Notes from an 'Alternate Universe': The Return of the Blue Kachina

Waiting is good.


How I see you is irrelevant. The important question is how you see your Self. That is something I could only see if I was ~you.

That being said, I've said about as much as I should a few posts up, with some — perhaps — useful tidbits:

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Organise whatever Chaos you find, and it doesn't matter what your biology says. You are the authority.

But... don't invite me into your mind unless you wish for difficult choices to be made that you might be very unwilling to make for your self :) And most that you may inadvertently invite there would not be so loving, all things considered.

Forget about what you think you're capable of. That's boring.

Anything is possible, given the proper pathways.

How about something more of a thrill?

Huh. I lost that script years ago… This world of shattered hopes and dreams… The race to the top of the mountain as the forces of Chaos take over the world. Can the young warrior girl reach the mountaintop in time to take over the sphere before the old guardian dies?

That gave my head a good wobble…

[Emphasis mine]

The bold reminds me of the cat remark.

So you are still to "lose" the one you love?

Did you know that losing the one you love would be the final step when you were 13, and did you know who that one was or was knowing you'd love them enough to feel you couldn't live without them enough to deter you from wanting to lose them?




Wasn't directed at me but


I don't suppose I'd like to invite you into my mind, unless you'd be willing to tell me what choices would be made. Then again, I don't suppose you'd know until you were in my mind, lol

That being as it may, how do I invite the one who is to me as Maria is to you? It's not as easy as typing out some words, it has to be an other way of invitation that I don't understand, though I know they're willing to be invited. It's probably easier, in some ways

Well alright then. In the process of reading your reply I got my answer, the source of the answer is my self.

Nice to “see” you, old friend! It’s interesting to see your path too.

I’m interested in all those learning and notes you mentioned, if you can give some way to share?

Like?
I am open to suggestions

Lord knows I could use a little Help right about now :)

Oh hello friendly one. I'll be upfront, I'm like a snail that moves in micromotion and hides inside fragile shells with hardly any insight into the greater field of going-ons. So the byproduct of that is I often cannot grasp the topic no matter how I scowl my eyebrows and also tend to forget stuff I said in what, to me, is long time gone (such as a moon phase, for example). I'm not sure what notes I mentioned. Is it the various documents and projects of neuronics stuff? This is my best guess so if that's what you mean I'd like to avoid participating in any derailing, and so have a thread inspired by these threads authored under pseudonym "snaol" where I "dump" a lot of "shit" that I don't recommend reading but if you'd like a place to tag my attention I feel I'll check there recurrently, if not regularly. Sorry if it's crude to visit a metaphoric toilet, I can make a differing thread however currently I see no reason to. Thanks for looking at my work! Care well...

We're not so different, Tortas. Particularly regarding the bold. I'm sorry our past conversations were so frictious. Hope you're well

Yes so you probably lived your life constantly under pressure from strategic and mentally timeless people to conform to their example and blame yourself for being who and what you are.

Just to preface the rest of this abruptly ending message, I don't mean to sound abrasive or offensive, but I don't care. That's because doing and being who and what I am entails I blame myself anyway so I don't benefit from having even a person, a cult or institution to accuse. Hence my half-lidded ambivalence to these topics.

I've no grievance nor grudge about whatever we talked. We are perspectives. Thay says a lot. So I wish you well.

Hello Lady of Stars. Please disregard this foolish man's impropriety just this once and allow me to ask you if there is something in particular that appears to be the problem, or if there is a particular solution or outcome that you seek.

Since the time I wrote a list of things I could share, two things have changed in a "chaotic" period of living my life and minimizing the time I spend online.

First, I didn't keep a portfolio together and I don't have any high quality electronics to use so most of my operation of them is limited to the basics and I easily lose track of old files, due to this divestment of them. It will take a lot of stress and sulphuric effort to find them all again and I don't know which might be of use.

Second,I lost access to my old file sharing links due to not using them and forgetting login information. They also changed since that time so making a new account didn't help. In the time I thought I could be of use in resolving some issues or bringing relief I spent some hours trying to figure out how to share the documents I have. However progress was repeatedly blocked from every direction. In the meantime I launched an empty red*it subreddit and a dis*ord server which could facilitate some link sharing but don't like either of these much. They were like a last resort.

Eventually I figured since I wasn't actually asked it might be presumptuous of me to offer without solicitation. I was going to leave it be. However then today my father reached out to me and spoke to me about Apostle John's view of the common human vices which he summed as the vice of the Mind, the vice of the Body and the vice of the Ego. He told me that it doesn't matter how much I clean my body and my mind if my "broken" ego still runs my life and how I interact with others.

