Very broken

HI GLPers...

I don't post threads much but this has been the worse week of my life! I lost my daughter to mental illness this week. She had a psychological breakdown in the hospital and was ordered into long term, inpatient psychological treatment.

I poured my heart and soul into my daughter and I tried my very best to help her. We have a great home, a loving family and I worked with her every single day...

I feel though still, that I failed her in some way. Accepting mental illness is sad ONLY....as I have no rational explanation for anything at the moment.

She was in the hospital and refusing to come home to me for aftercare because I found the correspondence between she and her boyfriend where she has been claiming I've been abusing her since she cold turkeyed off her psyche meds. I am so lost and sad right now...

Because her father refused to participate in her life and because she was refusing to come home...to face me, based on her allegations that are untrue and based on delusion and her illness, she was placed in foster care at 16 years old and will probably age out of the institution before she can be released.

For some of you who know me...I am a stage 4 breast cancer patient...living my life for my kids and my partner whom I love with all of my being. I say partner because we are not legally married, but he and I (a woman) live our lives as such. The institution of marriage is that...an institution and nothing more...

I love GLP and it has been my comfort since 2008...all of you guys are the best in the world and I feel safe and at home here.

I am asking that you life up our family in prayer, for those who do that....and send positive energies and white light protection to our family for those who do that.

I am going to leave this thread and probably not return to it as things are very raw still and my heart is hurting greatly.

This thread can go any direction without my intervention...

I know there are many of you who believe mental illness is bullshit and I agree a LOT with that viewpoint, however having lived it and seen it first hand now has really changed my way of thinking.

She chose to go into foster care and accepted willingly to go into treatment, so some part of her knows that something isn't right in her head. We tried everything...supplements, talking, spirituality, prayer, scheduling, behavior modification...the last resort was psyche meds. Yes...I put her on them....after exhausting ALL other means and methods. I poured myself into this child and did all that I could do to try and help.

I know once she gets there, some of the things that will happen to her are heinous and severe. I have zero control over what happens next and I am just asking GLP to lift our family of 5 up in whatever method you practice in your home.

Thank you...