I had an affair with Colonel Gaddafi in the late 80s

No...always in his pocket

Yes, I can honestly say I would have wanted to have been with Papa Muammar. Did he seem like a savior? Of course, one I badly needed. I would have stayed with him until the end, as devoted as I am now I can’t imagine how much I would be had I had the opportunity to be his wife and have his children. And I respectfully disagree, the best outcome shouldn’t involve a father beating his pregnant teenager daughter into unconsciousness and forcing her to abort her son.

His pocket? I doubt I’d know then, he usually disrobed when he came in and I didn’t go through his things, let alone reach in his pockets. He reached in and gave me some candy once, if that counts lol. Hard candy they had at the meeting, butterscotch.

Ok that makes sense I guess He had it on him when he was killed, not sure who has got it now. Not going to share here, not really that important anyway. Was just curious. Safia doesn't know either.

Hmmmmm :P


Well..... If Gaddafi couldn't take you away from your father at that time... or ever..... would you had still had felt that way about him???


You were 15 years old, and you were a dependent

Yeah, we were together in ‘88, it was a long time ago. Safia didn’t know a lot about what he did, and was more than likely indifferent. Their marriage lasted out of appearances, and the fact that her people had some government pull. He certainly wasn’t happy in it. Got me curious though, something to ponder.

From what I understand.... your father was taking care of you, and you were pretty much helpless without him

Like... If Gaddafi didn't have any means or ability to take care of you like your father could........ would you still had felt that way about him?

Bump to follow

Well, he couldn’t have at the time anyway, wouldn’t look very good for him...leaving with the blonde daughter of a foreign fso. He said he’d send for me, and eventually did via letter. Would I still feel the same? I’m sure. The only thing keeping me from going to him in my adult life was the misconception that he didn’t care for me anymore.

Oh, so like would I have stayed with him if he was poor? Yes, had he lost everything he had I’d of loved him no less. Life in a Bedouin tent would have been interesting.

Well... umm.... When I was going through a really really really tough time in my life..... when I was 25, 26 ... :P...... I was living with my dad also :P.... :P :P ...... and ..... I was essentially helpless and trapped at the time.... with him.....


And at that time... the idea of maxing out my credit to go live homeless in Hawaii seemed like the solution


Like Hawaii was this seemingly "beautiful paradise to me.... where I'd be free.... and at peace


I wanted to leave my horrible situation with MY dad... and go live homeless in Hawaii.....


It was quite attractive to me


and was for some time


.....


Up until I was finally freed from living with my dad.... and like..... I was in a more pleasant place......



Now like..... I realize that that would had not led me anywhere.... living homeless in Hawaii


It would had ruined my future!!


Probably :P


....


Now I have NO desire to be homeless in Hawaii

lol


:P



I think that huge life changing decisions are best made when you are in a peaceful state of mind.... while not in the grip of painful emotions

Homeless in Hawaii? It almost sounds like a band name, ha! Yeah, though quite honestly I can say I would have been happy with him in a desert tent. I loved him, not his things, not his power. Laying in his arms was the best feeling in the world.

Well for one thing... You were 15 years old...


and people change as they get older and mature



Your interests change..... your mind changes....



So I really think that you only loved him when you were 15, tbh :P

You would had outgrown him

:P


You were 15.

:P!


I think ur just still emotionally attached

I dunno, there are plenty of 15 year olds who fall in love and eventually marry the person they fall in love with. If I were to have outgrown him I think I would have at this point...

But all the memories you have of him are from when you were 15


I really think the feelings you felt for him was your intense desire to escape ur dad



You're basing all of this on a few days alone.... with Gaddafi lol

:P


like a week :P



A week where he treated you like a royal subject or something :P


And you were 15 :P



And you had sex with him within that week as well :P


That's never a good idea :P



All of that tied in with you getting pregnant



I can understand how you could still be emotionally attached





Ummm



But, again.... the pain and suffering with your dad very likely made you feel the way you felt with him.... tbh

:P

I mean...I suppose it’s possible, but I can’t deny the way that I feel. And he didn’t treat me like a subject, more like an equal, the first time anyone ever had.

Was it the first time you had sex too?

:/

That's a weird question, nevermind :P

But yeah...


I think he just gave you a taste of what you so intensely desired :P

:P


and you got pregnant as well..... and had an abortion .... and like.... maybe you feel like you lost something and you now feel some kind of emptiness because of that


:1

:P

I think if you emotionally detach urself form Gaddafi..... then you find new meaning in ur life :)

He's dead

<3

:P

It’s, ok, I don’t mind talking about it, yes, he was my first. Yes, I did lose something, someone. Someone I’ll never get to hold, or see grow up, it leaves a void that can never be filled. And yeah...I know.

Did he care about his people?


Did you know you are being used right now by those very same people...from then, who pimped you in the first place?

I’d like to think that he did. Libya under Papa Muammar was a safe and stable place...now not so much.

Those people..,huh? How so? It was my father who sold me, he’s dead now.

How are you feeling today? Are you menaced by any feelings, thoughts or sensations that might relate to Gaddafi?

thats disgusting wtf

glad that disgusting man is dead.
also i hope your father is dead aswell
how does it even feel to have one of your parents do something like that to you?
Did you hate him?

I take things day by day, I miss him more than words could possibly describe. Yeah, I fell in love with him years ago and I still am. I wouldn’t call it menaced though, I don’t mind thinking of him. I think of him often, it doesn’t get in the way of my daily obligations, but he’s usually in the back of my mind. And my mind wanders to our time together during my free time. Sensations? Well, not to be lewd, but I can’t exactly experience pleasure unless it’s thinking of him, so...

Honestly I think Gaddafi having unprotected sex with you wasn't very caring or loving......


Especially with a 15 yo girl he just met

:P


Sounds like chaos to me



Another instance of pain he inflicted on you... perhaps similar to your father



If he cared about you enough...... he would had been more careful and not had done that