Never felt so alone, nor have I ever wanted to be so...

Problem? your frilly little pink panties are obviously in a knot

Reaction?


Solution?
swap them out for a clean Thong
you'll be right as rain, Sir!

I don’t know if the OP or anyone else will read this, much less understand but, first there are plenty of people in the same boat, on both sides of the ideological spectrum. Which is what makes it tragic those commie kids in Antifa and BLM think Marxism is the salvation they are seeking.

But my point, no one really wants to live in times that try people’s souls, but what separates us from the ones who sold out to evil is faith. I use to be angry at circumstances myself, and curse God for abandoning us and letting us suffer, but it’s true we left God.

Free will is a biggie in life, it’s why even the evil ones require you to opt in to their shit. They can blackmail you, threaten you with starvation or expulsion from society but really in the end it’s the weakness of people that make them sell out.

This is both a test of faith and a test of spirit. The hardships we endure will make us stronger then the evil ones can possibly imagine.

This is the great filter. If we succumb to evil and negative energy, humanity will go extinct, because we will have truly lost Gods grace. We must persevere

Spend time with your loved ones. Face to face. Spend more time with nature. It's not so critical to have a family if you aren't fit for it. You won't be blamed for that. That was something driven into you through decades of finely programmed psychological grooming.

You were lucky enough to experience both sides of the coin. The days before 9/11, the days before the smartphone or smart anything. You also experience this era as well. It should be your duty to help the youth understand what is being done to them. Imagine the burden it placed on you and now accelerate that and multiply it. That's what these generations are experiencing and its ever increasing ever generational.

You have experienced both sides of the coin and it is up to you to be the guiding voice of the new generations. And im not talking about politics or gender issues or superfluous societal issues.

Im talking about this mother fucking technology trapping people inside their devices and disconnecting human beings from the human connection. Generations are now even growing up in their own fucking homes, not able to socialize because of this mild temporary cough of a pandemic virus.

They're trying to build a virtual prison.

MAURY... YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE AND DAN WILL ALWAYS BE A PUNK ASS BITCH!!!

FACT... NOW GTFO OF SPOKANE

At least they had beautiful classic music by the ship's
volunteer musicians as the Titanic sank...

(...tried to think of something positive...yeah, pretty
lame.)


The Oracle's Cookie

I think life is about spiritual development.

There is always opportunity to develop yourself.

You can impact the world in a positive way.

My belief is that in whatever condition you leave this world, you will be in the same condition in the next world. From your prospective, it’s not the world with the problems, it’s you with the problems and every moment is an opportunity to work on them.

If I may.....what you do is live your life regardless of what we may think or feel is coming. I'm married with 4 kids. I'm 49 but have outlived my life expectancy thus far by 6 years and counting. Due to a past medical issue, 3 times in my life, I have been left for dead but I chose to get up and fight. So, I have had the choice to continue with great pain and discomfort or surrender to the inevitability of death prematurely without the suffering. I chose to live! So, my life, my career, my everything changed with my condition. Big deal! Had to learn to walk again. Big deal! Had to fight thru years of physical therapy. Big deal! Every single day hurts like hell! Big freakin deal! None of that matters.....

What matters is, those who love me the most. To look at them when they were so scared that I was gonna die or when they were so sad that I could not be the husband and father that they knew, nearly killed me more than the injuries. And that was my motivation to get up and fight. Now, I'm physically stronger than I have been in years. I proved 25 doctors dead wrong about their diagnosis'. And I am here for my family every day...good days and (sometimes still) bad days. My point is this....strength doesn't come from an outside source or a hero saving the day. It comes from within you! Courage is standing in the face of your fears then plowing right thru them regardless of how much time you have left or the outcome. Tomorrow is never guaranteed and regret will only cause isolation and failure!

If I had a way to look into my future and be able to change my past, I wouldn't change a damn thing in my life. Most would and that's understandable. But every screw up, every broken road, every failure has lead me to where I am right now. So, I wouldn't change a thing.

Live your life and change the world while you can. Don't look back with sadness and regret. That's all I'm getting at....good luck. I hope you find happiness

Forgive me for being glib, but life sucks and then you die.
Some people are handed charmed lives for some reason.
The rest of us have to struggle.

I lost any illusions of a happy ending 20 years ago.
No such thing, so cherish those who matter who stay with you.
The rest, forget. Many of us play by proper rules, but the majority, do not.

