Christians, please help me. :(

Please pray for me, GLP. I was once a firm believer in Christ but several months ago something happened and I gave up my faith. I became consumed with a burning hatred towards God and anything related to Christianity or religion period. I ripped up every religious book I owned including several bibles and a Tanakh, burned pictures of my baptism and baptism certificates and broke crosses and statues in an attempt to eradicate God and Christ from my life.

It can't just be a coincidence that after that happened my life completely fell apart. I lost my job, my landlord sold my family's house that we were renting to own right out from under us forcing my aunt, mom, little brother and myself to move into a very small travel trailer. My mental health is rapidly deteriorating and I'm depressed, scared, agitated and paranoid all the time. I've become a jealous monster and have started to push my girlfriend away with my insecurities.

It seems like nothing but bad things have happened since I turned away from my faith. I'd wandered from the faith plenty of times and explored other religions and schools of thought but never have I left with such violence and hatred in my heart. Now I can't even pick up a bible or hear a Christian song on the radio without getting furious and quickly pushing the book away or turning the song off and anytime I hear someone pray I start getting blasphemous thoughts in my head and start shouting obscenities to God in my thoughts to drown out the sound of the prayer. I feel like I'm doomed.

Am I beyond forgiveness? Have I opened the door to a demon? Please pray for me, for my family and for my girlfriend.

God LOVES you, He died in YOUR place, knowing every sin you will commit, every thought you will ever think.

His love for you is beyond comprehension.

Just talk to Him, pour your heart out to him...


And the LORD, he [it is] that doth go before thee; he will be with thee, he will not fail thee, neither forsake thee: fear not, neither be dismayed.

For I will be merciful to their unrighteousness, and their sins and their iniquities will I remember no more.

Faith and works go hand and hand. Do you pray, do you stand up for the TRUE word, do you witness to others? Do you surround yourself with people who are not Christians?

Its about humility and attitude. You have to LIVE your faith, works.. prayer.. Humility.. Thankfulness.. longsuffering. Thats the Christian life.

Live life and enjoy yourself.
You don't need to hate/fear/love god because he doesn't exist.
You have the love of humanity in your heart, you don't need an artificial overlord.

'And ye have forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him:

For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth.

If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not?' Hebrews 12:5-7

OP have you ever considered that your misfortune is God chastising (disciplining) you for your disobedience.If you are born again God see's us as sons/daughters,and he will regretfully discipline us when we step out of line to get our attention.

True fathers and mothers discipline their sons and daughters out of love,not anger and hatred as so many try to claim nowadays.He does it because he loves you,and wants you to come back to him OP.If you pitched a tantrum,called your father names,and broke his things wouldn't you expect to be reprimanded by any responsible father?God is no different my friend.

when the will to live leaves.. good works are mute.. your not going to go out and do good works when you yourself cant live...

faith is THE ONLY THING..

ONLY THING REQUIRED IS FAITH. period.

god judges the rest.

when the will to live leaves.. good works are mute.. your not going to go out and do good works when you yourself cant live...

faith is THE ONLY THING..

ONLY THING REQUIRED IS FAITH. period.

god judges the rest.

Don't let people like this invade your mind, this is why timothy said the tounge can be very wicked and deceiving..

everything ever said to you is stored in your mind and makes up who you are.. so ignore this person saying god doesn't exist.

sorry you have to be led astray like that

but at the end of the day God knows everyone.. so we cant judge, just gotta let god take care of it

I disagree.. the God jesus spoke of, would open his arms, and love his son, regardless of what he said or did...

are you really telling this person the trials and suffering they are going through is god chastening them? that is sickening.

so many people claim to know god yet they speak such ignorance

Faith without works is dead. Stop spreading lies. Of course

he needs to rebuild faith, thats obvious. Just prayed for

you OP :) You are wise to ask for prayers BTW.

Thank you for sharing that scripture. I also like that one about how God separates us from our sin as far as the east is from the west or something like that. What do you suggest for someone whose thought life is undisciplined and spiraling out of control. How does one really take a thought captive in Christ?

'And ye have forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him:

For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth, and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth.

If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not?' Hebrews 12:5-7

OP have you ever considered that your misfortune is God chastising (disciplining) you for your disobedience.If you are born again God see's us as sons/daughters,and he will regretfully discipline us when we step out of line to get our attention.

True fathers and mothers discipline their sons and daughters out of love,not anger and hatred as so many try to claim nowadays.He does it because he loves you,and wants you to come back to him OP.If you pitched a tantrum,called your father names,and broke his things wouldn't you expect to be reprimanded by any responsible father?God is no different my friend.

i totally disagree with you.

faith is all that matters

but whatever, we can talk about it with jesus when we move on.

something tells me he will back me up on this one.

Hey OP stick in there don't let anyone else tell you what God wants from you or what God is doing to you

as i said before

right now, just have faith that God really does love you

everything else will progress forward...

don't worry about what these people say

i don't expect you to go to a homeless shelter and feed the poor right now unless thats something you felt like doing but don't do it because others say to do it
etc

"...As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent..."

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Peace,

I disagree.. the God jesus spoke of, would open his arms, and love his son, regardless of what he said or did...

are you really telling this person the trials and suffering they are going through is god chastening them? that is sickening.

so many people claim to know god yet they speak such ignorance

Actually they are right,

Matthew 7:21-23


21 “Not everyone who says to Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ shall enter the kingdom of heaven, but he who does the will of My Father in heaven. 22 Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name, cast out demons in Your name, and done many wonders in Your name?’ 23 And then I will declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you who practice lawlessness!’

These verses contradict the whole saved by faith alone false doctrine. They are directed at those who profess Christ.

If I wrote a holy book, I'd be sure to include sections that says that anyone who doubts me isn't pure.

Therefore only proving my 'truth' more.