You gotta go with the flow. Some people are coming in and out of your life but the memory is true. Memories are what keeps you intact. Don't worry about future relationships just trust and believe God will only bring what you are up for. I see a redhead or brunette and a guy friend who are coming into your life. Someone with blue eyes maybe. Do you have a cat? They are great during to have while lonely as well as other petd. They can cheer you up. Your career however is on the backburner of your mind. That's ok. Nothing wrong with a brwak. Get more rest and make sure to eat fruits and good foods. You need more abundance and I pray the Lord brings it to you. Much love