You are at a crossroads, a transituon in life fir a reason. You had to get back to center (Source). But yes you wull find a suitable job this month if you dont let your worries overwhelm you. Remember who you are and stay focused. Dont procrastine n get ur rest. Surround yourself wirh onlt supportive peole. Stop feeling less than. Watch motivational or inspirational videos to boost your mood. And this time find q job you enjoy rwgardless of the incone.