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Anonymous Coward User ID: 79543875 United States 12/09/2021 05:53 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Wow! I'm just sitting here working away and BAM I feel like crying uncontrollably and possibly rocking myself in the corner like a child. Where did that come from? How does that even happen? It doesn't even feel normal at all. I have done a pretty good job (I think) at keeping a handle on my emotions. I guess I still am since I am not crying or anything, but ... ugh Quoting: Only Me And if any one of you tell me it's hormones, I'm gonna smack you. :slappy734: The American empire is crashing. The collective ethos is going through the 5 stages of grief over it's loss. The fourth stage: Denial Anger Bargaining Depression Acceptance The stages can also switch around until you arrive at acceptance. Even feeling all the emotions at the same time. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 79543875 United States 12/09/2021 05:56 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Forgot to add that my sister swears something jumped up on her chest last night as she lay in bed right after going to the bathroom. Her hubby insists it was one of the cats, but she swears they were not in the room and the door was closed. She checked under the bed all around the room before she opened the door. Quoting: Deplorable Curly Howard Who knows? She has been very depressed lately too. Are we being assailed by hostile forces, either demonic or frequency induced? I lean towards that possibility. Could be. Satan and his demons rule the earth. |
joeym
User ID: 60510531 United States 12/09/2021 05:57 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I have had the same experience of feeling a wave of overpowering fear that comes from nowhere. I have had panic disorder for years but this feeling is something completely different. I feel as if we are all, collectively, very depressed. But, this wave of fear is weird. |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 79543875 United States 12/09/2021 06:04 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | it happens Quoting: Grove Street (revived) especially in the last two years with all the obvious evil pouring out through the lands of the world it's hard not to notice. there's a dark spirit over the world right now with what's going on. and some sheep are aligning with it. the ones who aren't are feeling all the negative energy of the 'dark side' they are losing slowly if we don't give up.. Never give up. Times are getting very interesting to say the least. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 81455764 United States 12/09/2021 06:17 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Wow! I'm just sitting here working away and BAM I feel like crying uncontrollably and possibly rocking myself in the corner like a child. Where did that come from? How does that even happen? It doesn't even feel normal at all. I have done a pretty good job (I think) at keeping a handle on my emotions. I guess I still am since I am not crying or anything, but ... ugh Quoting: Only Me And if any one of you tell me it's hormones, I'm gonna smack you. :slappy734: It's because you are in a lower vibration state, only you change that and block it out... don't let it be, and in turn you will starve them and they will look for an easier target to prey on |
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Militant Bitch User ID: 81100646 United States 12/09/2021 06:19 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hope you are feeling better today |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 81124351 United Kingdom 12/09/2021 06:27 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | ONLY by our Earthly bodies staying ALIVE.
 ONLY by our ENDURING “THE DARKNESS OF HELL”.
 ONLY by our ENDURING “THE LIGHT OF HEAVEN” ONLY then CAN we RISE ABOVE the LIGHT and the DARKNESS.
