how are you doing?

i'm doing ok, just a little bit of a midlife crisis going on.

a few years from 50.

always looking for the truth in a world full of lies. depressed about things because old?

just watched secret life of walter mitty. good movie. cried a couple of times.

up all night. time for bed soon. too much sleeping lately.

time for bed but i don't think i can sleep yet.


everyone likes a good friend because being alone is not a good thing.

i used to think i did things for my friends, now i think i did things for myself.

i was always thinking how selfless i was, and now i think i was wrong.

it was selfishness when i ever did anything good for someone. it was selfishness that motivated me to help people move to a new house. i needed friends for myself.

how could i ever have thought i was a good person?... i am only about me.