I used to feel the same way!!! I worked hard at my studies too, and did in fact read the whole book a few times - but the Gospel I always said was all you really need, Christ is a mystic. He tells us exactly - and my faith got to the point I didn't even need for him to be real - the entire thing could be allegory. Its the message.

Then - this - don't be alarmed - what is important is the message. Why is this message reprogrammed and programed to begin with??? Don't be scared now - watch it . . .

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