this world has too many wicked people in it, who prey on innocents

Yeah, I don't like you either. G-d will allow me time to take care of my responsibilities first.

Yeah, but it sucks here now. Period.

Screw pop culture. It's for idiots.

Thanks, but I feel like G-d wants me to leave.

Nice for you that your experience us different. Take care.

you're unpleasant, but have a nice cat pic. lyme you say? have you tried some good marihauna?

Yeah, I know. Thanks.
Yet another indication.

No. Illegal in my state for medicinal use. Would only help symptoms not the infection....that is what the iv abx I'm going on again will do...especially to cross the blood brain barrier. Have to get some kind of well before I take the Tourist injection trip bc I have all my stuff to get rid off / sell.

I have a fentenyl patch and other pain meds for the symptoms. Smoking pot (bc I don't allow it here) last night is what landed my former bf in the ER early this am....calling me frantic to speak to the psych dr. to release him bc of his appts next week and his flight out today back home.

But, like, none of that happened. He is so manic and impulsive now that was used against him. Oh, well. His choice, it won't be pretty or nice for him.

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well reefer can be found in the non-freedom states too, might help with the side effects from the other shit

I wasn't going to screw up my getting back to work, esp. depending upon who was in office would have hopefully been an FSO position...or something similar in the private sector consulting like I was doing before.

Last Edited by g.r.i.t.s. on 02/28/2015 06:11 PM

Thanks, beeches.

Yeah, I have been saying we should take back the rainbow and words like gay and just call them homosexuals choosers.

Evil seeks to destroy good though. It won't succeed but it attempts to do so.

Solution:

Stop being a gullible idiot.

On another thread you abused me for no reason so I think you might have mental problems or just be a total douchebag.

Context?

Pain can make one irritable. Perhaps I misunderstood something? If it was for no reason, apologies.

Not guillable.....my Mom says I just have an issue taking in strays, rescuing people, and "being everybody's mother." Says I have given people too many chances.
It's called trying to be understanding and forgiving...trying to put myself in someone else's circumstance to gather their perspective.
Helps in managing people at work.

This place can be overwhelmingly depressing sometimes.

Understood

Sorry, it was just the last straw and to me a sign. I didn't shed a single tear over my divorce from my ex, but hv been a basket case over this....a friend came over earlier and fed my kitties for me and made some phone calls...hv known her since living in europe and called her bawling my eyes out...she nicely came right over.

Anyway, after my ex I wasn't sleeping with anyone, I wanted to save myself for my soul mate and future husband (ideally post marriage), but we went there and it was a strong pull and now I feel like I cheapened myself somehow bc it didnt mean the same to him (though he did propose multiple times) and I hurt bc we shared a lot of intimacy.

This world just isn't working for me anymore. Not just this.

My Mom and a male jewish friend think if you commit suicide you are doomed to reincarnate. I believe we reincarnate anyway bc we cannot yet accept infinite, ever lasting life. Unlike my catholic female friend who came over today, I don't see it as a sin...I think of Hannah in the bible...and i think of Masada.

I'd hope I get a do over with my same life and just not make the same mistakes which apparently drove me off the path of G-d's will for my life. Now it seems I am so far of course there is no getting back. I feel G-d put my former bf in my life and me in his....but, my bf made a choice which apparently does not include me, even though he said I love you when we said goodbye on the phone. He says he loves everyone, so whatever, I guess.

sorry, if I brought you down, but I see it as a way out of pain and this world which I don't recognize anymore.

Last Edited by g.r.i.t.s. on 02/28/2015 06:44 PM

:( It wasn't you, it's just I feel a lot of sad/bad energy on here sometimes, and I feel a lot of it today.

Suicide isn't the answer. Feeling the pain and sadness and whatever else you're feeling is. Trying not to feel it is a mistake. Feeling it will allow you, at some point, to move beyond it. NO man is worth it.

I really believe everything unfolds exactly as it's supposed to, mistakes and all.

Oh, I know no man is worth it, it's just been cumulative for me. I was thinking about this for awhile before he came into my life, but he brought me happiness, renewed purpose, and I was hoping to have kids and a family. Oh, well.

If I just wanted to be with someone I would, but unlike him getting involved again with a psychotic ex, I don't go backwards and I won't be with a man who breaks up with me and sleeps or even makes out with any other person beside me.

I don't believe in the concept of getting under someone is the fastest way to get over someone.

So, definitely agree. Sorry to add to the downish vibe for you. I am just bereft and bewildered and back on the track of other planning I had put aside for about a year.

Last Edited by g.r.i.t.s. on 02/28/2015 06:55 PM

That takes out free-will. I gave up the everything happens for a reason thinking several years ago.

I'm sure there's many who feel the way you do and don't want to take the hard road and deal with life. I'm sorry for your losses but it's harder to find happiness if your dwelling on the past sadness of your life.

Find one thing you like doing and do it as often as possible until your mood changes.

I'm sorry we were your last resort but it could be worse, right?

Chin up :-)

:yourespecial:

Planning what?

I'm sorry, are you seriously considering suicide? Or am I interpreting this all wrong?

There is no 'fast' way. Rushing it only impedes your true healing.

The choices we freely make may still be all part of the grand plan.

Hang in there grits, we've all been there before and it freaking sucks. Don't let the grief take over you and make you do something that you won't have a chance to regret. Maybe you just haven't met Mr right yet, maybe there's no such thing. You have to find happiness within yourself, which believe me I know is hard sometimes, before you can ever truly be happy.

I wish I had something more prophetic to say to make you feel better.....

so sad to hear how bad you are feeling OP, and you know, the way that you are talking about euthanasia makes me think that you are a danger to yourself right now, suicide is a permanent solution to an impermanent problem, please call for help

you've got to find something to live for, this is a horrible thread to address this issue. 2 yrs ago there was more empathy expressed on GLP. now it has been taken over by the most horrible 'things' that think they are human.

g.r.i.t.s I've felt as you do now
please,please do not give up
you are needed
some part of you knows this,yes?
today I just found out that a beautidul lady
I know is up against her family wanting her to have shock treatments
I cannot believe they still do this to people
or that the doctors have convinced the family they should do this to their mother!
we are all unique and precious please try to carry on

What can we do to pull you out of your funk OP. I feel worried for you and read many of your posts.

You gotta rally OP! This life is a gift. You aren't seeing all the good, but it is there. Truly.

Shake it off!

Here are Ten songs for dancing in your living room :)

I can't personally vouch for these ten songs, but I do know that music and dancing can melt away the most awful feelings.


[link to hellogiggles.com]

:goldloveflowers:

You are reading on a website called godlike productions yet you spell God like this.

I hope G-d bowls a huge asteroid at us


I think I utterstand.