Do any of you secretly watch the obits to see if certain people have died from the vaxx?

It seems cruel and weird. But I fell in love with a woman who lied about every aspect of her life and suckered me in with a huge amount of utter bullshit. I found she was a narcissistic psychopath and cut it off. I really loved the act she put on for me, though she was my soul mate.

I browse the local obits weekly and kind of always hope I see her there. It feels shitty and I hate myself for it. But she was the type to get triple vaxxed.

I know. I'm an asshole. But she almost killed me.