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(OP) User ID: 78858471 Netherlands 07/19/2021 12:09 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Go beyond what sounds good to what might be more likely to be true. Quoting: The Builder Someone that eats lots of fattening foods, for example, might give the excuses that they can't help themselves, have a low metabolism, aren't really that fat, etc. Their mind would lean towards what allows the self to not feel threatened. But it is more likely that they want to become fat or unhealthy. What, that I actually prefer chaos, conspiracies, pain, separation, hate and lies? Let's boil it all down to "chaos" and assume that it has some validity in order to see where it might lead. Have you conditioned yourself to lean more towards Chaos through the choices you have made in your life? This is not to ignore the direction you've turned to over the past year, of course, but how Chaos may still influence your interpretation of reality. Its music is your still your lifeblood, right? If you choose Chaos daily, at times, don't be surprised when it chooses you, too. You sure seem to be fairing better than the rest of us. Even being in Bhutan and the shenanigans they’re up to with their version of this ‘vaccination campaign’. Doesn’t appear like there’s much freedom there either. Quoting: Lady of Stars Not all you see in media is so. Some places have (and will have) more self-governance, and some have (and will have) less. Some much more, some much less. There are places where children are being arrested for various trivialities (to the cheers of some) and places where such things would never happen because the people would not allow them to. Do you remember a few years ago when I advised people that were in the US or Canada to make their way out because communism was coming? I sold my businesses and left. Quoting: The Builder How many of us wanted to talk about that? No one, from what I remember, because we don't want to think about such possibilities. I do. Very clearly. I also remember thinking to myself that I don’t want to be an ex-pat living in a foreign country. That I love America. This is my home. My children’s home. It’s all represented right here. Where I am supposed to do my work. That I was going to fight for her. As an ideal. Now, I’m so unattached to all of it that if I knew where to go and how to do it, I would be gone in a heartbeat. You don't need to know anything. You only need to have a clear head and heart and do something. If you don't do something it's because you don't really want to and would prefer to not do it. (i.e., you don't consider it the next step in your logical narrative) The communism, etc., is inside of us. It is a natural part of our perspective, manifested over time in various ways. Quoting: The Builder We can only perceive of ourselves, as I have all ways said. This also applies when we don't like what we see. We will find, one day, that the 'Emperor has no clothes'. Governments generally rely on the population for their power and sustenance. They are deeply afraid of the populace. But guess what? The people are willingly handing over their inherent power because they are deeply afraid of themselves. What happens when you are surrounded by people who rely so much on external government that they don't know how to survive without it? A decline in everything: Intelligence, humanity, creativity, resourcefulness, and love. And, most importantly, a decline in Chaos. "Good" is increased by increasing "bad" to the point where people willingly choose "good". The mess of humanity right now, or so it seems, is that most of us are willingly choosing "bad". And the world as it seems now is the result. This doesn't mean that we are doing obviously bad things every day. It could be as simple as a "reggae" song that is meant to deceive others, lull them into brain and spirit lethargy them with certain frequencies, and make them believe in a false narrative. Now imagine the "bad" foods, beverages, smells, media, friends, ideas, etc., that we willingly choose each day. The result is a "bad" interpretation of reality (because we have conditioned ourselves to choose it). Where is the spirit in all of this? Realising that we can bring ourselves to choose "good" by experiencing lots of "bad" things. Our interpretation is our choice. We choose our reality naturally. We are choosing to interpret things in a "bad" way so that we will naturally choose to interpret things in a "good" way. So when someone stuffs their face with fattening foods and says that they want to lose weight, for example, they're just lying to themselves. But it's the same with any experience, whether or not we realise it. At any time through 'this' we can choose to build and nurture viable alternatives to all of the systems we think are oppressing us. Quoting: The Builder There are places where it will be easier to do that, and places where it will be more difficult. Such as? Easier: Anywhere there are 2 or more people who are working on self-governance and self-regulation More difficult: Anywhere there aren't At any time through 'this' we can choose to build and nurture viable alternatives to all of the systems we think are oppressing us. Quoting: The Builder There are places where it will be easier to do that, and places where it will be more difficult. Such as? But we don't. Why not? Why do most of us spend more time on mobile apps than we do on our present and future happiness and prosperity? Because we willingly hand over our inherent power and freedom to more chaotic aspects of our perspective. Quoting: The Builder It is, all ways, our choice. There is no need to resist what you don't like. Make it irrelevant by focusing on a better alternative for you. Easier said than done. Here's one: easier to believe than to realise. Perhaps something isn't 'easy' because you don't want it. For example, if someone says, "it's so hard to stop smoking"; perhaps the person doesn't want to stop. "I'm addicted." Really? If the small cigar was attached to a button that killed you immediately when you put it to your mouth, you would have no conscious control? It then follows that the person probably doesn't have a reason to stop that is more powerful than their desire. If one complains without coming up with an alternative, it's just negative virtue signalling. In plain English, "a love/hate relationship" We come up with alternatives for things we don't want quite often. If a waiter offers a dish that we wouldn't like, we look for something else. Yet, people complain about a variety of other things but don't look for (or build) their alternatives. video 6: <<Beyond the Red Pill: Top 10 Black Pills About America>> [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
The Builder
(OP) User ID: 78858471 Netherlands 07/19/2021 12:13 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Do you remember a few years ago when I advised people that were in the US or Canada to make their way out because communism was coming? I sold my businesses and left. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 13999929 too late to leave now? If you haven't all ready, you probably won't. Fear is the primary tool of artificial governments, but it is also our own primary tool that keeps us in our comfort zone, no matter how uncomfortable that zone might actually be. There is all ways a reason not to do something. We can visualise these reasons more than the reasons to do something when fear is involved. Last Edited by The Builder on 07/19/2021 12:13 AM video 6: <<Beyond the Red Pill: Top 10 Black Pills About America>> [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
