The Armor of God: Are you wearing the "Shoes of the Gospel of Peace" in your life?

I made it through 30 minutes of the video. I think I can say I'm starting to see some of what is causing me inner turmoil. I felt the same thing last night while reading Matthew....heh, and after the story about the Roman Centurion was when I closed the book....because confused. I read that passage four times trying to make sense of it. I couldn't even wrap my head around it, I thought because I had numerous thought's zoom-zooming around mind. Yet, perhaps it's because it is a confusing statement from Jesus.

It is confusing and frustrating to no end for me to look at all sides of this religion issue. I was okay-fine within the belief system I had about it, and I still am, but....it seems like it's an either you believe, or you don't gig....and either way, there can be consequences, according to whoever opinion it is you're listening to or reading....and I'm sorry, but our creator gave me free will and a soul to work with, so what do I have to question?

Why am I playing with this game of frustration with both sides of the coin, when I can just be who I am, and not be frustrated?

I seriously right now want to throw both sides arguments out, because it's like I have a ball of frustrated yarn in me right now, just gyrating and aggravated, trying to make my way through reading the Bible AND listening to a video like this one....I have the same reaction inside of me, one of frustration, and I just want to throw all of that out, because what good is doing me?....heh, it's certainly not going to make me a "perfect" energy worker, my ultimate goal.


But I do have to say that I think the crucifixion story isn't quite right, because I see one of the biggest control tools I've ever seen in one of the utterances Jesus supposedly said....

"Father, why have you forsaken me?"

....you see, this statement alone works to destroy our relationship with God....and the Christ Spirit I know would never say something like that, I don't care if that spirit was in "just" a man's body....and how could we expect any less of him?....heh.

That question posed reaches deep down into our psyche's and tells us we are too forsaken....if Jesus can be forsaken, then of course so can we be. The question leads to all kinds of punitive measures being handed down.

I do believe Jesus lived on, and had children. There's been much evidence of this, however don't ask me for a link, it's been a long time since I looked into that.

I personally think, given a soul, we are none of us forsaken, we just don't know we're not forsaken....and many of us don't really understand the free will we were given.

Humanity's falling from the grace of our creation was the very worst thing that could've happened to us....and we've been living in the fallout from it for millennia upon millennia upon millennia. We are "warped" like we are now, barely surviving in a warped reality realm.

I know some won't want to believe that, but I think that's because we've become too comfortable in our own misery....we've adapted to the lack of harmony in our lives. We've simply forgotten, by a long stretch of time now.

It's an incredibly sad thing for this empath that people don't understand the way I do....I've had an OBE into an originally created human being, on the originally created planet.

We are here and now PATHETIC compared to the way we were created, and I really do wish you all could have the experience I did, so much it just makes me want to cry with frustration, because then you'd know, without even a sliver of a doubt, what you are or you should be fighting for....the return to that perfect form wherein "All is One".

We were so magnificently beautiful in that One form. I want you all to know that...