He's gone now, I Lost my precious HUSBAND....He died on May 17 from myelodysplastic syndrome. | |
Angel Helper
(OP) User ID: 37970957 United States 05/26/2013 12:31 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | hi there angel helper,im so sorry for your heartbreaking loss.you ve given me comfort before on glp and knew you were a very special lady from your compassionate responses. I send you my love and prayers my friend,for you and your daughter....what you said about your husbands blue eyes moved me to tears..just beautiful,he must have been very special.may jesus comfort you in the days ahead. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 40534650 Thank you...it was an honor to give a few heart felt words to you when you needed them. I am here if you need me. I wish i could see him.......one more time. I wish God would grant me one more time to see him without him being sooooo sick. I am so sad. Live and let live, for we all have our own lessons to learn. |
abeliever
Members User ID: 5882110 United States 05/26/2013 12:33 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | So sorry, Angel Helper. May God bless you with lovely memories of your precious husband. My husband passed away when he was 42 years old. I was blessed to have known him. He was an amazing man. Prayers go to you and your family. |
Angel Helper
(OP) User ID: 37970957 United States 05/26/2013 12:36 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I am devastated. I took good care of him for many years as we were only married four years when he got sick, but those four years were filled with so much care, love and respect that he lasted 12 more years, progressively getting sicker and sicker. I do not think I can go through watching someone I love go through this again. Quoting: Angel Helper My 16 year old daughter is having a tough time, too!! She has been chosen to go to spend three weeks at the Governor's mansion to go to some gifted college classes for college credit. Her daddy made her promise not to stop her education as he said he would not be here for her to fall-back on...She is in the top 2% of extremely gifted young women in mathematics in the USA, so my husband knows she can go far, but she is so overwhelmed with grief. What does a mother do? Respect my husband's wishes for his only child who has much to give to this sore, cold world, or make her stay home? I think she needs to keep her mind active, She is a junior in high school and three of her AP teachers came to the services to show love and support but what really got me was they did not even know Lauren's dad was sick!! When I ask her why she never told these sweet teachers her dad was this sick and preparing to die, she said she did not want to be treated any different by her teachers, or her friends in her classes. Many of you old timers here know that ocasionally I mentioned my husband's and had asked for prayers. Well, I want to thank you for the responses over the years for prayers. We kept him with us for A LOT longer than THEY said he'd be on Earth. I want to share this last bit with you who have been suportive and have cared the last ten years. (GLP has been my sanctuary while in and out of hospitals for years and years) Here is how he finally departed. We had been back in the hospital this time for over a month, he was getting worse and worse, I asked them to get hospice set up so I could bring him home. He wanted to come home. They got every detail set up and went out of their way to do all the extras too! His blood tests were getting worse and worse, and they knew it was not going to be long, so like I said, arrangements were made to get him home and comfortable. That was not to happen. In the middle of the night, lance pulled out a 10cc ballon catheter and had become incoherent. Blood filled the room where he had injured himself pulling that cath out. He had taken a much worse turn for the worse, so the Dr came in....gently took me aside, said I was not going to be able to take him home, he was out of his mind, and he needed 24 hour care. He told me there was a wonderful hospice hospital where I could stay with him but that he was going pretty fast as the last blood tests showed. There went my last hope of him beating this bout of illness. \ So Dr told me where there was a wonderful in-house hospice where the Dr's who have family who need hospice goes. He took care of it all and we were transfered there and within an hour they had us all settled in this extremely nice big room with a two story area where the patient's bed is so they can get the advantage of the afternoon sun for a sunbath. It was the most wonderful hospital hospice in the most questionable area in a place that was indeed a slice of Heaven. (in case any of you need these services, i can help you with info and a call, if you need my support) He was NOT over medicated, he told us when he was in pain....none of that morphine slow death what so ever. He died at 5:45 am and I watched his countenance change from anxiety to serenity. His sky blue eyes were expressed the same was they were when he looked upon our daughter the first time, with awe and great amazement. I knew he was with the Angels and I was happy, but immediately I missed him. I don't know where my life is going to take me now.....time has caught up with me in this process. But I know I will find my way and be ok. I just need some time. Pray for me to get through all this. I am having a rough time as I write this. This is not easy. Live and let live, for we all have our own lessons to learn. |
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User ID: 38809969 United States 05/26/2013 12:41 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I wish i could see him.......one more time. I wish God would grant me one more time to see him without him being sooooo sick. I am so sad. Quoting: Angel Helper You will. He will. Revelation 21:1-4 "Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and the sea was no more. And I saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” |
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Angel Helper