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(OP) User ID: 78858471 Netherlands 07/19/2021 12:24 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Everything that happens is you. Quoting: The Builder If you are perceiving something, it is you. You are free to interpret reality as you'd like. Your 'free speech' is beyond just words. It is everything that you experience. But it doesn't mean, of course, that your basest layer of perspective (i.e., your "conscious mind") will accept or understand the depth of what is being experienced. You lose me sometimes with answers like this. If I am everything, who/what does that make you? By saying "..what does that make you?" you are implying that I am not you, also. Think of it like this: You Are All That You Interpret and All That You Perceive. How you perceive 'me' is still you. You are not perceiving the 'whole' of me and nor do you need to. If you did, you would see that it is you. You don't perceive that because you are only perceiving a part of me. It is not possible to perceive all of me or anything else, or perceive your self wholly. This is confusing, yes.. because our language has evolved away from understanding such concepts. Like a character in a story that I am writing. I listen to you. We talk. I "hear" you in my thoughts. I don't really want to know what happens next, because it's more important to focus on writing the story as it is. I could change the plot, yes, but then I would not be letting the story unfold by itself. The world makes it own story, in a way, based on how the characters have evolved in my 'brain'. But each character is writing their own story, too. And I am a character in the story that 'God' is writing, so to speak. You are as real as someone/something could ever possibly be, as am I. My reality is disintegrating. Very real-ly. I don’t comprehend how I could interpret ‘this’ as anything but a nightmare-in-the-dream. My closest relationships reflecting back to me so much dysfunction within the operating system. So much suffering. So little love. Quoting: Lady of Stars I must be such an asshole of a human if this is the best I can dream up for myself. To look at it as anything but hell seems delusional. This is all so that you can choose differently. And then when you've overdosed on "good" things, you will choose the "bad" experiences again. We breathe in until we've had our fill, and then we breathe out. This is all so that you can choose differently. And then when you've overdosed on "good" things, you will choose the "bad" experiences again. We breathe in until we've had our fill, and then we breathe out. video 6: <<Beyond the Red Pill: Top 10 Black Pills About America>> [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
The Builder
(OP) User ID: 78858471 Netherlands 07/19/2021 12:26 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | My reality is disintegrating. Very real-ly. I don’t comprehend how I could interpret ‘this’ as anything but a nightmare-in-the-dream. My closest relationships reflecting back to me so much dysfunction within the operating system. So much suffering. So little love. Quoting: Lady of Stars I must be such an asshole of a human if this is the best I can dream up for myself. To look at it as anything but hell seems delusional. Then choose differently. Don't choose Chaos and expect sweet-smelling roses. video 6: <<Beyond the Red Pill: Top 10 Black Pills About America>> [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
The Builder
(OP) User ID: 78858471 Netherlands 07/19/2021 12:37 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | ..... Quoting: The Builder And you are free to interpret it all. The question for you might be, 'why do I interpret things this way?' Yeah. Why do I? The dystopian nightmare unfolding before my eyes. How do I see it as anything but? I find myself getting frustrated. With all of it. Honestly, fuck this plane. I feel like razing it to the ground. Like a fire breathing dragon. This ain’t living. Do you absolutely need to live where you're living? This is probably one of the toughest questions you have ever asked me. Ever. If you had asked me a year ago, I wouldn’t have missed a beat... absolutely! Now, that surety is out the door. I know nothing anymore. God led me here. To this exact geography. Geometry. I first experienced this type of knowing in relationship to my hometown when I drove through it in 1998 on my first visit to California. Just passing through. The resonance. The heart. The familiarity. The memory so strong. It pulled me. The Truth. Like I had been pierced with an arrow. We didn’t (buy) land here until 2005. For many years the question, “is it New Jerusalem or hell-on-earth?” has rolled through my mind. I have lived a thousand lives here. Died as many times. This land is my compass rose. It orientates me. Cradles me when nothing else can. It is imbued with all of this. Us. In a way, it is timeless. And so beautiful. With a very long memory. After this last year, I have detached. Energetically. From everything. Including my attachment to this land. My home. My country. It has been very hard for me in some ways. Eye opening. I have no idea what’s in store for me. The thought of leaving here scares the shit out of me. I’m tired. I’m not sure I have enough of me left to start all over again somewhere else. And Do this again. Not as the conditions stand right now. Not with the information I’m privy to. Another example of when the path of least resistance is actually hard as f^€*. My heart never steers me wrong but she definitely challenges me and asks, ‘oh yeah....you think so?’ Then, at the end of the day, you're comfortable where you are. Or, you could stop forcing the 'place' to be something it is not. That would cause tension. Your heart led you there but it doesn't mean you aren't supposed to turn back 2 seconds later. Perhaps that 2 seconds was enough to do the job. [But also see below] If your heart never steered you wrong then why is it unhappy? Perhaps the heart is not what should lead us, but provide only the fuel to get there. Are you imprisoned in the state? Or, do you have something of a choice (no matter how difficult doing that might be). Quoting: The Builder Sure feels that way. Then find out why you want it to feel that way. Don't assume that you don't want 'bad' feelings for yourself. In a way, I have felt under a form of ‘house arrest’ for the last decade. Tethered. Now, I’m like, uh-oh, am I entering solitary confinement if I stay here? Quoting: Lady of Stars The long walk home. I choose the guillotine. Looks like mercy from where I’m standing. This choice has surprisingly not been dificult at all. As you always like to remind me...I all ways have a choice. But really, where would I go? Where does someone like me fit? I make sense right here. That's the sound of fear talking. Fear does not change reality, only how it seems to you. It really keeps us from experiencing who and what we really are. At least here, I know the potentialities. Have relations. Familiarity. My community, although loving their artificial government right now, will totally come together, support and survive then thrive when the shit eventually hits the fan. This I know. My husband will be the best apocalypse partner. He is the most intelligent man I know in the real. Purposeful. He can do anything. Build anything. Wire anything. Grow anything. (That is, if our geometry holds and reconfigures after 25 years..which remains to be seen...and is