So I felt convicted and reflected on how things unfolded and decided to take the risk of being offensive once more and explaining myself to highly detailed extent.

This is after asking myself what would Jesus do.

Please let me know if I can be of service for my own selfish virtue-seeking and offer some of my meager tools to perhaps provide some relief, change, or guidance.

Respectfully.

Yes. It's quite easy to get sucked into Chaos and believe that the thinking is rational. That's the attraction of Chaos.

It's something that we all do at least for a small part of our lives, I think. Some more than others.

Hi Steph! First off, thank you for thinking of me. I’ve wondered about you, too.

I think the problem is me. I’m at a time in my life where everything is changing. I mean everything. My job went up in smoke. My son left the nest. My daughter is pregnant-Which is a whole bundle of chaos. A health scare that is still ongoing. And after living here for over 20 years, we have decided to uproot and move. To where, not exactly sure, but far from here.

I’m cleaning house. Literally and figuratively. Getting my house in order. Deep cleaning, organizing, letting go of useless shit. It’s stirring me. On some very deep levels.

What I seek….a stable, healthy me. As of now, I’m a work in progress. Like I’ve been torn down to the studs. It’s a little scary. Yet necessary. Everything is up in the air for me.

I have one Genius going right now. It is me glowing in health, surrounded in a place I love. Happy. It’s going to take time to get there. I also have a random phrase I use. I see it working slowly. Some little things, a couple big. The next big part is for the house to sell. What my future looks like hinges on this. If it doesn’t- then, well, I’ll cross that bridge when I get to it.

I would say to share with me whatever you’re called to. I will value whatever it is. Just follow your heart. I am open to receive….whatever….or nothing at all!

Hope you’re well! I enjoyed your video btw. Putting a face and voice to your sassiness.

Much love

Time will tell.


No.


No. I didn't know until about a year or so ago.

I first consider the big picture rather than my own personal feelings. Only the physical me would feel the loss, however, and they would not, themselves, feel much of anything as they become too metaphysical for my eyes to see. For them, I would be the one that dies, coming back to life again after some time. Though I'm sure she would weep in her own metaphysical way, at the time.


If I did not have complete knowledge of the larger system (though not the details) I would not step foot in any doorway except the ones around me.


One day there will be an easy way to do such things but that way is not so obvious now.

But for now, it's something that is crazy-making and I would not advise. It is easy to get lost in Chaos and can be difficult to resolve the two worlds. Reminders of the other world would most likely not be beneficial at this time.

All humans are insane by default, though some of us are just better at hiding it (accepting the insanity and moving past it, organising the Chaos into a coherent pattern) than others.

We are born in insanity, sourced from the Absolute. Those of us who are able to make our way out, from their own choices, are those who have chosen to see their Self for what it is.

If you had one-and-a-half wish, what would it be?

I am confused by this response, probably because my own post was unclear to me. Are you saying you would know, in general, what decisions would be made before you entered the 'doorway' of my mind?

If I did invite you, would you accept the invitation?

I'm hesitant mostly because I'm afeared of how you'd judge me, though to be honest I don't think any one could judge me any more severely or less lovingly than I do myself




Okay. If they really want to communicate with me sooner than 'one day,' I guess they'll make it happen, if they're aware of my existence. They probably don't want to drive me insane

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Honestly, I think that’s too personal for me to answer here.

Suffice it to say, to be the healthiest version of myself. Mentally, emotionally and physically. To be who and what I really am (and already know myself to be - I’ve caught glimpses)

I’m failing miserably atm. My drive, zest for life is sub par. I’m tired. My spirit’s tired. I’ve never felt so down in all my life.

I would be embarrassed for ‘Her’ to see me like this.

It is what it is….until I make it what it becomes.

Here’s to the process of Becoming Me. In all my glory.

(Do I still have half a wish left?!)

I decided to give a video another go. I am beginning to recognize that it is my work. Before, I was treating it like a fun hobby, but I don't want to waste time....my aspiration is big for this channel. It's hard to tell where to begin or even where to go next. Anyway, it's been inspired by these threads and I think it might be useful to show someone as an introductory perspective into these topics.

I say that, though I must admit I'm mostly just talking about my own perspective there, which I don't regret.

In any case I did share some stuff that helped me in harder times and I'm currently envisioning ways to introduce more coherent useful knowledge on the channel. This one is long, 20 minutes or more. I'm looking to whittle them down to 5 - 10 minute video length.

Here's the video. Feedback welcome from anyone.