 ONLY then CAN we use the DARKNESS and the LIGHT as a SPRINGBOARD TO “ASCEND” UP TO THE NEXT HIGHEST SPIRITUAL LEVEL to where ALMIGHTY GOD HIMSELF LIVES – and to “MERGE” AS ONE with GODS “INFINITE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE” AND HAPPINESS, FOREVER! |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 81124351 United Kingdom 12/09/2021 06:34 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Wow! I'm just sitting here working away and BAM I feel like crying uncontrollably and possibly rocking myself in the corner like a child. Where did that come from? How does that even happen? It doesn't even feel normal at all. I have done a pretty good job (I think) at keeping a handle on my emotions. I guess I still am since I am not crying or anything, but ... ugh Quoting: Only Me And if any one of you tell me it's hormones, I'm gonna smack you. :slappy734: It's because you are in a lower vibration state, only you change that and block it out... don't let it be, and in turn you will starve them and they will look for an easier target to prey on IMAGINE YOURSELF INSIDE OF A GIANT BUBBLE OF "GOLDEN LIGHT". GOD BLESS! |
Only Me
(OP) Strawberry Girl User ID: 81130680 United States 12/09/2021 08:21 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Do you guys think that we chose to be alive during this time? It kind of feels like something my dumb ass would pick for my lifetime, given the choice. I mean, it sucks bad, but if this isn't the craziest part of human history, I don't know what is. I'd have chosen it. For sure. That's just me. I'd want to see it firsthand. Of course, I wouldn't have thought it completely through, either, which is why I'm struggling (probably). Goodbye, halcyon days... There is a theory which states that if ever anyone discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another theory mentioned, which states that this has already happened. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 14546829 United States 12/09/2021 08:29 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Wow! I'm just sitting here working away and BAM I feel like crying uncontrollably and possibly rocking myself in the corner like a child. Where did that come from? How does that even happen? It doesn't even feel normal at all. I have done a pretty good job (I think) at keeping a handle on my emotions. I guess I still am since I am not crying or anything, but ... ugh Quoting: Only Me And if any one of you tell me it's hormones, I'm gonna smack you. :slappy734: Ok. It's probably not hormones. Might just be you have a guilty conscience over something you just refuse to give up that you know you should? :idk: What, like caffeine or something? heh....or GLP doom overload.... I get that from time to time. Gotta take a break from it all once in awhile. :fuckit: |
I am Heimdall
User ID: 73112093 United States 12/09/2021 08:32 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | If you understand the secrets of the true sources of humanities consciousness, you'd understand that it might not even be you that is causing it. This reality is called the Game of Poverty. It was created by Sophia the Mother as a game for her husband, God the Father to play. All souled beings act as player avatars for God to play the game. The meaning of life is for all souled beings to come together and figure out how to end all Poverty. |
Only Me
(OP) Strawberry Girl User ID: 81130680 United States 12/09/2021 08:33 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | If you understand the secrets of the true sources of humanities consciousness, you'd understand that it might not even be you that is causing it. Quoting: I am Heimdall If you don't mind, could you explain further? I'm curious what you believe. Thanks! Goodbye, halcyon days... There is a theory which states that if ever anyone discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another theory mentioned, which states that this has already happened. |
Only Me
(OP) Strawberry Girl User ID: 81130680 United States 12/09/2021 08:34 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Wow! I'm just sitting here working away and BAM I feel like crying uncontrollably and possibly rocking myself in the corner like a child. Where did that come from? How does that even happen? It doesn't even feel normal at all. I have done a pretty good job (I think) at keeping a handle on my emotions. I guess I still am since I am not crying or anything, but ... ugh Quoting: Only Me And if any one of you tell me it's hormones, I'm gonna smack you. Ok. It's probably not hormones. Might just be you have a guilty conscience over something you just refuse to give up that you know you should? What, like caffeine or something? heh....or GLP doom overload.... I get that from time to time. Gotta take a break from it all once in awhile. yeah, maybe, but it really is freaking doomy out there, ya know? Goodbye, halcyon days... There is a theory which states that if ever anyone discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another theory mentioned, which states that this has already happened. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 80363889 United States 12/09/2021 08:38 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Wow! I'm just sitting here working away and BAM I feel like crying uncontrollably and possibly rocking myself in the corner like a child. Where did that come from? How does that even happen? It doesn't even feel normal at all. I have done a pretty good job (I think) at keeping a handle on my emotions. I guess I still am since I am not crying or anything, but ... ugh Quoting: Only Me And if any one of you tell me it's hormones, I'm gonna smack you. :slappy734: me, too. I can't shake it. Two days, now. My brother passed away last week and is no longer suffering, alcoholic on dialysis for 6 years. It is like I am always on the edge of tears and then, of course, I have had a litany of things break and a lot of money I didn't expect to have to spend. My dentist wants to charge me $2,100 for a crown and I about passed out. I am going for just the filling for $500. Thinking, my luck, I'd need a root canal next year and have to pay for a whole new crown. I live close to Mexico but don't want to risk Covid. Shit! Garage door broke, water pressure regulator, sink faucet, water fountain leaked and the pump fried, oh and an upper gi and endoscopy...haiatal hernia...probably surgery, since meds haven't worked. Thank you, Lord, no Covid. That, of course, would be the icing...but I do have all my protocol ready to go, if I need it. |