also scary af.) Quoting: Lady of Stars Not to mention all the ‘others’ lurking around here :) I do know that I would be missed even if no one understood what was missing. This past year for me has been everything under the sun. I am not the same person. Then you will probably stay where you are. You're comfortable. It doesn't mean, however, that you will experience 'bad' things in future being in the same place. You can have a plethora of beautiful and wonderful experiences right where you are, but it will take much more effort to reinterpret where you are. That is why we 'change' our particulars such as location; to make the re-interpretation easier and more obvious. It might be time to re-organise your life. Find out what your emotions are attached to, for example, and send them on their way. Move furniture around (or get rid of it). Modify relationships. Take on a new style of dress. These are just slaps in your own face to show that you are ready to let go of old interpretations that are past their time. Be comfortable with a new kind of interpretation. video 6: <<Beyond the Red Pill: Top 10 Black Pills About America>> [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
The Builder
(OP) User ID: 78858471 Netherlands 07/19/2021 12:49 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | ... Quoting: The Builder Are we surprised, considering what we have allowed over the past 20 years? 50? 100? When we lose our bearings and become lost we tend to want to harm ourselves more. Sometimes slowly, as we have been doing. And sometimes rapidly, such as when we allow certain technologies into our environment or bodies. What is happening now is only happening because people allow it to happen. Nearly all have forgotten that artificial government is not the authority of their experience and reality. Yes, it's sad. But not wanting to exercise our own power is our choice. What are you getting at Anthony? Where do we go from here? I want to exercise my own power...what does that mean? I honestly don’t care about who I leave behind anymore. Breaking the perceived chains of materiality. A caged Mentality. I have to do this for me. Me. [“put your oxygen mask on first”] I now understand that you can’t bring everybody along. (I did try though. It was my Hail Mary. A noble effort. And very inefficient) Do you remember what I said about the bridge to the other Earth? Not exactly. That it eventually disappears behind you as the two merge..and that a third Earth is birthed (?) Please tell me again. Yes, the two have all ready merged. Some see it as 'clown world' but it is really us trying to make sense of who we really are. Reality is becoming more flexible (and strange) as we become more metaphysical beings. The 'new Earth' will take some more time to be seen, but not before we learn how to see it. Communism is the 'last stand' between Chaos and Order. They've had a bit of practice, and now it's time for the real thing. It is simply 'big government' or the opposite of self-governance. They will 'lose', of course, because they are playing a role in support of this Christ. The anti-Christ supports the efforts of the Christ, and the Christ supports the efforts of the anti-Christ. Ultimately the two are the same. Chaos is needed because we will re-fashion what is 'evil' into something more productive. We aren't going back to the Old World where people had Christ in their hearts (self-governance and self-regulation, awareness of self in others, and reciprocal actions) but are building something new that incorporates both. A world of more balance, if you will, that can only happen through the security of being Nothing-in-particular-yet-all-that-is. And I have no f'kn idea what I'm doing, but I will eventually get it right. I would do it a trillion times before I think of giving up, but fortunately it will take only a few hundred trials. We should begin to see the pendulum swing back again in 6-9 years. video 6: <<Beyond the Red Pill: Top 10 Black Pills About America>> [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
Tuuur 3.0
User ID: 79557708 Netherlands 07/19/2021 11:40 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Do you absolutely need to live where you're living? Quoting: The Builder Are you imprisoned in the state? Or, do you have something of a choice (no matter how difficult doing that might be). no, I don’t. I keep telling myself I need to live close to my parents and my son, but I am sure they would want me to live wherever I would be happy. Within a few weeks I can choose where I want to live, because my divorce is finalized then. But The Netherlands are very small and very regulated though. You cannot camp wherever you want for example, plus rent and house prices are through the roof. so: it would be living outside of the Netherlands. I have been thinking about Sweden, somewhere in the woods. But at this moment you cannot go there from the Netherlands without getting vaccinated or tested (both of which I am not prepared to do) Tuuur |
Lady of Stars
User ID: 75135236 United States 07/19/2021 08:05 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Go beyond what sounds good to what might be more likely to be true. Quoting: The Builder Someone that eats lots of fattening foods, for example, might give the excuses that they can't help themselves, have a low metabolism, aren't really that fat, etc. Their mind would lean towards what allows the self to not feel threatened. But it is more likely that they want to become fat or unhealthy. What, that I actually prefer chaos, conspiracies, pain, separation, hate and lies? Let's boil it all down to "chaos" and assume that it has some validity in order to see where it might lead. Have you conditioned yourself to lean more towards Chaos through the choices you have made in your life? This is not to ignore the direction you've turned to over the past year, of course, but how Chaos may still influence your interpretation of reality. Its music is your still your lifeblood, right? If you choose Chaos daily, at times, don't be surprised when it chooses you, too. It has validity.. yes. And yes, it is. The Prince of Peace found me in my mother’s womb. The Lords of Chaos at the age of 6. I remember it vividly. I’ve been dancing with chaos ever since. Trying to find my way through. Do you remember a few years ago when I advised people that were in the US or Canada to make their way out because communism was coming? I sold my businesses and left. Quoting: The Builder How many of us wanted to talk about that? No one, from what I remember, because we don't want to think about such possibilities. I do. Very clearly. I also remember thinking to myself that I don’t want to be an ex-pat living in a foreign country. That I love America. This is my home. My children’s home. It’s all represented right here. Where I am supposed to do my work. That I was going to fight for her. As an ideal. Now, I’m so unattached to all of it that if I knew where to go and how to do it, I would be gone in a heartbeat. You don't need to know anything. You only need to have a clear head and heart and do something. Quoting: The Builder If you don't do something it's because you don't really want to and would prefer to not do it. (i.e., you don't consider it the next step in your logical narrative) I have been doing....a lot. I seem to be approaching that which I have been ‘putting off.” The elephant in my mind, so to speak. This is hard. On everyone. I’m scared about what this means for me in the short term. It doesn’t mean I won’t do it. I am mustering up the courage to pull the