(OP) User ID: 37970957 United States 05/26/2013 01:02 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | So sorry, Angel Helper. May God bless you with lovely memories of your precious husband. Quoting: abeliever My husband passed away when he was 42 years old. I was blessed to have known him. He was an amazing man. Prayers go to you and your family. I know how much pain you must have/and are in over this. I am so sorry for you. Live and let live, for we all have our own lessons to learn. |
Angel Helper
(OP) User ID: 37970957 United States 05/26/2013 01:04 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I wish i could see him.......one more time. I wish God would grant me one more time to see him without him being sooooo sick. I am so sad. Quoting: Angel Helper You will. He will. Revelation 21:1-4 "Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and the sea was no more. And I saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” Thank you, that made me feel better. :) Live and let live, for we all have our own lessons to learn. |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 40541328 United States 05/26/2013 01:26 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | myelodysplastic syndrome is a retrovirus retrovirus is simple to cure, only tptb make too much money off disaterous so called treatment the cure will never be released anyone who tries to get the info out wil be in BIG DEEP DO DO |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 36537992 United States 05/26/2013 01:28 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I am devastated. I took good care of him for many years as we were only married four years when he got sick, but those four years were filled with so much care, love and respect that he lasted 12 more years, progressively getting sicker and sicker. I do not think I can go through watching someone I love go through this again. Quoting: Angel Helper My 16 year old daughter is having a tough time, too!! She has been chosen to go to spend three weeks at the Governor's mansion to go to some gifted college classes for college credit. Her daddy made her promise not to stop her education as he said he would not be here for her to fall-back on...She is in the top 2% of extremely gifted young women in mathematics in the USA, so my husband knows she can go far, but she is so overwhelmed with grief. What does a mother do? Respect my husband's wishes for his only child who has much to give to this sore, cold world, or make her stay home? I think she needs to keep her mind active, She is a junior in high school and three of her AP teachers came to the services to show love and support but what really got me was they did not even know Lauren's dad was sick!! When I ask her why she never told these sweet teachers her dad was this sick and preparing to die, she said she did not want to be treated any different by her teachers, or her friends in her classes. Many of you old timers here know that ocasionally I mentioned my husband's and had asked for prayers. Well, I want to thank you for the responses over the years for prayers. We kept him with us for A LOT longer than THEY said he'd be on Earth. I want to share this last bit with you who have been suportive and have cared the last ten years. (GLP has been my sanctuary while in and out of hospitals for years and years) Here is how he finally departed. We had been back in the hospital this time for over a month, he was getting worse and worse, I asked them to get hospice set up so I could bring him home. He wanted to come home. They got every detail set up and went out of their way to do all the extras too! His blood tests were getting worse and worse, and they knew it was not going to be long, so like I said, arrangements were made to get him home and comfortable. That was not to happen. In the middle of the night, lance pulled out a 10cc ballon catheter and had become incoherent. Blood filled the room where he had injured himself pulling that cath out. He had taken a much worse turn for the worse, so the Dr came in....gently took me aside, said I was not going to be able to take him home, he was out of his mind, and he needed 24 hour care. He told me there was a wonderful hospice hospital where I could stay with him but that he was going pretty fast as the last blood tests showed. There went my last hope of him beating this bout of illness. \ So Dr told me where there was a wonderful in-house hospice where the Dr's who have family who need hospice goes. He took care of it all and we were transfered there and within an hour they had us all settled in this extremely nice big room with a two story area where the patient's bed is so they can get the advantage of the afternoon sun for a sunbath. It was the most wonderful hospital hospice in the most questionable area in a place that was indeed a slice of Heaven. (in case any of you need these services, i can help you with info and a call, if you need my support) He was NOT over medicated, he told us when he was in pain....none of that morphine slow death what so ever. He died at 5:45 am and I watched his countenance change from anxiety to serenity. His sky blue eyes were expressed the same was they were when he looked upon our daughter the first time, with awe and great amazement. I knew he was with the Angels and I was happy, but immediately I missed him. I don't know where my life is going to take me now.....time has caught up with me in this process. But I know I will find my way and be ok. I just need some time. :jeaua::doggie foxygirl::sasyland: Guess you are just going to have to go and find yourself another tall man, which is getting more difficult since our toxic environment has been stunting our growths. |
Dug In
User ID: 40541778 United States 05/26/2013 01:28 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I NEVER know what to say at these times. "I'm sorry" just doesn't seem strong enough. Let God hold you and comfort you If something can corrupt you, you're corrupted already. Bob Marley “The duty of a patriot is to protect his country from its government.” THOMAS PAINE (1737-1809) Do not pray for an easy life, pray for the strength to endure a difficult one. Bruce Lee |
Acid Cat!!!
