Either the world is becoming more insane and maddening by the day or I am! The problem is that I don't know which it is...

I no longer desire money, houses except for minimal shelter, cars, toys, TV, "things".

People are very hard for me to be around. I don't understand or agree with them.

People see me as a lazy nut. Maybe they are right. I honestly don't know which is the truth.

That you are rational enough to deliberate on your potential insanity leads me to believe you are sane. I know that sometimes we question ourselves and it is hard to know. But I believe that you are not crazy, and I think you should trust yourself.

I try, but it is so hard seeing the world completely different than most of the world. Anyone that does not fit into the mold of society is automatically discarded as useless.

I am getting tired.

It can be tiring, but do not lose heart. Even if it feels like it, I promise that you are not alone. And behind the facade of societal dogma are individuals who have come to doubt privately in the mold we have been forced to fit within.

I feel ya. You are not insane. Things ARE changing. "They" are trying to make the sane people feel powerless and disconnected from what is projected as the current game plan and trajectory.

The distinction seems more and more apparent, between the mindless who are going along with it and the rest of us.

Try to have faith that you have a deeper connection to something... something more real than this current hand basket going to a proverbial hell.

You are just becoming deprogrammed . If you are 28 ,29, or 30 you are in what is called a Saturn return. In astrology. That is the time you decide to stay or leave. When I say leave I mean soul in deep slumber and you body goes on automatic pilot.

This has become a throw-away society.

If something or someone doesn't fit what society expects it to be, they discard it, destroy it or kill it. Whether it is wild animals, religions, ideas, technology or even people.

If you are considered "non-productive", you are casted aside. Follow the "norm/system" or be discarded.

The real madness is what the "norm/system" has become.

the divide & conquer is purposeful and it's tough to be around the ignorant smalltalkers

too many cogs in this wheel to rewrite history again.

Nuremburg Trials 2.0 can't be escaped

then the smalltalkers might actually have something to talk about, if you catch my drift

It's not "the world" (per your header) giving you problems, it's "society, people and daily life" (per your text). Try another culture. I know of a few men who sold what they had and headed off to Asia and are happier for it.

Yesterday, a scrappy male with a torn tee came to my door, told me to look at his brand new car (a nice one) and then proceeded to tell me what need he was in, had to come up with 8 1/2 dollars within ten minutes to buy a new gas cap for said vehicle. All while tending his infant, wah wah. I live in a rundown house, no money for maintenance, drive an old borrowed car, and he didn't have a clue why I laughed at him.

Sadly, it's not the first time someone has asked me to finance their lifestyle of excess. Neither the first time I declined. People be crazy. It's not just you wondering what happened.

The only one you are required to make happy is you. When you stop worrying about how other people think you should live your life you will be happier. The world is becoming more insane. The rules have been broken. Time alone or with those who think like you will keep you sane.

Ha, ha. I am an old man, 63 and don't fit into my generation at all. I don't fit in anywhere really. My goals, my values, my desires, my beliefs, my hopes don't seem to agree with anyone I know.

Try going to youtube try fast tapping. It is the only cure for PTST. What it does it frees you from stuck emotions and it is free any thing put in your. Mind you do it. It has helped my boy friend a lot .

That is easy for you to say. Harder to live though.

I understand your message, I am just struggling a bit right now.

Then why are people still living around me like they always have?

They continue to buy houses, cars, TVs, booze, pot, jewelry, get tattoos, useless junk.

They continue to work at mindless jobs year after year. The go on Carnival Cruises and buy tee shirts from poor Latins in ugly ports.

They continue to send their sons and daughters off to fight senseless wars that kill innocent people.

I don't see anything changing at all...

very interesting never heard of this before..

Saturn Return is an alleged phenomenon which is described as influencing a person's life development at 27 to 29 or 30-year intervals. These intervals or "returns" coincide with the approximate time it takes the planet Saturn to make one orbit around the sun, i.e. 29.4 years. It is believed by astrologers that, as Saturn "returns" to the degree in its orbit occupied at the time of birth, a person crosses over a major threshold and enters the next stage of life. With the first Saturn return, a person leaves youth behind and enters adulthood. With the second return, maturity. And with the third and usually final return, a person enters wise old age. These periods are estimated to occur at roughly the ages of 28-31, 56-60 and 84-90. A fourth return occurs for only a few people, at age 114-118.


[link to en.wikipedia.org]

Its called disconnection. You only let the things and people in your life that make you happy. Its really simple and will bring you peace. You only focus on the things that make you happy. Hard at first but easier with practice. You have to decide what makes you happy.

some people might call this "selfish" but I disagree

it's selfish to expect someone to cave and be unhappy, just to please others' selfish needs.

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and even if it is selfish so what?

the world is very selfish right now. society is beyond self-centered... let's give these people a taste of their own medicine

Be very careful. I went through this stage a few years back and I thought " fuck the world and its materialistic bullshit". I started not caring, my life never got better, It got worse. You change but the world does not. Everyone around you still chases the money looking for the weekend while you just slip in to a depression of sorts. It sucks because society never actually changes. Also I could be very happy living off in some bush but my loved ones around me do not want the bush and I can not leave them. Just except your fate and live like the rest of the slaves.

Never accept a life lived like a slave. Only from the inside can you reach freedom, and when you do you will never again have to pretend or wish you were free. Rise and testify and stop playing this silly game that is only artifice from the get go. The only power society has is that people believe it is real. It has no objective reality. You are free.

NEVER!

I can't go back now.

Exactly.

definitely the first and probably the 2nd..they both go hand in hand LOL

Life is like this episode of Star Trek, "The Royale"

When the Enterprise is advised by a passing Klingon vessel that there is strange debris in orbit around a nearby planet, they investigate only to find a piece of a NASA spacecraft emblazoned with the US flag. The planet below has severe weather and an unbreathable atmosphere except for one small area that appears to be inhabitable by humans. Riker, Data and Worf beam down to the surface only to find a single revolving door leading them to the casino floor in the Hotel Royale. They soon find that they are trapped there and cannot exit. As they explore the hotel, they find the remains of a human, dead for several centuries. They also find his diary and a cheap pulp fiction novel that seems to be the story taking place in the hotel itself.

The poor astronaut was living the cheesy existence brought to life from a pulp fiction novel about life in a Casino. The aliens thought they were giving him his natural habitat, but the astronaut ended up dying an insufferable monotonous facade of glittering lights, shallow people and a pointless existence.

Yeah. That does sound a lot like life right now.

"Just Lost"

Me too AC, me too!

We're in this thing together.





Last Edited by Lost Angel on 02/10/2014 11:14 AM

Cannot DO that when those I'm forced to depend on won't let me. It's constant "work! make money! contribute!". I do try to contribute in my own way, with the talents I have. It's never enough, because at the end of the day, I'm not bringing home enough money.

I want to say "Trust me MF...if I had the kind of money you wish I did, I would be so fucking OUT OF HERE!".

DOnt be weary, get pissed off! That youve been lied to and cheated, and deceived. You arent lazy or lost having come to the conclusions you have. Your just frustrated with the stupidity of it all.

Well hopefully you can do better than I did. My life is good again now that I have conformed. One day when my kids are all grown up I will try again. I even stood on the corner with signs before and people drive by and honk but at the end of the day I was still out on the corner and people were still at best buy buying a 3d tv. Our government has suppressed free energy,has ran a muck with nuclear energy, they allow corporations to poison our foods,tax the shit out of us,send us to wars to fight people we don't know. What will you do now that you will never go back? What is your suggestions?

I feel the same way OP!

He has much company!!