trigger and thinking about timing. The communism, etc., is inside of us. It is a natural part of our perspective, manifested over time in various ways. Quoting: The Builder We can only perceive of ourselves, as I have all ways said. This also applies when we don't like what we see. We will find, one day, that the 'Emperor has no clothes'. Governments generally rely on the population for their power and sustenance. They are deeply afraid of the populace. But guess what? The people are willingly handing over their inherent power because they are deeply afraid of themselves. What happens when you are surrounded by people who rely so much on external government that they don't know how to survive without it? A decline in everything: Intelligence, humanity, creativity, resourcefulness, and love. And, most importantly, a decline in Chaos. Quoting: The Builder "Good" is increased by increasing "bad" to the point where people willingly choose "good". The mess of humanity right now, or so it seems, is that most of us are willingly choosing "bad". And the world as it seems now is the result. This doesn't mean that we are doing obviously bad things every day. It could be as simple as a "reggae" song that is meant to deceive others, lull them into brain and spirit lethargy them with certain frequencies, and make them believe in a false narrative. Now imagine the "bad" foods, beverages, smells, media, friends, ideas, etc., that we willingly choose each day. The result is a "bad" interpretation of reality (because we have conditioned ourselves to choose it). Where is the spirit in all of this? Realising that we can bring ourselves to choose "good" by experiencing lots of "bad" things. Our interpretation is our choice. We choose our reality naturally. We are choosing to interpret things in a "bad" way so that we will naturally choose to interpret things in a "good" way. So when someone stuffs their face with fattening foods and says that they want to lose weight, for example, they're just lying to themselves. But it's the same with any experience, whether or not we realise it. It sounds counter-intuitive in a way. But, I see it. Yeah, a lesson in when your word doesn’t line up with your actions. It’s not easy to look at that. At any time through 'this' we can choose to build and nurture viable alternatives to all of the systems we think are oppressing us. Quoting: The Builder There are places where it will be easier to do that, and places where it will be more difficult. Such as? Easier: Anywhere there are 2 or more people who are working on self-governance and self-regulation Quoting: The Builder More difficult: Anywhere there aren't :) Here's one: easier to believe than to realise. Quoting: The Builder Perhaps something isn't 'easy' because you don't want it. That is so true. To realize...takes action. Please stop saying I don’t want it. It’s so far from the truth of how I feel inside. I’ve never felt this way before that I remember. About anything. I am in unchartered territory for myself. Dancing with my own fears. Of abandonment. Not measuring up. Being enough. Who am I really in this sea of relationships? I’m sussing out what it’s showing me. Looking at the probabilities. Asking myself am I ok with the worst possible outcome? I know it can’t stay like this. How many leaps of faith does it take? For example, if someone says, "it's so hard to stop smoking"; perhaps the person doesn't want to stop. "I'm addicted." Really? If the small cigar was attached to a button that killed you immediately when you put it to your mouth, you would have no conscious control? It then follows that the person probably doesn't have a reason to stop that is more powerful than their desire. Quoting: The Builder That is also so true. Thank you for reminding me that I had a real powerful reason to stop. Overriding that self sabotaging desire. |
Lady of Stars
User ID: 75135236 United States 07/19/2021 08:13 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Everything that happens is you. Quoting: The Builder If you are perceiving something, it is you. You are free to interpret reality as you'd like. Your 'free speech' is beyond just words. It is everything that you experience. But it doesn't mean, of course, that your basest layer of perspective (i.e., your "conscious mind") will accept or understand the depth of what is being experienced. You lose me sometimes with answers like this. If I am everything, who/what does that make you? By saying "..what does that make you?" you are implying that I am not you, also. Think of it like this: You Are All That You Interpret and All That You Perceive. How you perceive 'me' is still you. You are not perceiving the 'whole' of me and nor do you need to. If you did, you would see that it is you. You don't perceive that because you are only perceiving a part of me. It is not possible to perceive all of me or anything else, or perceive your self wholly. This is confusing, yes.. because our language has evolved away from understanding such concepts. You are a very strong presence for me. In the feels of an other. I feel like you could gobble me up at any moment. I don’t necessarily feel that I could do that to you though. Hence the feeling of you having a distinct sense of autonomy within me. (Does that make sense?) Like a character in a story that I am writing. I listen to you. We talk. I "hear" you in my thoughts. I don't really want to know what happens next, because it's more important to focus on writing the story as it is. Thank God. We are on the same page then. It almost feels like a ‘choose your own adventure.’ My future feels unwritten in so many ways now. It’s exciting and terrifying all at the same time. ‘All roads lead to Rome’ I could change the plot, yes, but then I would not be letting the story unfold by itself. The world makes it own story, in a way, based on how the characters have evolved in my 'brain'. Quoting: The Builder But each character is writing their own story, too. And I am a character in the story that 'God' is writing, so to speak. You are as real as someone/something could ever possibly be, as am I. I hear you saying...where’s the fun in that? Free will is an interesting dance. Yeah, sometimes I question if I’m real at all and then, who the hell dreamed me up...what were they thinking...and also, Help! My reality is disintegrating. Very real-ly. I don’t comprehend how I could interpret ‘this’ as anything but a nightmare-in-the-dream. My closest relationships reflecting back to me so much dysfunction within the operating system. So much suffering. So little love. Quoting: Lady of Stars I must be such an asshole of a human if this is the best I can dream up for myself. To look at it as anything but hell seems delusional. This is all so that you can choose differently. And then when you've overdosed on "good" things, you will choose the "bad" experiences again. We breathe in until we've had our fill, and then we breathe out. This is all so that you can choose differently. And then when you've overdosed on "good" things, you will choose the "bad" experiences again. We breathe in until we've had our fill, and then we breathe out. I don’t remember a time of overdosing on good things. Not in my life. It’s been trial by fire all the way through. I did this mental exercise over the years...retracing the story of my life...seeing what I would change if I could....eventually, I figured out that I wouldn’t change a thing about my life path and how I arrived at this moment....other than being born. Again, how do we as individuals deal with what is transpiring right now globally? I mean, I hear you, but how do I do that? Choose differently in relationship to Covid? Covid has changed the geometry of society in such a massive way. It’s the Global 9/11. Borders shoring up. Families divided. Isolation. Prison planet. For me, I have boiled it down to, do I choose fear or love? I hug everybody. Respect others choices on it. I don’t worry about it actually. It’s like an afterthought until I go in town and am reminded. Put it this way, if Covid kills me, please see the humor! |
