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Anonymous Coward User ID: 72999720 Australia 12/16/2016 08:16 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Looking after the lady of the house who is 83 years old. Daughter just died of brain cancer a week ago. Had to watch that play out. It was pretty tough since I'm dealing with my own moms cancer. Quoting: Publican Mom had her last chemo this week also and she's been violently ill for the past two days. Found out my little brother is getting into things that he shouldn't be in and I feel like a failure of a big brother because I have been a bad example for him. I don't have any time for myself but maybe that's a good thing. Can't find a job. Oh well bitch bitch bitch moan moan moan, I'll shut up now I just don't have anyone to talk to except online and I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. If and when mom passes I really don't see the point of anything anymore. I am trying to hold onto my faith but it is next to impossible these days. I just needed to vent. Thanks. OP ... write it down, turn it into a 'just before Christmas, sometimes things aren't all HoHoHo. Hold onto your faith in God: He won't let you down. Trust me on this, I went from Homeless, Single, Broken to Married to my love story someone heaven sent to Screenwriter. I bless your paths ahead... and Merry Christmas xo |
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User ID: 73589289 United States 12/16/2016 08:17 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Looking after the lady of the house who is 83 years old. Daughter just died of brain cancer a week ago. Had to watch that play out. It was pretty tough since I'm dealing with my own moms cancer. Quoting: Publican Mom had her last chemo this week also and she's been violently ill for the past two days. Found out my little brother is getting into things that he shouldn't be in and I feel like a failure of a big brother because I have been a bad example for him. I don't have any time for myself but maybe that's a good thing. Can't find a job. Oh well bitch bitch bitch moan moan moan, I'll shut up now I just don't have anyone to talk to except online and I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. If and when mom passes I really don't see the point of anything anymore. I am trying to hold onto my faith but it is next to impossible these days. I just needed to vent. Thanks. But Lord, he stinketh! :fnecsm: "When the sky crackles in an electric dance of a beautiful requiem of lapis lazuli, maybe you will remember..." ~ Anonymous Coward 77360040 |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 36965468 United States 12/16/2016 08:21 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Looking after the lady of the house who is 83 years old. Daughter just died of brain cancer a week ago. Had to watch that play out. It was pretty tough since I'm dealing with my own moms cancer. Quoting: Publican Mom had her last chemo this week also and she's been violently ill for the past two days. Found out my little brother is getting into things that he shouldn't be in and I feel like a failure of a big brother because I have been a bad example for him. I don't have any time for myself but maybe that's a good thing. Can't find a job. Oh well bitch bitch bitch moan moan moan, I'll shut up now I just don't have anyone to talk to except online and I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. If and when mom passes I really don't see the point of anything anymore. I am trying to hold onto my faith but it is next to impossible these days. I just needed to vent. Thanks. OP ... write it down, turn it into a 'just before Christmas, sometimes things aren't all HoHoHo. Hold onto your faith in God: He won't let you down. Trust me on this, I went from Homeless, Single, Broken to Married to my love story someone heaven sent to Screenwriter. I bless your paths ahead... and Merry Christmas xo Yeah read the Holy Bible I've been thru alot too and the only thing that helps me is the Holy Bible and a commitment to Y'shua! |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 72999720 Australia 12/16/2016 08:49 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Looking after the lady of the house who is 83 years old. Daughter just died of brain cancer a week ago. Had to watch that play out. It was pretty tough since I'm dealing with my own moms cancer. Quoting: Publican Mom had her last chemo this week also and she's been violently ill for the past two days. Found out my little brother is getting into things that he shouldn't be in and I feel like a failure of a big brother because I have been a bad example for him. I don't have any time for myself but maybe that's a good thing. Can't find a job. Oh well bitch bitch bitch moan moan moan, I'll shut up now I just don't have anyone to talk to except online and I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. If and when mom passes I really don't see the point of anything anymore. I am trying to hold onto my faith but it is next to impossible these days. I just needed to vent. Thanks. OP ... write it down, turn it into a 'just before Christmas, sometimes things aren't all HoHoHo. Hold onto your faith in God: He won't let you down. Trust me on this, I went from Homeless, Single, Broken to Married to my love story someone heaven sent to Screenwriter. I bless your paths ahead... and Merry Christmas xo Yeah read the Holy Bible I've been thru alot too and the only thing that helps me is the Holy Bible and a commitment to Y'shua! OP Listen to Brene Brown on Ted X youtube |
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Where Eagles Dare
Metal-American User ID: 69718773 United States 12/16/2016 09:17 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Isaiah 40:31 - But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint. “They’ve got us surrounded again, the poor bastards.” - U.S. Army Paratrooper at Bastogne |