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I decided to not worry about making the video perfect. I'll just refine it as I go. If something is useful let me know!! Thanks

Yes.


The first invitation was posting to the thread(s). That is the first connection.

The second invitation was asking a question that required me to make observations. That is a deeper connection.

Continued interactions are different kinds of invitations.

We each do similar things in our daily lives with others, though few realise what is happening. Connections may still sometimes be noticed, however. Those that do not understand what is going on would likely think of it more as an invasion of personal space, or whatever.

We are each opening ourselves up to various types of change whenever we interact with someone or something.


Judgements are just opinions. But I don't really have steady opinions on people or events. If I do it passes after the interaction moves on to something else, and then the opinion is forgotten.

For me, an interaction is more black and white. I think either "This is Chaos until proven otherwise" or "This is rational until proven otherwise", but I'm willing to change these opinions in a moment's notice based on new interactions.

"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times"

It sounds like it's time for a mind map.

Perhaps take a sheet of paper and put 'where I am right now' in the middle. Then draw lines to where you are right now that you don't yet see.

Then take a look at the so-called Hero's Journey process and try to determine where you are right now in the story. Bonus points if you can spot familiar faces along the way.


You half-explained your wish, so you still have a full wish left :)

“It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to Heaven, we were all going direct the other way – in short, the period was so far like the present period, that some of its noisiest authorities insisted on its being received, for good or for evil, in the superlative degree of comparison only.”

Very apt




This is harder than it looks. How many Hero’s Journeys can one person have? I feel I’ve lived that cycle over and over. Does this mean I’ve been a defeated hero time after time? Sure would be nice to live the triumphant hero and not doomed to repeat the cycle.

If I were to say where I feel I am right now, with laser focus, it would be somewhere between ‘Refusal of the Call’ and ‘Meeting with the Mentor’.

Then again, if I zoom out farther in the larger cycle of my life, I could be living between the ‘Supreme Ordeal’ and ‘the Road Back’. Depends on which lens I use.

I will think on it more. Thanks for the suggestion.

I will not waste this precious wish ;)

:)

It was definitely an introduction! I walked away from it thinking, man, I should start writing again. I put that down last year as well. Journaling would probably be good for me again. Thanks for the reminder!

I could see this being a great avenue for you. Helping you to organize your own thought processes with a net benefit between you and the viewer. Good luck!

Ah, thanks. Do you know now what decisions would be made in my case? If so, what are they?



Ah. I'm somewhat-understanding of interactions as invitations. You choose to interact with something, you choose to see more of it, and what you perceive also perceives you (since they're both "you"), so the more of something you perceive the more of you [something] can perceive

An invitation that would allow for difficult decisions to be made that I am unwilling to make for my self would, if taken, be of the "invasion-of-personal-space" ilk, I take it?



I figured as much, or something similar. The fear is a projection of how I judge/interact with my self, though I am working on being more neutral.

<<The more things change, the more they stay the same>>


Yes.. 'round and 'round, minding your isness by keeping busy.

You can only ever win or lose against yourself.

What were you saying about patience? They can never keep their appointments or something?


There is no invasion, of course, since the two are only pretending to be separate for the sake of the sense of existence, the extasense.

But fear can easily allow us to miss out on opportunities.


In a way, perception itself is judgement. I think many fear the word and concept (for whatever reason) without considering how much they need to do just that.

Hmm, do you mean the decision(s) will have to do with patience or that you would that I have patience regarding finding out what the decision(s) is(are)?



Oh, I know. Hence the quotes. The 'ethics' of the Golden rule are contemporarily questionable (and controversial, makes sense that you typically avoid discussions in this realm), but I don't mind



Gives a new meaning to "Judgement Day," I suppose. May be Judgement Day is just the day humanity at large realizes reality is perception

Well, my fears are quelled. You're invited into my mind. Excuse the mess, should you accept, it's been a while since I had company (jokes c: )

Yes. The Golden Rule isn't suitable for any 'globalised' world, or even for a large city.

Allow me to take the Golden Rule to the extreme and compare it with Universal Law.

Golden Rule: 'Treat others as you wish to be treated.'
-Some people wish to harm themselves, or worse. Following the Golden Rule they would harm others because they want to harm themselves.

Universal Law: 'Do Unto Others Only As You Do The Same Unto Yourself'
-Anyone who wishes to harm others would harm themselves first.

When psychopathy increases (as dictated by the Chaos of the modern world) then the Golden Rule becomes detrimental.


When we find ways to organise Chaos, many good things can happen!

Hello! I can possibly offer some guidance for this, but it could make some people really mad.

Well, I'm all ears