Lady of Stars
User ID: 75135236 United States 07/19/2021 08:14 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | My reality is disintegrating. Very real-ly. I don’t comprehend how I could interpret ‘this’ as anything but a nightmare-in-the-dream. My closest relationships reflecting back to me so much dysfunction within the operating system. So much suffering. So little love. Quoting: Lady of Stars I must be such an asshole of a human if this is the best I can dream up for myself. To look at it as anything but hell seems delusional. Then choose differently. Don't choose Chaos and expect sweet-smelling roses. I tend to think that I don’t have a lot of chaotic choices that I’m making in my everyday life. Maybe I’m mistaken. (If I could bottle up the sweet smell of my roses to share with all of you, I would. I have never in my life smelled something so sweet! Delectable! They are in full bloom! My Mother’s Day gift this year.) |
Lady of Stars
User ID: 75135236 United States 07/19/2021 08:23 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Then, at the end of the day, you're comfortable where you are. Quoting: The Builder Or, you could stop forcing the 'place' to be something it is not. That would cause tension. Your heart led you there but it doesn't mean you aren't supposed to turn back 2 seconds later. Perhaps that 2 seconds was enough to do the job. [But also see below] If your heart never steered you wrong then why is it unhappy? Perhaps the heart is not what should lead us, but provide only the fuel to get there. It’s the frame I’m in, in this moment. Having realizations. Revelations. Some ‘come-to-Jesus’-moments. I’m in the processing. Cycling with the grief complex. The divine feminine in me waking up to...all this. Perhaps that’s what’s happening for me as we speak. May my mind take me by the hand then and lead the way onward. Are you imprisoned in the state? Or, do you have something of a choice (no matter how difficult doing that might be). Quoting: The Builder Sure feels that way. Then find out why you want it to feel that way. Don't assume that you don't want 'bad' feelings for yourself. In a way, I have felt under a form of ‘house arrest’ for the last decade. Tethered. Now, I’m like, uh-oh, am I entering solitary confinement if I stay here? Quoting: Lady of Stars The long walk home. I choose the guillotine. Looks like mercy from where I’m standing. This choice has surprisingly not been dificult at all. As you always like to remind me...I all ways have a choice. But really, where would I go? Where does someone like me fit? I make sense right here. That's the sound of fear talking. Fear does not change reality, only how it seems to you. It really keeps us from experiencing who and what we really are. Fear is a mighty teacher. A spot light. At least here, I know the potentialities. Have relations. Familiarity. My community, although loving their artificial government right now, will totally come together, support and survive then thrive when the shit eventually hits the fan. This I know. My husband will be the best apocalypse partner. He is the most intelligent man I know in the real. Purposeful. He can do anything. Build anything. Wire anything. Grow anything. (That is, if our geometry holds and reconfigures after 25 years..which remains to be seen...and is also scary af.) Quoting: Lady of Stars Not to mention all the ‘others’ lurking around here :) I do know that I would be missed even if no one understood what was missing. This past year for me has been everything under the sun. I am not the same person. Then you will probably stay where you are. You're comfortable. It doesn't mean, however, that you will experience 'bad' things in future being in the same place. You can have a plethora of beautiful and wonderful experiences right where you are, but it will take much more effort to reinterpret where you are. That is why we 'change' our particulars such as location; to make the re-interpretation easier and more obvious. It might be time to re-organise your life. Find out what your emotions are attached to, for example, and send them on their way. Move furniture around (or get rid of it). Modify relationships. Take on a new style of dress. These are just slaps in your own face to show that you are ready to let go of old interpretations that are past their time. Be comfortable with a new kind of interpretation. I am comfortable in some ways. In others, I’m way far out of my comfort zone. Time will tell. Emotions attached to my husband, my daughter, my town, and this. Figuring out how and what to send where. Am I even capable? I am calling on my own BraveHeart to help me see this through. This past year has been a continual slap-me-up-the-side-of-the-head kinda year. |
Lady of Stars
User ID: 75135236 United States 07/19/2021 08:28 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Yes, the two have all ready merged. Some see it as 'clown world' but it is really us trying to make sense of who we really are. Reality is becoming more flexible (and strange) as we become more metaphysical beings. Quoting: The Builder The 'new Earth' will take some more time to be seen, but not before we learn how to see it. Communism is the 'last stand' between Chaos and Order. They've had a bit of practice, and now it's time for the real thing. It is simply 'big government' or the opposite of self-governance. They will 'lose', of course, because they are playing a role in support of this Christ. The anti-Christ supports the efforts of the Christ, and the Christ supports the efforts of the anti-Christ. Ultimately the two are the same. Chaos is needed because we will re-fashion what is 'evil' into something more productive. We aren't going back to the Old World where people had Christ in their hearts (self-governance and self-regulation, awareness of self in others, and reciprocal actions) but are building something new that incorporates both. A world of more balance, if you will, that can only happen through the security of being Nothing-in-particular-yet-all-that-is. Incorporates both of ??? Christ and Chaos? And I have no f'kn idea what I'm doing, but I will eventually get it right. I would do it a trillion times before I think of giving up, but fortunately it will take only a few hundred trials. Quoting: The Builder We should begin to see the pendulum swing back again in 6-9 years. Me either :) Me, too! (I have had some extreme moments of doubt though. Doubt is the killer of this dream) A wise man teaches me that practice is everything. |
