Yeah, she won't go to counseling which is how I know something bigger is wrong... like she is afraid to face her own truths. She has at least some awareness of what she is doing. I've done my part. If she chooses to throw away 26 yrs and everything that came with it.. I guess she will have to deal with that mistake at a later date. By then I will have moved on. I won't play the yo yo game. She did this once already. There's nothing left for me to give and I'm done starting conversations or sharing feelings. She doesn't even know what she wants and is acting like it is setting me free or something. But she will go all day pretending like nothing is going on. She's trying to wait it out and make me make mistakes or something...or find out what I want so she can make sure I don't get it. Who the heck knows. I just want the girl I married to look out of those eyes again, instead of the monster that lives there now.