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Your poor attempt at 'pop' psychology and faux humility has made me chuckle with delight.
Your primitive utilization of simple psychological concepts, and your bizarre extrapolation of said concepts to try to elicit a predictable response, has left me laughing. You should be more subtle in your methods, and not try using psychological concepts and theories that you have little or no understanding off.
May I humbly suggest the following books for study:
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In response to your questions,I would say your ‘God’ does not exist. He is a construct that you are using to justify and validate yourself. Your post,here today, and its context and tone, are merely self-judgements. You are not judging me, you are judging yourself, in psychology this is known as self-projection.
Your quote: ‘Real freedom and knowledge come from understanding that we are not in control of what happens around us....’ is very revealing. It shows you acknowledge the chaos of the universe. It also shows your fear of said chaos. This is the reason you have attempted to 'push away' your fear with a melange of various religious concepts (Buddhism, Hinduism, Christianity etc).

I suggest you use another avenue beside 'God' to help remove your fear of life. Religion is a metaphorical prison for the weak and like many Christians,who post on GLP, you will become 'institutionalized.'

I say, embrace the chaos of the universe and set yourself free, before it is too late.

Before you ask, yes, I am qualified to assess you.