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(OP) User ID: 78126863 Netherlands 07/22/2021 12:28 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Do you absolutely need to live where you're living? Quoting: The Builder Are you imprisoned in the state? Or, do you have something of a choice (no matter how difficult doing that might be). no, I don’t. I keep telling myself I need to live close to my parents and my son, but I am sure they would want me to live wherever I would be happy. Within a few weeks I can choose where I want to live, because my divorce is finalized then. But The Netherlands are very small and very regulated though. You cannot camp wherever you want for example, plus rent and house prices are through the roof. so: it would be living outside of the Netherlands. I have been thinking about Sweden, somewhere in the woods. But at this moment you cannot go there from the Netherlands without getting vaccinated or tested (both of which I am not prepared to do) According to the The Public Health Agency of Sweden, they accept PCR, LAMP, TMA or 'rapid' antigen tests. Perhaps a test where you supply your own cotton swab with cheek cells? This might be helpful, or not: [link to www.rijksoverheid.nl (secure)] video 6: <<Beyond the Red Pill: Top 10 Black Pills About America>> [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
SpawnX
User ID: 76686380 United States 07/22/2021 12:44 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Is it our own little battle of less governance. As it's just a play to another play to gain more pieces. Last Edited by SpawnX on 07/22/2021 12:46 AM |
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(OP) User ID: 78126863 Netherlands 07/22/2021 12:45 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Go beyond what sounds good to what might be more likely to be true. Quoting: The Builder Someone that eats lots of fattening foods, for example, might give the excuses that they can't help themselves, have a low metabolism, aren't really that fat, etc. Their mind would lean towards what allows the self to not feel threatened. But it is more likely that they want to become fat or unhealthy. What, that I actually prefer chaos, conspiracies, pain, separation, hate and lies? Let's boil it all down to "chaos" and assume that it has some validity in order to see where it might lead. Have you conditioned yourself to lean more towards Chaos through the choices you have made in your life? This is not to ignore the direction you've turned to over the past year, of course, but how Chaos may still influence your interpretation of reality. Its music is your still your lifeblood, right? If you choose Chaos daily, at times, don't be surprised when it chooses you, too. It has validity.. yes. And yes, it is. The Prince of Peace found me in my mother’s womb. The Lords of Chaos at the age of 6. I remember it vividly. I’ve been dancing with chaos ever since. Trying to find my way through. You know, you don't need to find your way out of Chaos. There is nothing inherently wrong with it. One could have a good and happy life following Chaos. It's counter-intuitive, I know, but "good" needs both Chaos and Order to exist. I have been doing....a lot. I seem to be approaching that which I have been ‘putting off.” The elephant in my mind, so to speak. This is hard. On everyone. Quoting: Lady of Stars I’m scared about what this means for me in the short term. It doesn’t mean I won’t do it. I am mustering up the courage to pull the trigger and thinking about timing. Is there a way to sample it first before you buy in? Here's one: easier to believe than to realise. Quoting: The Builder Perhaps something isn't 'easy' because you don't want it. That is so true. To realize...takes action. Please stop saying I don’t want it. It’s so far from the truth of how I feel inside. Realise that 'the truth' (as you imply it) has nothing to do with how you feel :) Here, I wasn't referring to how you felt, of course, but more of what could be the reality. Oftentimes, it is very different. I’ve never felt this way before that I remember. About anything. I am in unchartered territory for myself. Dancing with my own fears. Of abandonment. Not measuring up. Being enough. Who am I really in this sea of relationships? I’m sussing out what it’s showing me. Looking at the probabilities. Asking myself am I ok with the worst possible outcome? I know it can’t stay like this. Quoting: Lady of Stars How many leaps of faith does it take? Zero. We create our own dramas, because we decide how to interpret reality. The Absolute isn't trying to show us anything. We are just trying to avoid being the Absolute because we are afraid of not existing. And so we create endless dramas, none of which require any leaps of faith beyond that which we ourselves have built in. video 6: <<Beyond the Red Pill: Top 10 Black Pills About America>> [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
The Builder
(OP) User ID: 78858471 Netherlands 07/22/2021 01:39 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Everything that happens is you. Quoting: The Builder If you are perceiving something, it is you. You are free to interpret reality as you'd like. Your 'free speech' is beyond just words. It is everything that you experience. But it doesn't mean, of course, that your basest layer of perspective (i.e., your "conscious mind") will accept or understand the depth of what is being experienced. You lose me sometimes with answers like this. If I am everything, who/what does that make you? By saying "..what does that make you?" you are implying that I am not you, also. Think of it like this: You Are All That You Interpret and All That You Perceive. How you perceive 'me' is still you. You are not perceiving the 'whole' of me and nor do you need to. If you did, you would see that it is you. You don't perceive that because you are only perceiving a part of me. It is not possible to perceive all of me or anything else, or perceive your self wholly. This is confusing, yes.. because our language has evolved away from understanding such concepts. You are a very strong presence for me. In the feels of an other. I feel like you could gobble me up at any moment. I don’t necessarily feel that I could do that to you though. Hence the feeling of you having a distinct sense of autonomy within me. (Does that make sense?) Think of it like a dream, then, where I am a giant walrus looking down at you while you're gardening. Yes, I could swallow you up. But then you might be forgetting that it's your dream to begin with lol Like a character in a story that I am writing. I listen to you. We talk. I "hear" you in my thoughts. I don't really want to know what happens next, because it's more important to focus on writing the story as it is. Thank God. We are on the same page then. It almost feels like a ‘choose your own adventure.’ My future feels unwritten in so many ways now. It’s exciting and terrifying all at the same time. ‘All roads lead to Rome’ Indeed. It doesn't really matter which path you choose. Some paths just take longer (or far longer) than others. I could change the plot, yes, but then I would not be letting the story unfold by itself. The world makes it own story, in a way, based on how the characters have evolved in my 'brain'. Quoting: The Builder But each character is writing their own story, too. And I am a character in the story that 'God' is writing, so to speak. You are as real as someone/something could ever possibly be, as am I. I hear you saying...where’s the fun in that? Free will is an interesting dance. Yeah, sometimes I question if I’m real at all and then, who the hell dreamed me up...what were they thinking...and also, Help! Changing the plot was fun in the beginning, among other fun things, but it creates more 'trouble' than it's worth. Changing how it happens, on the other hand, can still be both challenging and entertaining. I don’t remember a time of overdosing on good things. Not in my life. It’s been trial by fire all the way through. Quoting: Lady of Stars Well, according to your timeline the 'Lord of Chaos' found you at 6, so I suppose