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REPORT ABUSIVE REPLY
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Calm After the Storm...
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I had, had a sexual relationship with him in college. One of the few... But not thought of him in years and years.
Until the night before he died. When I dreamed of his death. And was too cowardly to contact him regarding.
Quoting: Seer777 I don't think you should feel guilt, how apt is somebody to really listen to something like that. Happens when happens a lot of times. I felt that way too once this girl sat like two desk behind me killed herself when I was going to uci. Such an introvert and shy back than, I could tell something was bothering her but I found her so attractive was hard to talk to her just to be a friend. She killed herself tho, had few dreams about it when it happened. Think that was like early 05. I feel guilt. I knew it was coming and I said nothing. And then he died. It's my fault, in a way. Had I said something. He only came to me after, to throw my whole world into chaos. And to force me to face that which I had always hid from. Never after. Ya. Me too. Might be one of the few things I actually do. Was going to school to be a pastor so much shame forced upon sexual desires, I'm a bit of a deviant I guess when compared to typical hungers(right word?) Thats why was hard to talk to her so much confusion on my behalf and I'm sure a few simple conversations would have made a world of difference for at least one of us. And if they shut you out, then what? Do you scramble your thoughts night and day in hopes of coming up with something that'll let you back in? Do you have faith? Do you have trust? What do you do? Can't somebody please tell me?
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