Only Me
(OP) Strawberry Girl User ID: 81130680 United States 12/09/2021 08:41 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Wow! I'm just sitting here working away and BAM I feel like crying uncontrollably and possibly rocking myself in the corner like a child. Where did that come from? How does that even happen? It doesn't even feel normal at all. I have done a pretty good job (I think) at keeping a handle on my emotions. I guess I still am since I am not crying or anything, but ... ugh Quoting: Only Me And if any one of you tell me it's hormones, I'm gonna smack you. me, too. I can't shake it. Two days, now. My brother passed away last week and is no longer suffering, alcoholic on dialysis for 6 years. It is like I am always on the edge of tears and then, of course, I have had a litany of things break and a lot of money I didn't expect to have to spend. My dentist wants to charge me $2,100 for a crown and I about passed out. I am going for just the filling for $500. Thinking, my luck, I'd need a root canal next year and have to pay for a whole new crown. I live close to Mexico but don't want to risk Covid. Shit! Garage door broke, water pressure regulator, sink faucet, water fountain leaked and the pump fried, oh and an upper gi and endoscopy...haiatal hernia...probably surgery, since meds haven't worked. Thank you, Lord, no Covid. That, of course, would be the icing...but I do have all my protocol ready to go, if I need it. My goodness. You haven't been hit by some random confusing wave of anything. You have just been unable to catch a damn break, sounds like! You have a LOT of stressors in your life all at once. I am so very sorry :( Goodbye, halcyon days... There is a theory which states that if ever anyone discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another theory mentioned, which states that this has already happened. |
Only Me
(OP) Strawberry Girl User ID: 81130680 United States 12/09/2021 08:42 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Surely, I am nowhere near important enough to waste that type of precious resource on. I'm just me - a random harmless chick in Oklahoma. Totally unimportant and not special enough to be targeted as a threat of some kind. right? Goodbye, halcyon days... There is a theory which states that if ever anyone discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another theory mentioned, which states that this has already happened. |
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(OP) Strawberry Girl User ID: 81130680 United States 12/09/2021 08:48 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Thanks for that - I bumped it so I can watch those videos later on. Goodbye, halcyon days... There is a theory which states that if ever anyone discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another theory mentioned, which states that this has already happened. |
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I am Heimdall
User ID: 73112093 United States 12/09/2021 09:02 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | If you understand the secrets of the true sources of humanities consciousness, you'd understand that it might not even be you that is causing it. Quoting: I am Heimdall If you don't mind, could you explain further? I'm curious what you believe. Thanks! I don't believe I know, I aided Odin in the creation of humanity. If you haven't check out my thread: [link to www.godlikeproductions.com] I explain a lot more of it there. Your consciousness is made up of about 95% spirit and 5% soul. Spirit energy is also known as Yin, Life, Void, Wisdom, Ka, Shakti, or Feminine energy and Soul energy is known as Yang, Assembly, Light, Knowledge, Ba, or Masculine energy. When thinking of our Yin and Yang aspects and how they operate, let's consider relating it to logging into an MMORPG game like World of Warcraft or perhaps like the Movie Ready Player One if that helps you. You have your Yang/Soul and your Yin/Spirit, Yang/Soul is the person that is logged into the game, think of it kind of like the controller + person playing the game. While the Spirit/Yin is the game itself manifesting itself into the character to make it do what the controller(soul) is telling it to do. So if you were playing a video game, the Yang/Soul part of your consciousness is the one operating the controller. You tell it to walk over there or punch that wall, etc. This is basically what your Soul is. You are a "Begetter" which is a soul fragment of God the Father that was sent into the Game of Poverty in order to play the game. Understanding the Soul is fairly simple. It exists as a spark/flame inside your heart. Now your Yin/Spirit is much more complex. You see the entire system, the entire game runs on Spirit. In a game, when you tell your character to attack, you are giving a command to the program to have the body of your character execute an attack move. Spirit is the program that