you had had enough of 'that other thing' before then :) I did this mental exercise over the years...retracing the story of my life...seeing what I would change if I could....eventually, I figured out that I wouldn’t change a thing about my life path and how I arrived at this moment....other than being born. Quoting: Lady of Stars :) Again, how do we as individuals deal with what is transpiring right now globally? I mean, I hear you, but how do I do that? Choose differently in relationship to Covid? Covid has changed the geometry of society in such a massive way. It’s the Global 9/11. Borders shoring up. Families divided. Isolation. Prison planet. Quoting: Lady of Stars Perhaps we can learn more about how people dealt with it the numerous times such a thing happened before. For me, I have boiled it down to, do I choose fear or love? I hug everybody. Respect others choices on it. Quoting: Lady of Stars Hugging or respecting others is neither fear nor love, of course, but 'fear' plays a big part in what is happening. Much of what you see is fake, on both sides of the fence. The goal is fear, which is the only way that large populations can be managed. We haven't yet realised that we don't need those types of systems. I don’t worry about it actually. It’s like an afterthought until I go in town and am reminded. Quoting: Lady of Stars Put it this way, if Covid kills me, please see the humor! How could something in a story kill you? video 6: <<Beyond the Red Pill: Top 10 Black Pills About America>> [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
The Builder
(OP) User ID: 78858471 Netherlands 07/22/2021 01:52 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | My reality is disintegrating. Very real-ly. I don’t comprehend how I could interpret ‘this’ as anything but a nightmare-in-the-dream. My closest relationships reflecting back to me so much dysfunction within the operating system. So much suffering. So little love. Quoting: Lady of Stars I must be such an asshole of a human if this is the best I can dream up for myself. To look at it as anything but hell seems delusional. Then choose differently. Don't choose Chaos and expect sweet-smelling roses. I tend to think that I don’t have a lot of chaotic choices that I’m making in my everyday life. Maybe I’m mistaken. It doesn't need to be alot. It could just be one or two major ones that are the 'bottleneck' to your reality's natural flow. (If I could bottle up the sweet smell of my roses to share with all of you, I would. I have never in my life smelled something so sweet! Delectable! They are in full bloom! My Mother’s Day gift this year.) Quoting: Lady of Stars I can imagine :) video 6: <<Beyond the Red Pill: Top 10 Black Pills About America>> [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
The Builder
(OP) User ID: 78858471 Netherlands 07/22/2021 01:57 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | When it is challenged, yes. I am comfortable in some ways. In others, I’m way far out of my comfort zone. Quoting: Lady of Stars Time will tell. Emotions attached to my husband, my daughter, my town, and this. Figuring out how and what to send where. Am I even capable? I am calling on my own BraveHeart to help me see this through. This past year has been a continual slap-me-up-the-side-of-the-head kinda year. Find new dramas to focus on if you think you don't want them. "Idle hands are the devil’s workshop," the breeding ground for unnecessary dramas. Build the dramas that you prefer. video 6: <<Beyond the Red Pill: Top 10 Black Pills About America>> [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
The Builder
(OP) User ID: 78858471 Netherlands 07/22/2021 02:04 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Yes, the two have all ready merged. Some see it as 'clown world' but it is really us trying to make sense of who we really are. Reality is becoming more flexible (and strange) as we become more metaphysical beings. Quoting: The Builder The 'new Earth' will take some more time to be seen, but not before we learn how to see it. Communism is the 'last stand' between Chaos and Order. They've had a bit of practice, and now it's time for the real thing. It is simply 'big government' or the opposite of self-governance. They will 'lose', of course, because they are playing a role in support of this Christ. The anti-Christ supports the efforts of the Christ, and the Christ supports the efforts of the anti-Christ. Ultimately the two are the same. Chaos is needed because we will re-fashion what is 'evil' into something more productive. We aren't going back to the Old World where people had Christ in their hearts (self-governance and self-regulation, awareness of self in others, and reciprocal actions) but are building something new that incorporates both. A world of more balance, if you will, that can only happen through the security of being Nothing-in-particular-yet-all-that-is. Incorporates both of ??? Christ and Chaos? Yes. The more 'balanced' it is the longer it will last. We can interpret Chaos in ways that provide a greater benefit to humanity and our reality. 'Christ' is simply the self, and awareness thereof, which dictates self-regulation and self-governance. The self needs Chaos in order to be. For best results, we can learn to manage Chaos rather letting it get out of control. video 6: <<Beyond the Red Pill: Top 10 Black Pills About America>> [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
The Builder
(OP) User ID: 78858471 Netherlands 07/22/2021 02:06 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | What would be the benefit? video 6: <<Beyond the Red Pill: Top 10 Black Pills About America>> [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
The Builder
(OP) User ID: 78858471 Netherlands 07/22/2021 02:08 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I drove behind a car that had the license plate ‘MÉTIS 3’. I found it funny. I tried to take a pic but it didn’t turn out. The dudes in the car def looked the part! Haha Quoting: Lady of Stars Curious. Do you think you would have noticed if it was being driven behind you? video 6: <<Beyond the Red Pill: Top 10 Black Pills About America>> [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
The Builder
(OP) User ID: 78858471 Netherlands 07/22/2021 02:15 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | What makes a reader of words found on this thread resistant to multiple c-19 Quoting: SpawnX Is it our own little battle of less governance. As it's just a play to another play to gain more pieces. There are, as all ways, multiple layers of deception at work. The first, what most would accept. The next, what the few who do not accept the first would accept. The next, what those stuck at the first two do not think about. This can be applied to any of their deceptions. It's very effective at keeping the more-true intentions hidden. Usually, just two layers are needed. The people telling you about the first layer (i.e., the 'mainstream media') are of the same cut of fabric as the people telling you about the second layer (i.e., the 'alternative media'). There is no real 'alternative media' of any notable ranking. Fear is the goal, and the first two serve that purpose. video 6: <<Beyond the Red Pill: Top 10 Black Pills About America>> [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
The Builder
