I don't know what it is, but ever since the rise of ISIS/terror threats..etc,etc
I feel that I am completely desensitized when it comes to killing, all of the guns I've fired/own, all the war movies/documentaries I've watched.. I think I'm ready to fight Islam, and it won't be a problem for me to pull the trigger multiple times when this day comes. I don't feel like I will get PTSD.. I feel to strong minded and ready for something like this. Is it fucked up that in my day and age I want to see an extermination of Islam? That I want to be involved with the extermination of Islam? These thoughts pace my head. To the point where I want to join the Military to blast some of these freedom stripping fucks. I don't need help mentally, I need help physically.
Anyone else with me?
Quoting: Tasty THC Im not sure its specific against islam, I think its the pure vengeance of the light seeking justice...
My whole life, and Ive never said this aloud, my entire life, I felt inside, that I could never willingly kill, even in defense of my own life. Past few weeks my spirituality took a leap, and part of what entered me was CLEAR PURE VIOLENT DESTRUCTION OF EVIL BEINGS BY ANY MEANS. I am still torn on this, and dont know if its divine, or satanic.
I cried at the thoughts I had. It peaked when I read about the current child ritual abuse, then looked at a photo of ricky dearborn.
I literally felt as if an essence (?) of myself, lifted and activated. I knew for a fact, I would NOT let this person get within arms distance without exacting revenge, with zero fear. And these revenges, were anything but dignified. I had love, light, and feeling of a strong, pure, unnamed but beyond positive "stream" running through me, REJOICING at detailed thoughts of disgusting horrors by hand, inflicted upon the evilest of us.
Even now, it seems so gross to me. But the violence was pure, and good. Hard to explain. Is good vengeful? Its like im learning or "being told" to be a 'warrior' of good, but I dont know if that is my true place. Inside, yes I am meek and would rather choose peace than war. As bad as evil is, Id rather try to figure out how to CURE it, stopping all future offences, than punishment... so I dont get it. Actually had to consider that I was possibly programmed or something, mkultra'd, etc., because it happened so quickly and clearly.
I clearly saw, that people who mass kill, torture and eat children, and cause mass suffering, should be killed in gruesome ways, WITH JOY! It felt like the divine was compelling me to stand up and realize this.
Its almost like we are supposed to instinctually identify and eliminate the truly evil here, but somehow lost the skill?
At any rate, Im with you.
