I agree.

I like Shepard’s Chapel because they just Read The Bible line by line and verse by verse.
The pastor’s there are both educated in multiple ancient languages and are able to break it down to what the wording was in the original manuscripts.
They are on 24 hours a day on channel 256 on my Dish network.

OP, you are not alone.
It is a good idea to get out in nature and be in prayer alone.
Love is all around you and I send you my love also.

Hang in there my brother.