can we talk?

Sure

i dont really know what to say

is there anyone out there who cares about me?

is the world really against me?

Everyone is compromised

This web of deceit that has crept into my life forcing me into a corner

Can I ever have an organic interaction with people?

All I ever did was try to be a better person or survive impossible situations and what do i get?

Ok, so you feel like you've been wronged in some way.
You can't connect with people on their level and so your interactions with others are not successful in creating a bond or friendship.

Oh and the internet is no place to meet people. This is a fucked up place. You can't ever be sure you're speaking to a person in any case

what does it mean for someone to care about you?

what would an ideal “organic” conversation look like?

have you contemplated the impermanence of life?

what's going on, op?

then you are doing everything correctly. keep being you.

world has a lot of people that are on the opposite side of your spectrum.

and just calm down and stay strong, no matter what happens.

you are doing fine

you are right

there was a time here when there seemed to be a person on every thread...telling me something i needed to hear. helping me out and i dont see it anymore. they are all gone

i guess they all stepped away slowly..like everyone in my life

who really knows their motivations...maybe it was just self preservation and karmic tinkering so they could break away clean..i get it. its whatever.

ill be okay..no ones coming to help me. i am just weak..

a weak human..and i am an absolute waste of flesh

Hey, do you guys remember that little game called 20Q? It got me every freaking time! So apparently it was created in 1988 and was a very early test to AI uses. It's a parlor trick sort of.

sometimes i feel that everyone i meet..already knows who i am. I can see it. I can feel it. They are just there to observe me. Get what they can. Find out information. Then they go.


drowning in apathy

thank you

20Q could guess whatever it was that was on your mind in 20 questions or less. You'll see them making bait threads on here asking you questions or to get a rise out of you. They're keeping track of your answers and what makes you angry

okay i guess i am okay...

the things i have been through...

unimaginable suffering

i guess i just want to be heard

maybe ill make some music

maybe thats what i need to do

when i was little i used to ride my motorcycle and while i was riding i would see how much i could think about...while still riding the motorcycle. I would start a math problem in one part of my brain. I would have a conversation in another part of my brain. i would also hold an image in my mind...sometimes several..and just try and hold it all together, solve the math problem while executing perfectly timed shifts. i was pretty light then so i couldnt get a lot of traction...thats why the shifting never seemed right

Hello Opie it looks like the thread has moved on however I would like to second the idea that meeting internet people is a waste for the most part and being vulnerable to strangers isn't very smart. Your post about making music reminded me of a music thread I wanted to make but had forgotten. It's for anyone to post music they've made thay they'd like to share. I don't like much popular music and I think making music is profound for healing, learning and communicating your feelings to others. Good fortune to you even though you're a stranger your words look clear to me.

keep your head held up high, never let anyone get you down.

a lot of dam evil assholes out there.

but they can only get to you, if you let them.

that is why you always keep your head up and stay strong.

that will win you 100% percent of the battles you will face in life.

speaking from experience, we aint done yet buddy.

i have faith in ya, now go make some music, just none of that heavy metal shit, ok.

Thank you for listening...
Its appreciated.


Alright, sounds good.
I am going to start looking into getting some equipment.
A small investment.
Thank you..

see this is what i love about this website..

there is good here...i know it

God Bless You All

Good night

signing off

Join the cyborg clan

Not right now hun this place gives me a head ache.

Talking with others one on one is my specialty so if you ever want to reach out I’ll be open to talk with you, Life Isn’t easy and it definitely isn’t fair but again that could only be from one perspective, from another it may be seen as fair. Sensitive people get taken advantage of, they get used a lot by others as well especially if they haven’t learned to have boundaries that are balanced. I don’t often respond to threads but when someone needs to talk I know what it’s like to need a listening ear With a compassionate heart.

Lots of love to you all OP

i been through some horrible shit, still ongoing.

just helping you, and how i managed it past 16 years.

except i did it without music, just never a fan, rather listen to my own thoughts and math inside my head helped.

but i know music heals peoples inner peace and strength.

bad shit happens, only one acceptable outcome from that experience and that is to grow stronger.

trust me, you are getting stronger from it. promise

Bless you too and good night dear...