I believe your story and that you are being truthful.

Reading your posts I couldn't help but receive the impression that the experience you reported when you were 5 years old is very important to examine and revisit . Not so much the details of the experience itself - but the fear and negative emotions that it generated within you as a result. When you are so young the mind is not very experienced nor well-developed - and therefore you are not psychologically prepared to process such an unusual and startling experience in a healthy manner. It's okay though - that's not your fault! Therefore the natural tendency and reaction to such an experience is to suppress and repress those difficult & uncomfortable emotions that were generated. They don't get processed in a matter that allows you to release them - but rather that emotional energy is pushed out of the surface of your consciousness and stored in the subconscious mind where it will linger/fester and will continue to have an impact on you in ways that are not always easily identifiable.

I'm not saying that your unresolved fear is necessarily the direct cause of these abnormal experiences that you are reporting - but I suspect it is somehow tied to and connected with it. Therefore I feel that confronting and addressing that fear from your past may ultimately be the key to bringing about the resolution and the relief that you are longing for. If there is some type of 'bond' here that is facilitating these experiences - it would be rooted in the psychic (psychological) realm and therefore it's very important to direct your conscious energy towards releasing the fear associated with the traumatic experience from your past.

How do you feel about this perspective? Do you still feel inclined to hide and run from those emotions and the memories of that experience from your childhood?