Decompress. Get away from television and media. Get back to your roots. Spend more time outdoors. Reality is what surrounds you. The world has always been this way, it's nothing new, everything is just delivered to you now via television, computers and phones. Too much access to information can be bad sometimes. Stay awake, but find peace within yourself. Unplug, exercise, spend time in nature. Spend time preparing meals, walking and building things with your hands. The world's problems are not your burden, your shoulders can only hold so much weight. As for your cousin, he has his own path as do you. People and relationships change, stay focused, be there for people but take care of yourself. Find some like minded folks if ya can. Good luck to you (ps: we all feel that way sometimes)

THONGS ARE NOT COMFORTABLE

Personal repentance is for you, and yours alone to claim. Culturally, I think we are at an inflection point and maybe we need a NDE to awaken enough people. I feel you OP, thanks for your posting. 'It is what it is'...

Hommage to you my Friend.

You are exactly in the place and time to make others understand that this reality is not what it seems like.

You are a gatherer of souls, you have the ability to lead people into their inner natural truth. Find your way, you are not alone. Never were, never will be!

Take a deep breath. Understand that going from Fear to eternal and infinite Love is for you just a fingersnap away.

OP, heart breaking to read your current thoughts....but circumstances change as do thoughts

We are here to learn, grow, evolve...this is an opportunity

We are not here to find pleasure, happiness, or to have all our desires granted.

Go ahead and mourn the loss of the future we all wanted, then get up and work. Work for God, work for family, work for mankind.

Be careful what you watch, read and think, because it not only colors your life but the world.

Lots of great advice given to you here...and as a mother of two your age here is my 2 cents.

If you haven’t seen the movie “Life Is Beautiful” please watch it. If you have seen it, watch it again.

I believe a man needs a purpose for his life to have meaning, this purpose will involve serving others...might be a family, a cause, etc.

We are all going to die, but what we do while we are here matters.



Also I do believe most mainstream churches are corrupted, but I have found Steve Smothermon’s sermons from Legacy Church truthful and motivating. He speaks out against his Governor, and what is happening today....if GLP could create a pastor it would be like him.

None of us knows what God has planned for us, have faith and hope and stand for what you know is right.

Clean your own house (metaphor). Go and sin no more. All you have control over is you and that matters. You are here to refine yourself and we all chose to be here in this time. Perhaps it was to be challenged.

i am moved by your words.

do yourself a favor and try & find a place where you can volunteer even during covid.

you need to take the focus off of yourself and focus on something else.

you have given too much time in ruminating about the past and yourself

if all else fails call your local soc serv or mental health counselor

Yes, volunteer! Become part of the community in any small way you can. Thanks Bailey! Great point to fall asleep with. Volunteer....brilliant. Feck, now why didn't I think of that for myself? Doesn't matter the worms in my ear now! God Bless.

YOU ARE NOT ALONE

BUT
PRASE YAHWEH EVEN IF IT IS HARD TO DO, PROCLAIM YAHUSHUWA, AND COMIT NOT TO BACK DOWN.

DEVIL WILL RUN AWAY

sounds more like to me, that you have a fear of success. You didn't want life to change because it was so good already. And you believed liberal lies that if you just did nothing your life would unfold for you and everything would work out. You believe in God but it is clear you trust Satan more.

You read your Bible and yet do not embrace the meaning of them. Like the parable of the 10 Virgins waiting for their prince to take them ways to a better life. 5 were prepared, and 5 lived in the moment. When time came for them to have their opportunity the wise ones where chosen while the other 5 went missing. Moral of the story is it takes more than just your heart to be prepared for your lord and savior. You need to prepare for the future so you can sere him well. After all no one is going to take someone seriously or follow them who does not appear blessed after all.

Same with the wise king that gave his servants talents and then left with a promise to return. All of his servants that took risk invested and grew what they had from their talents were praised when he returned and were blessed with more. However the lowest of the servants that berried his talent was punished. He wasn't any good to his king. God did not give you gifts and talent for you to hide his gift in fear of being punished for attempting to be prosperous. You were already at the lowest run with little to lose and could go no lower then were you were at. Look at you now.

You have made and done nothing with your life but praised him in vein. The parable of the periodical son too has the same message. Most pastured focus on the son that left his family for what the thought would be and easier life. They claim it is a story about reconciliation with God.