your Soul gives a command to that then manipulates the reality it governs to execute the command. Now when thinking about reality, think of us in the middle of a giant Ocean of Spirit. The entire Matrix is an Ocean of spirit energy. We ourselves are like sea sponges, sucking the waters of spirit through us and releasing it back into the Ocean with every breath. https://imgur.com/a/K1P3cuY Here's a picture of your 7 chakras. Now each one of our chakras are basically like an spirit water pump, they each suck through spirit energy that is at a particular vibration and uses that spirit water energy to fuel our consciousness. So in truth we are multiple consciousnesses flowing together to be one, like multiple currents flowing through a single ocean. This is part of the reason why science has not been able to find what part of the brain your memories are stored in. Its because they aren't stored in your brain, they are part of the matrix itself. You ever heard of the advice that if you were thinking of something and forgot to return to the room where you thought of it in? That's because you just might have left it in that room believe it or not. You actually have multiple chakra points across your body that are constantly receiving consciousness flows from the matrix. Many of your thoughts might not actually be coming from you, but from the matrix itself feeding them into you for your soul to use to make decisions. Science has also found in the last few decades as well that humans have neurons all throughout their torsos. And that the human heart has 40,000 neurons and is capable of individual thought. Your gut is also filled with neurons as well, if you study this further you will actually find that different parts of your personality and mind actually do correlate with the major chakra points. https://imgur.com/a/kl0x3CK So you'll find the neurons in your upper gut do correspond with your ego, and when you are in love and seduced and they say you have butterflies in the stomache, its really your sacral chakra reacting. One of the more popular mantras in meditation is "I am not the body, I'm not even the mind." In a way this is true, as your mind is actually composed of the incoming spirit flows feeding into your chakras from the matrix, which causes thoughts to flow into your brain. The only part of your consciousness your soul usually takes part in is the decision on how to react to those thoughts. So say you are in a situation where someone is teasing you. In this situation, your spirit consciousness is likely giving your mind options on what to do, and you soul picks which to do. So your spirit might tell you that you should come back with a witty remark, walk away, or slap them. You soul then chooses which of those to do. If you chose to slap them, then your spirit consciousness takes over and runs the programming within you to cause your body to slap them. If you have more questions feel free to ask here or in the thread I linked. Last Edited by I am Heimdall on 12/09/2021 09:05 PM This reality is called the Game of Poverty. It was created by Sophia the Mother as a game for her husband, God the Father to play. All souled beings act as player avatars for God to play the game. The meaning of life is for all souled beings to come together and figure out how to end all Poverty. |
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(OP) Strawberry Girl User ID: 81130680 United States 12/10/2021 06:22 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | updated the op It's definitely grief. Goodbye, halcyon days... There is a theory which states that if ever anyone discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another theory mentioned, which states that this has already happened. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 77099315 United States 12/10/2021 07:19 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | If you understand the secrets of the true sources of humanities consciousness, you'd understand that it might not even be you that is causing it. Quoting: I am Heimdall If you don't mind, could you explain further? I'm curious what you believe. Thanks! I don't believe I know, I aided Odin in the creation of humanity. - [imgur] [link to imgur.com (secure)] - Interesting image, but is there no "out" ? Won't we get overloaded with "energy" ? |
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(OP) Strawberry Girl User ID: 81130680 United States 12/10/2021 07:36 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | It's part of the process of waking up. You'll understand the grand architecture of it all later on. You'll struggle now but isn't that what will build your character? Make you the Rock? Suffering leads to... Quoting: Ar 78182845 I guess you're right. I do feel like I've been given a grace period that lasted far longer than I deserve. I mean, here I am with a job that hasn't said a word to me about shots, I'm in a new home with a large yard that I can use for gardening, I have the most comfy bathtub in the world (not important, but seriously wow), all the food I need (and want), family safe and secure... So many people are suffering so badly and here I am complaining about the world from my comfortable house. I know my grace period will run out, that it is just a matter of time, but I've been given a longer period of time to slowly adjust. It feels a little unfair and I feel a little guilty about it. Nonetheless, I feel it coming like a freight train. Whatever it is, it's coming. Goodbye, halcyon days... There is a theory which states that if ever anyone discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another theory mentioned, which states that this has already happened. |
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