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User ID: 72041079 United States 12/16/2016 09:18 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Some aloha huna for you [link to youtube.com (secure)] “If we are peaceful, if we are happy, we can smile and blossom like a flower, and everyone in our family, our entire society, will benefit from our peace.” Thich Nhat Hanh, Being Peace "But ask the animals, and they will teach you, or the birds in the sky, and they will tell you; or speak to the earth, and it will teach you, or let the fish in the sea inform you." - Job 12:7,8 "When the going gets weird, the weird turn pro." - Hunter S. Thompson revstargazer (at) hotmail.com |
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Publican
(OP) User ID: 6607161 United States 12/16/2016 09:31 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Not too long ago (two months ago?) you wrote that your mom was doing well and was back at work. Now she isn't? Quoting: nutmeg Yeah i did and at the time she was doing better but this last round of chemo has her wiped out. Its pretty bad. She also hasnt been able to work. She quit chemo for a while because of how it made her feel and how it was affecting her work but she started going back and its got her very ill. :/ visit my blog die spammeroAz9cP |
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User ID: 73589289 United States 12/16/2016 09:37 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Not too long ago (two months ago?) you wrote that your mom was doing well and was back at work. Now she isn't? Quoting: nutmeg Yeah i did and at the time she was doing better but this last round of chemo has her wiped out. Its pretty bad. She also hasnt been able to work. She quit chemo for a while because of how it made her feel and how it was affecting her work but she started going back and its got her very ill. :/ rick simpson oil But Lord, he stinketh! :fnecsm: "When the sky crackles in an electric dance of a beautiful requiem of lapis lazuli, maybe you will remember..." ~ Anonymous Coward 77360040 |
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User ID: 70579162 United States 12/16/2016 09:39 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Not too long ago (two months ago?) you wrote that your mom was doing well and was back at work. Now she isn't? Quoting: nutmeg Yeah i did and at the time she was doing better but this last round of chemo has her wiped out. Its pretty bad. She also hasnt been able to work. She quit chemo for a while because of how it made her feel and how it was affecting her work but she started going back and its got her very ill. :/ I'm sorry to hear that. |
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User ID: 72996186 United States 12/16/2016 09:39 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I promise that you will be okay. You need to know that you have value, not just some, but much value, to many. I know that you can't see the light right now, but it's there. Keep going, even when you can't find your way. It'll find you. I know it sounds improbable and dangerous, but you have to believe that I'm telling you the truth. More then just believe it, you need to know that I am. Judica judicium meum et redime me, propter eloquium tuum vivifica me. |
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Boscoe
User ID: 53844706 United States 12/16/2016 09:49 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Why would you say "if and when mom passes"? Your moms gonna be fine. Her last treatment is done. The last is always the most intense so she'll be sick a few days. Get over your pitty party. You had landed a good job in Dallas and left it. You need to grow up! Quit making excuses for yourself Michael. When you have to shoot, shoot, don't talk. |
Publican
(OP) User ID: 5402949 United States 12/16/2016 10:00 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Why would you say "if and when mom passes"? Quoting: Boscoe Your moms gonna be fine. Her last treatment is done. The last is always the most intense so she'll be sick a few days. Get over your pitty party. You had landed a good job in Dallas and left it. You need to grow up! Quit making excuses for yourself Michael. You know less than you presume to know. Since you want to put my name out there you clearly know me, could be a handful of ppl but it matters little. Call it a pity party if you want. I wish we all could be as strong and as put together as you and never have to turn to others in our weakness and our vulnerable dark nights of the soul. I left Dallas because my heart is to he at home with my family. You clearly have a bone to pick for whatever reason but I have no ill feelings towards you. Ive made my mistakes. At least i own up to them and move forward to try my best to make amends and make things right. Instead of getting online to judge and berate people I barely know just to kick them when theyre already down. God bless 'boscoe'. visit my blog die spammeroAz9cP |
Ms. Superduper
User ID: 70651884 United States 12/16/2016 10:09 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I have been where you are. Although I am a very strong woman and that is also because of my strong faith. My mom got really ill for a couple of years and everyone told me that a caregiver MUST take care of themselves while doing that. I had no one to help me, and no one who wanted to come and give me a little respite time - just to go and get errands done, food bought, etc. After she passed, I got pretty sick and had to have some surgery. It was a few months after all of that. Got that taken care of and then my dog died. In there some where, I took it upon myself to try and help my niece who was having problems. Ayee. My point is I cannot stress enough that you MUST take care of yourself - maybe a caregivers' support group. Don't laugh. It will help to be around people going through the same thing. Do s.o.m.e.t.h.i.n.g. to be around something like that. It is getting better here for me, although I do miss them, I try not to dwell on those thoughts. Another thing is, after someone passes, do not entertain those thoughts of things you could have done differently or better and I call those the "if onlys". Don't do it. It gets better. Hang on to your faith and do not drown in the illness, please. God is with you, whether you sense it or not. Love, prayers and hugs from Florida. Greater is He who is in me than he who is in the world. Whatever feels good to your soul, do that. |