(OP) User ID: 78858471 Netherlands 07/22/2021 02:27 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Perhaps relevant... video 6: <<Beyond the Red Pill: Top 10 Black Pills About America>> [link to www.youtube.com (secure)] |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 79205877 United States 07/22/2021 03:24 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Anyhow, I suddenly noticed a bottle cap laying right in the middle of the room, even though I had just swept there moments ago. I picked it up and went to the trash bin to toss it out. Laying perfectly on top of the bin was a fortune cookie fortune reading: “he who can take advice is sometimes superior to those who give it.” I have my own interpretation of the quote, but in the spirit of the quote, I would be interested in yours. |
Lady of Stars
User ID: 75135236 United States 07/22/2021 05:37 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | You know, you don't need to find your way out of Chaos. Quoting: The Builder There is nothing inherently wrong with it. One could have a good and happy life following Chaos. It's counter-intuitive, I know, but "good" needs both Chaos and Order to exist. I know. I don’t even think that’s possible anyways. I guess you could say that I am aiming for whatever’s next...the trajectory’s being laid. I have been doing....a lot. I seem to be approaching that which I have been ‘putting off.” The elephant in my mind, so to speak. This is hard. On everyone. Quoting: Lady of Stars I’m scared about what this means for me in the short term. It doesn’t mean I won’t do it. I am mustering up the courage to pull the trigger and thinking about timing. Is there a way to sample it first before you buy in? That would be nice. If possible. I’ve never felt this way before that I remember. About anything. I am in unchartered territory for myself. Dancing with my own fears. Of abandonment. Not measuring up. Being enough. Who am I really in this sea of relationships? I’m sussing out what it’s showing me. Looking at the probabilities. Asking myself am I ok with the worst possible outcome? I know it can’t stay like this. Quoting: Lady of Stars How many leaps of faith does it take? Zero. We create our own dramas, because we decide how to interpret reality. The Absolute isn't trying to show us anything. We are just trying to avoid being the Absolute because we are afraid of not existing. And so we create endless dramas, none of which require any leaps of faith beyond that which we ourselves have built in. That’s funny. Because where I’m sitting, non-existence is actually looking mighty pertty compared to whatever ‘this existence’ is. To my conscious mind at least. Well, leaps of faith and ‘free will to God’ are the same thing to me. Why do I do this to myself? One thing I do know, my emotions are very proportional and appropriate given the life I have lived. Am living. I’m proud of myself in this respect. ‘Get your emotions in check Ask, how could I be wrong?’ Has proven very useful. |
Lady of Stars
User ID: 75135236 United States 07/22/2021 05:51 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | You are a very strong presence for me. In the feels of an other. I feel like you could gobble me up at any moment. I don’t necessarily feel that I could do that to you though. Hence the feeling of you having a distinct sense of autonomy within me. (Does that make sense?) Quoting: Lady of Stars Think of it like a dream, then, where I am a giant walrus looking down at you while you're gardening. Yes, I could swallow you up. But then you might be forgetting that it's your dream to begin with lol You sure about that? Sure feels like it’s your dream and I’m just a fictional character. Like a character in a story that I am writing. I listen to you. We talk. I "hear" you in my thoughts. I don't really want to know what happens next, because it's more important to focus on writing the story as it is. Thank God. We are on the same page then. It almost feels like a ‘choose your own adventure.’ My future feels unwritten in so many ways now. It’s exciting and terrifying all at the same time. ‘All roads lead to Rome’ Indeed. It doesn't really matter which path you choose. Some paths just take longer (or far longer) than others. That’s the thing, it matters to me. Changing the plot was fun in the beginning, among other fun things, but it creates more 'trouble' than it's worth. Quoting: The Builder Glad someone’s been having fun. Lord knows it hasn’t been me. I feel like I’ve been in the trenches pretty much my entire life. With brief moments of reprieve and rest. Acknowledging the bloom amongst the ashes. https://imgur.com/zKu1IDk Changing how it happens, on the other hand, can still be both challenging and entertaining. Quoting: The Builder Your favorites. That engage you. I don’t remember a time of overdosing on good things. Not in my life. It’s been trial by fire all the way through. Quoting: Lady of Stars Well, according to your timeline the 'Lord of Chaos' found you at 6, so I suppose you had had enough of 'that other thing' before then :) No. It just amplified. By the way, I’d like to see someone else attempt to make a life like mine, make sense. Good luck. Line up in just such a way that....all things are possible. Maybe that’s why I am who I am and I am where I am. Doing what I am doing. ‘Does anyone else want to volunteer to live my life???’ I didn’t think so. (I wouldn’t wish this on anyone else. It begins and ends with me) I don’t worry about it actually. It’s like an afterthought until I go in town and am reminded. Quoting: Lady of Stars Put it this way, if Covid kills me, please see the humor! How could something in a story kill you? Wait, what...am I one of those fictional characters that won’t die? I thought you said I am realer than real? Can’t have your cake and it eat it too. |
Lady of Stars
User ID: 75135236 United States 07/22/2021 05:53 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | My reality is disintegrating. Very real-ly. I don’t comprehend how I could interpret ‘this’ as anything but a nightmare-in-the-dream. My closest relationships reflecting back to me so much dysfunction within the operating system. So much suffering. So little love. Quoting: Lady of Stars I must be such an asshole of a human if this is the best I can dream up for myself. To look at it as anything but hell seems delusional. Then choose differently. Don't choose Chaos and expect sweet-smelling roses. I tend to think that I don’t have a lot of chaotic choices that I’m making in my everyday life. Maybe I’m mistaken. It doesn't need to be alot. It could just be one or two major ones that are the 'bottleneck' to your reality's natural flow. Clearly, posting here is one of the most chaotic choices I make. Should I stop? (If I could bottle up the sweet smell of my roses to share with all of you, I would. I have never in my life smelled something so sweet! Delectable! They are in full bloom! My Mother’s Day gift this year.) Quoting: Lady of Stars I can imagine :) I’m certain you can. |
Lady of Stars
User ID: 75135236 United States 07/22/2021 05:56 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | It has shown me a lot. That’s for sure. Hand in hand with leaps-of-faith. I am comfortable in some ways. In others, I’m way far out of my comfort zone. Quoting: Lady of Stars Time will tell. Emotions attached to my husband, my daughter, my town, and this. Figuring out how and what to send where. Am I even capable? I am calling on my own BraveHeart to help me see this through. This past year has been a continual slap-me-up-the-side-of-the-head kinda year. Find new dramas to focus on if you think you don't want them. "Idle hands are the devil’s workshop," the breeding ground for unnecessary dramas. Build the dramas that you prefer. What do you think I’m doing? |