh yeah? My hair is black in this pic, it is dyed. My real hair color is blonde. I kind of feel like I had more confidence in past lives than this one. Not that I don't feel confident now, but I feel exhausted and sort of discouraged. Yeah, he seems like a strong person, but only in certain things I guess? He is very closed off in other areas and I don't even think he would entertain the idea of reincarnation at this point.
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