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eyeDR3
(OP) User ID: 79828781 United States 04/21/2021 07:01 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Our rent is increasing by 300, but we each still only pay 615. That is still more affordable than if I were on my own. But I've never felt the want or need to be so alone as I do now. Every warning is being ignored. I do not wish to impose, but I cannot help but feel a rather altruistic need to wake people up just as Noah was told to do. But I'm not specifically in communication with God, at least not in a language type communication form. For me, it has been more in the relics of the teachings of the past, of the moral staples in my life and the scars of past calamity. When Trump was elected, I believe that actually made me lose a bit of focus on myself and on God because it threw me for the loop of unrealistic optimism. Somehow, he was going to fix it. Now we know that just isn't the case. He did so much good, fought tooth and nail, walked through the valley of the shadow of death, but something eventually changed even in him. When expecting martyrdom, in the end I feel like we were actually lead into something far worse... We had expectations and thought the world could turn around, but it was false peace. The tribulation began in 2017 with the solar eclipse over the heart of the us and will end with the second coming of the solar eclipse in 2024, a 7 year period split down the middle with hope and anguish. I feel it is my duty to spread the word and to wake people up, but as Jesus taught, even mentioning him to others causes them to build their mental walls before me. I was lost in hope, in optimism, but now realize that i am found in an inescapable destruction coming. So what is there to do but to embrace it? I chose to be single and to remain without children for some altruistic and some selfish reasons. I realized the lust and pleasure wouldn't outweigh the burden of a wife and children going through this world, with me as their protector. That makes me both a coward and a savior to having never produced that potential outcome as I can see many of my peers, brothers and sisters included, have. So I sit in this meat suit awaiting an inevitable end, wishing it would come already like sitting through a really bad 3 hour long movie (I'm looking at you Batman vs Superman). And that breaks my heart. Not only for me, but for the wife and children I never had, for all the opportunity I not only gave up but willingly prevented or destroyed. And I believe that breaks God's heart even more. There are other "God's" but none come before the one true creator. They will certainly try, and rather soon at that. But what to do now? Just write? Make books? Print out my photos and everything else that is predominantly digital anymore? Is preservation even necessary if we are to understand and believe what is impending? Meditation, grounding, getting away from it and them all... So lonely yet so ready to just be done with it... :memorybanner: |
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eyeDR3
(OP) User ID: 79828781 United States 04/21/2021 07:10 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | The missing part of every equation is God, not because he isn't there, but because we choose to ignore him. Quoting: eyeDR3 We all perish and so too will this world, but our souls and their choices are forever. So... What do we do AC? Seriously, what do we freaking do!? We're on a sinking ship and there are NO life vests or boats for us... :memorybanner: |
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eyeDR3
(OP) User ID: 79828781 United States 04/21/2021 07:12 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | The tribulation began in 2017 with the solar eclipse over the heart of the us and will end with the second coming of the solar eclipse in 2024, a 7 year period split down the middle with hope and anguish. Quoting: eyeDR3 Nope. The Tribulation is not in any way based on America. It absolutely is. I provided only one snippet of evidence. Provide counter evidence to the contrary. Convince me, don't just tell me I'm wrong. Offer something. :memorybanner: |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 78051284 United States 04/21/2021 07:13 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | The missing part of every equation is God, not because he isn't there, but because we choose to ignore him. Quoting: eyeDR3 We all perish and so too will this world, but our souls and their choices are forever. I had friends and I got rid of them as easy as just stopping talking to them. I am 33 years old and never felt better about that decision in my life. I have never felt alone and still don't, because life is so much less stressful when you don't have to worry about anyone besides yourself. Having to worry about others is such a headache and a burden. All I have to say is if you want someone, go get them, its as easy as just trying. |
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User ID: 79152501 United States 04/21/2021 07:15 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I’m 28, I feel for you friend. Glad you didn’t turn out like (99% of) our peers, selfish, stupid and blind. Best of luck to you. Originally LSDMTHC FLORIDIAN NOT CANADIAN Christian, Father, Husband and a millennial. Fuck leftist viewpoints, they destroy nations. |
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eyeDR3
(OP) User ID: 79828781 United States 04/21/2021 07:16 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I would love to believe in a god but even if there was a god there would be no intervention from god. Quoting: solar2004 76804612 "This is the way the world ends Not with a bang but a whimper." You are just ignorant, and that is okay. You will come to understand as we all will. The intervention occurred in our inception. True empathy, kindness and love are mere byproducts of the free will. We were given a choice, allegiance to God and a perfect world, or allegiance to sin and a world of destruction and anguish. What did WE choose? Neither option promised intervention. Just as we cannot always intervene in our children's affairs, neither can nor should God. That's what is hard for me to understand that others DO NOT understand, is that it is all a CHOICE and we are not ENTITLED to being saved. We already were and we killed him! Last Edited by eyeDR3 on 04/21/2021 07:17 PM :memorybanner: |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 80226978 Chile 04/21/2021 07:17 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Thats a lot to chew on. I imagine the 9 yr olds of today, the smart ones anyways, are going to look back on 2020 & coronavirus much as you look back on 2001 & 9/11.....with scarring & irreversible trauma. And their communist indoctrination will be mandatory & complete. Sad state of affairs for sure. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 78051284 United States 04/21/2021 07:18 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | The missing part of every equation is God, not because he isn't there, but because we choose to ignore him. Quoting: eyeDR3 We all perish and so too will this world, but our souls and their choices are forever. I had friends and I got rid of them as easy as just stopping talking to them. I am 33 years old and never felt better about that decision in my life. I have never felt alone and still don't, because life is so much less stressful when you don't have to worry about anyone besides yourself. Having to worry about others is such a headache and a burden. All I have to say is if you want someone, go get them, its as easy as just trying. I would like to mention, while yes I live with my mother and brother, I only see them about 2 or 3 times a day, the other 6 hours or so of the day I spend by myself listening to music or playing games. I prefer it that way. Life is what you make it, if you want to spend time with people, go spend time with people. I am sure your mother and father would love if you spent time with them. |
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Sterling88
User ID: 80268052 United States 04/21/2021 07:21 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | You sound very down OP. You are still young enough to get married and have children. As a Christian I have no duty to allow myself to be cheated, but I have the duty to be a fighter for truth and justice. I believe today that my conduct is in accordance with the will of the Almighty. |
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eyeDR3
(OP) User ID: 79828781 United States 04/21/2021 07:23 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | The missing part of every equation is God, not because he isn't there, but because we choose to ignore him. Quoting: eyeDR3 We all perish and so too will this world, but our souls and their choices are forever. I had friends and I got rid of them as easy as just stopping talking to them. I am 33 years old and never felt better about that decision in my life. I have never felt alone and still don't, because life is so much less stressful when you don't have to worry about anyone besides yourself. Having to worry about others is such a headache and a burden. All I have to say is if you want someone, go get them, its as easy as just trying. You aren't wrong... But I will say it's rather 50/50. Both outcomes provide their own wisdom and experiences. :memorybanner: |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 80270648 United States 04/21/2021 07:23 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | The tribulation began in 2017 with the solar eclipse over the heart of the us and will end with the second coming of the solar eclipse in 2024, a 7 year period split down the middle with hope and anguish. Quoting: eyeDR3 Nope. The Tribulation is not in any way based on America. It absolutely is. I provided only one snippet of evidence. Provide counter evidence to the contrary. Convince me, don't just tell me I'm wrong. Offer something. The Tribulation, like the Bible, is about Israel. America is not even clearly referenced in the Bible. I've spent my entire life studying the Bible. I'm done arguing. |
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eyeDR3
(OP) User ID: 79828781 United States 04/21/2021 07:25 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Thats a lot to chew on. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 80226978 I imagine the 9 yr olds of today, the smart ones anyways, are going to look back on 2020 & coronavirus much as you look back on 2001 & 9/11.....with scarring & irreversible trauma. And their communist indoctrination will be mandatory & complete. Sad state of affairs for sure. You are correct, and that too breaks my heart. Just one example as to why I didn't bring children in. :memorybanner: |
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eyeDR3
(OP) User ID: 79828781 United States 04/21/2021 07:27 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Don't spend your time worrying about things you cannot change. It is already written. Quoting: EllenRipley Live everyday like it is your last, no regrets That is so much easier said than done for me. I've tried and tried again. It's inescapable. I could just tune out of everything but that still doesn't change the outcome. I know, I know. So what? I get it, trust me. But I am very confident in saying my best days are WAAAAY behind me, and I appreciate them all the same. But I'm just very impatiently awaiting the escape. :memorybanner: |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 80270648 United States 04/21/2021 07:29 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Perhaps He happens to be calling you out of America and out of this world and into The Faith in Jesus Christ, but America will burn. The Called-Out Ones, the ekklesia (Greek), the Church, Believers in Him. Perhaps you have been called for just such a time as this. Yes, you have. Yes, we have. |
eyeDR3
(OP) User ID: 79828781 United States 04/21/2021 07:30 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | The tribulation began in 2017 with the solar eclipse over the heart of the us and will end with the second coming of the solar eclipse in 2024, a 7 year period split down the middle with hope and anguish. Quoting: eyeDR3 Nope. The Tribulation is not in any way based on America. It absolutely is. I provided only one snippet of evidence. Provide counter evidence to the contrary. Convince me, don't just tell me I'm wrong. Offer something. The Tribulation, like the Bible, is about Israel. America is not even clearly referenced in the Bible. I've spent my entire life studying the Bible. I'm done arguing. You didn't argue. Israel existed then and still exists, but America wasn't around yet. We are new babylon. It's too perfect a fit... Even the natives knew what was coming to this land. :memorybanner: |