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User ID: 53844706 United States 12/16/2016 10:10 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Why would you say "if and when mom passes"? Quoting: Boscoe Your moms gonna be fine. Her last treatment is done. The last is always the most intense so she'll be sick a few days. Get over your pitty party. You had landed a good job in Dallas and left it. You need to grow up! Quit making excuses for yourself Michael. You know less than you presume to know. Since you want to put my name out there you clearly know me, could be a handful of ppl but it matters little. Call it a pity party if you want. I wish we all could be as strong and as put together as you and never have to turn to others in our weakness and our vulnerable dark nights of the soul. I left Dallas because my heart is to he at home with my family. You clearly have a bone to pick for whatever reason but I have no ill feelings towards you. Ive made my mistakes. At least i own up to them and move forward to try my best to make amends and make things right. Instead of getting online to judge and berate people I barely know just to kick them when theyre already down. God bless 'boscoe'. No Michael. I know more than you think. I say these things out of love for you believe it or not. You keep repeating your past. You need to break free and grow. I pray for you constantly and hope you will see the path you are on is not right for you. You will never advance if you don't make the first move and then stick with it. When you have to shoot, shoot, don't talk. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 73523156 Spain 12/16/2016 10:11 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Looking after the lady of the house who is 83 years old. Daughter just died of brain cancer a week ago. Had to watch that play out. It was pretty tough since I'm dealing with my own moms cancer. Quoting: Publican Mom had her last chemo this week also and she's been violently ill for the past two days. Found out my little brother is getting into things that he shouldn't be in and I feel like a failure of a big brother because I have been a bad example for him. I don't have any time for myself but maybe that's a good thing. Can't find a job. Oh well bitch bitch bitch moan moan moan, I'll shut up now I just don't have anyone to talk to except online and I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. If and when mom passes I really don't see the point of anything anymore. I am trying to hold onto my faith but it is next to impossible these days. I just needed to vent. Thanks. keep the flag flying you will see better days |
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User ID: 73221749 Canada 12/16/2016 10:30 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Not too long ago (two months ago?) you wrote that your mom was doing well and was back at work. Now she isn't? Quoting: nutmeg Yeah i did and at the time she was doing better but this last round of chemo has her wiped out. Its pretty bad. She also hasnt been able to work. She quit chemo for a while because of how it made her feel and how it was affecting her work but she started going back and its got her very ill. :/ rick simpson oil That and the Cbd and also lots of dandelion root, there are other things as well, such as tumeric, lemon, b17. Juicing 2-3 apples a day core, seeds and all. The Devil tries to convince everyone he doesn't exist. The state tries to convince everyone they cannot resist. Do not go quietly into the good night. Rage Rage against the dying light! |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 73619560 United Arab Emirates 12/16/2016 11:00 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I wish I had some advice for you Publican...I've been in your position. I just had to stand up straight & tall & power thru another day. There is no way I would have survived it without the help, strength, and peace of the Holy Spirit. I mentioned this to you before...Pray (pray hard, on your knees) to the Father and the Son for the gift of the Holy Spirit. Have you been doing that? I also mentioned that I believe in you...that has not changed!!! |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 60520237 United States 12/16/2016 11:36 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Looking after the lady of the house who is 83 years old. Daughter just died of brain cancer a week ago. Had to watch that play out. It was pretty tough since I'm dealing with my own moms cancer. Quoting: Publican Mom had her last chemo this week also and she's been violently ill for the past two days. Found out my little brother is getting into things that he shouldn't be in and I feel like a failure of a big brother because I have been a bad example for him. I don't have any time for myself but maybe that's a good thing. Can't find a job. Oh well bitch bitch bitch moan moan moan, I'll shut up now I just don't have anyone to talk to except online and I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. If and when mom passes I really don't see the point of anything anymore. I am trying to hold onto my faith but it is next to impossible these days. I just needed to vent. Thanks. OP ... write it down, turn it into a 'just before Christmas, sometimes things aren't all HoHoHo. Hold onto your faith in God: He won't let you down. Trust me on this, I went from Homeless, Single, Broken to Married to my love story someone heaven sent to Screenwriter. I bless your paths ahead... and Merry Christmas xo Yeah read the Holy Bible I've been thru alot too and the only thing that helps me is the Holy Bible and a commitment to Y'shua! |