Wish I had never "woken up"

are you ... are you ... comin to the tree....

I can't talk my wife about most things as she is only starting to wake up... I've been awake years and it is lonely because you either shut up or mocked until the masses rouse.

Last Edited by PureSnow on 04/10/2015 08:00 AM

No... why be so concerned about everyone elses progress? Unless you truly need the companionship focus on your own goals...

Also this. Learn to be self sufficient and achieve things on your own. I believe anybody can do it. Just takes practise. Good luck to you OP.

I guess the reason that I am having a hard time feeling sorry for you, is that I woke up 25 years ago. I have been fully awake ever since, and have gone through every phase of waking up, from shock, to fury, to anxiety, to depression, to acceptance.

Both my sister and I woke up at the same time and have both never had a normal life ever since. I am 55 years old, and have been wide awake since 30. I was always awake to some degree, but never like after what happened when I was 30.

I spent DECADES trying to wake people up. It is the single most thankless job in the world.

So you Johnny come latelies, who are "lonely and depressed", who are looking for sympathy, just consider yourself LUCKY to have only spent a couple of years of Red Pill life.

Try 25 years!

I'm not quite ready for that delicious steak.

many characteristics of someone who is awake is forged by trials and challenges.

One can not grow strong in grace and faith with out enduring the cross of suffering.


Your pains are the pains of exercising the spirit.

Easy to say, from New Zealand.

Being relatively new to the site; I'm glad I came across this thread. It's enlightening and thanks to those who have shared their thoughts. I'm finding I'm in a "transition" in my life and it's most helpful to find comparative concepts to work with. Peace to all.

Reality is the same whether you are aware of it or not. Your isolation is a tool of the PTB to make you want to return to the herd but you can't once the doors of perception have been cleared. Find others like yourself now, it's time to move on. Each of us is here for a purpose in this world, you are beginning to find out yours. It's worth staying around for because now you're ready for the important stuff.

For in much wisdom is much grief: and he that increaseth knowledge increaseth sorrow. - Ecclesiastes 1:18

denial
anger
bargaining
depression
acceptance

The stages of THE relationship:

Recognition (1st exposure)
Perception (recognition with knowledge)
Awareness (Advanced knowledge, begin a Path)
Harmonize (Last stages on your Path)
(the) Transcendence event (attain the presence and Door)
Dwell (new life)

You are welcome beautiful!

Sorry, I didnt mean for it to be a depressing thread nor was i attempting to gather sympathy.

Guess i just needed to get it off my chest.

I dont mind that other people aren't progressing at the same pace in their awakening. I just feel its a very lonely road.

I can come on here or other sites and I know there are people who feel the same or having the same kinds of loneliness. I just can't seem to find those people in real life and sometimes I wish I could.

I dont think I have fully awakened as I dont appear to have found my 'path' in life. A lot changed for me in the last few years after major surgery...it was like I was anaesthetised and a few hours later I woke up totally different. So I gave up my run of the mill office job to pursue a university degree in complementary therapies, which is going really well. I've become a lot more healthy and exercise more than i ever have before. I've become a much better mum.....so there are a lot of things I have positive in my life. It would just be nice to share it with someone.

Sorry....I will stop whining and take all of your kind advice on board. :):slaphim:

Sounds to me like your doing fine and on a journey like many of us. I'm just always glad to find, on occasion, others in the same boat. Do your best and be good to yourself on the way...at least, that's what I try to do. And thanks again for having the courage to start the conversation!

Thank you, its appreciated :)

Sweetheart we are right here standing right next to you.
You have to want to see us baby?