I tried no fap for 4 days & couldn't last. Had a nightmare. I think my sex addiction is demonic. I was molested as a child

I have a sex addiction. I was molested as a child. If I'm not jerking off. I'm sleeping with strangers. If I'm not sleeping with strangers, I'm looking at porn. If I'm not looking at porn, I'm sleeping with prostitutes. I knew my addiction was bad when it got to the point of not caring how they looked and a matter of me getting my fix. I'm 38 years old and still some what attractive. No wife, no kids, have all my hair so it's easy to get laid, whether it's paying or casual fun.

I knew I had an addiction when a homeless woman who looked like she was withering away asked to suck my dick, and I said sure why not. I think I was 25 at the time and now I feel guilty and extremely shameful after I ejaculate. I know it's wrong, I know it's sinful, I know this isn't what God wants from me.

It has taken over and has crippled my life. I'm terribly ashamed at what I've become. I've must have slept with over 300 women and it kills me deep inside because I know a left an emotional residue with them that they've taken over into their life. I can't help it.

It's like people go to booze and drugs to channel their stress too, but I go to sex.

Last week I said this has to stop. I don't want to end up in hell. You won't believe what happened to me.

I tried no fap, no sex, no porn and on the 3rd day I started stepping into the brink of insanity. It was like I was questioning my reality and if I'm the only human with a soul here and if everyone was a robot. It was weird as shit, but it wasn't until the 4th day was when I realized I might have a demonic attachment that came into my life as a child during the years I was molested.

On the 4th day, I had a dream of walking down my street and out of the blue, a girl starts chasing me. I'm running scared down the street trying to avoid her because her face is all cut up like it came from a knife slash. This girl's face was bleeding every where with slashes left and right all over her face. As she got closer I sensed she wasn't a human being, it was like an entity and she grabbed me and asked if she could suck my dick... And I said yes. It felt so good and in the dream I was thinking in shame, what did I just allow this thing to do.

I woke up so ashamed. I need rehab, a psychiatrist, and to see a priest. Can't do any of those things with the shut down.