May I ask, how old you are? Also allow me some comments. Nothing is written in stone. I will avoid the vaccine too, but for me that doesn’t mean death. How you get that idea, that you will have to chose death instead. How about you decide on accept life in the fullest extent.

The second point I feel I should give to your consideration is, that one of the many skills you have to master to free yourself from the matrix is to learn to let go. You won‘t escape as long as you hold attachments. Actually, first you need to understand who you are and who the others are you might be missing right now. In that process you will eventually understand how you are eternally entangled with these „others.“

It is not wrong to timely learn about a proper departure but may I suggest to learn how to properly live first?