Actually it is about the other son that stayed on the farm and never left his comfort zone. He never grew in understanding nor wisdom. He than was shocked when he received zero rewards for hanging around. He was then told to be happy for his brother who came home and saw the light of day. You were not put on this earth to stay on the farm sit on your hand and be comfortable. Life is about struggle and learning to adapt and overcome. You are suppose to step outside your comfort zone so you can be a better more perfected person in your understanding of the world.

Just like the Bible said basically of those that came running to the lord saying lord lord we have believed in you and now you cast us aside. And the lord responded, I do not know you. Lord basically says, you didn't not follow my commands to prosper and grow in your humanity, and spread my good name. People always forget about the prosper part, thinking they simply just need to have good faith in God. The prosper part is what causes you to take on challenges and struggle to adapt struggle and over come, thus growing in your personal, practical application of knowing God. You need to plan too or you plan to fail. this is great sin to god you allowed you to have life in the first place.

Just think. If you had a child and they never matured. Never learned to feed, clothes and basically take care themselves, or others. They never accomplish greater skills that led to influence and better existence for themselves and others. Think of how sad that is for that parent. No one will want to seek out to hear about how good their philosophies are in preparing the next generation. It like you are killing God. Even parents with children with disabilities worry endlessly about what will come of their children when they are not longer around. Satan sat on your shoulder and you listen to fear instead of overcoming and using your abilities to do the world a greater service. And, now you want to hide yourself away in a gave and gnash your teeth waiting for death. SHAME ON YOU!

Boy, you are still alive and it is not too late. you can turn it around. But your spirituality on it own is not going to help anyone else, but yourself. That is a sin. This does not mean God want you to live in materialism. That is not a sin. Gluttony is a sin which means you fail to recognize and produce anything good for your your community. God want you to be prosperous. It is how you bring honor to him and set the example. So, realize your gifts, grow it, and use it to further both your happiness and his cause.

also, help the poor. Give your 10% whatever to the poor.

Giving = happiness.

After all Yah has instructed us to do that.

Self-fulfilling prophecies all of it.

BTW after Tribulation comes the Wrath of God.

This is so dumb. You have a good life. You've had choices and opportunities.

Let your cousin find his place.

It's not the end of the wprld.

Sounds like you need to get laid, TBH.

A new beginning would be if you stopped getting involved with decaying creation and start searching for the Creator who once gave life to it.

Sex the center of your life, animals you live and die like them.

Lol...you are seemingly correct. Never felt better then when I became monkish...all those games faded and I just see people (of either gender) as either potential allies/friends, or disdain of them. Ditching sex (my children are grown up enough) was a very fine decision.

I am very aware that I've become a "Stuck Record" on this topic but as each day passes, I become more and more convinced of whats coming.

Paul in Thessalonians gives specific warning. Chapter 2 Verse 11 tells us: For this reason God sends them a powerful delusion so that they will believe the lie.

And then again John of Patmos tells us in Revelations 1:7 "Look, he is coming with the clouds," and "every eye will see him, even those who pierced him"; and all peoples on earth "will mourn because of him." So shall it be! Amen.

Why would whole nations Mourn at the Return of our Savior? Because they have believed the lies that there is no God or that the God of the Bible isn't real. Who amongst us today are the Godless? We don't have to look very far to find them for they are spreading the Lies of Marxism everywhere. Our schools at all levels are becoming "Woke" and the Media is following close behind. Once us Trump voters/ conservatives/ Christians pass on America as we know it will cease to be.

Lets face it, none of us gets out of this life alive. Yet, John 3:16 tells us that: For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. So now this raises the Question that everyone must answer....Do you or I know Jesus in a personal way?

Accept Him as Your personal savior and then know where you will spend eternity. Its not too late to Accept Jesus. But some day relatively soon it will be, and those of us that haven't accepted Him shall join the Nations that mourn.

To me, its obvious who and what will bring us the biblical Tribulation.

So this paragraph is really the one you need to focus on. Stop looking back and look UP. It really is that simple.

You're not American. You're Canadian.

In my opinion you have become depressed. Depression isn’t a dirty word. Nothing to be ashamed of. Promise me you go to a doctor and share this letter. You need more happiness in your life and it’s there believe me!
Yes, all the things you mention suck, but life goes on. It’s how you choose to live it.