For some reason i constantly
had sleep paralisis.. but leaving
that aside, i also can decide
to wake up in dreams...

i dont control thems at all
but if in a dream i decide to
wake up for some reason i do it for real..

the most crazy i had , it was when granma died... the things i did in there
were like the freaking x men..

first i dream i was cooking ON HER kitchen.. i never ever cook on her kitchen not even dish wash i live in another house..

then several people from a limo came down
and try to kidnap me but.. i RE do reality so manh times that i keep appearing on the kitchen.. they had to say please.. so i agree, while inside the limo a guy with a grey smoking told exactly this phrase
"Death smell you, but was unable to find you" so his great plan was no other than buried me alive... i kind of feel it was cause for some reason i was living more than i originallh should... i had no problem with this since for some reason i feel this was a dream... and as dream i can simply decide to wake up.. when i want to, so the moment i step up of that stupid car i made the move, and i do wake up on my bed,i go to my kitchen, to drink something and when i was about to . i read Sleeping pills, thats weird cause in my house never Ever use sleeping pill neither in my whole life had a bottle on my hand , is the kind of thing i onlh see on tv..
THEN i truly wake up... i think whoever
this people is, they know i can do this waking up shit..

i wonder if that count as LUcId..

i think you lost your ability cause you feel guilty about the incident..
deep down you heart you know you
shouldnt have done that