User ID: 40294927 United States 05/26/2013 01:33 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | "We may call such a monster the 'beast of property.' It now rules the world, making mankind miserable, and gains in cruelty and voracity with the progress of our so called 'civilization.' ." --Johann Most |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 39682922 United States 05/26/2013 01:34 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I am so sorry for your loss OP, you have gone through a long battle for life with love. I do have to say you should cherish the fact you were there in the last moments, I went through this with my grandfather and it was a beautiful experience that I hold close to my heart every time I get down thinking about the loss. I remember similar moments that you describe in those last few minutes of life passing and would not have wanted to be anywhere else, it was incredibly moving and it completely changed me forever. There was a lot of serendipity and coincidence right after his passing for me, be open for these in your life, they do come to you. Hugs |
grumpier
User ID: 1189758 China 05/26/2013 01:34 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | My sincere condolences for you and your daughter Angel helper. I send you some positive energy to deal with this loss. Maybe it's time for the angels to help you. If you think a thread is important enough for others to read, go to page one and click on the green pin!!! |
Crazy Harriet
User ID: 36677216 Japan 05/26/2013 01:45 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | So sorry. This is the thing none of us wants to face. We lost a dear sister three years back in similar circumstances, so now have a little distance, and I will dare to share how I coped (am coping). Don't try to force yourself to act normal now, or feel normal. It can take some time, so allow yourself that time. Don't let anyone force you to put a clock on it. Allow yourself to experience this. Make a point to be with real people you like. If you don't have a club, church, or other, try volunteering at the library or something. Your dear husband is fine, now. You will heal, too. Remember the Hopi "All that we do now must be done in a sacred manner and in celebration." For some reason, it helps. Even mundane chores. Maybe cause it feels like a crazy dream/nightmare, making everything a sacred ritual works. I dunno. Please come back to GLP if you have a crisis. You're never alone! That's only an illusion. You have my highest regard for the loving care you gave your husband. Thank you. Your daughter is lucky she's a math head. It's easier to do math, for some reason, in this state, than to deal with writing and other arts. Her math concentration will probably offer her some serious relief. When she gets her PhD, she can thank her dad for his inspiration. You will cry. It will be good. Please forgive me for daring to offer advice. It is cheeky of me, but I am still on the healing path, and hopefully sharing this will make it a wider one we can share. Best, CH "I would rather take a political risk in pursuit of peace, than risk peace in pursuit of politics." - Donald Trump |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 1715875 United States 05/26/2013 01:58 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Very sorry for your major loss of your husband. It's even harder when a child is involved. I have lost many people in my life including my husband of 18 years. I took care of my grandparents for 23 years total. I know how hard it is to watch the death process knowing their is nothing you can do. I'm so sure he greatly appreciated your care and the gift of his daughter. My husband's death was an unexpected shock. My child was 3 1/2 at the time and we found him together. My son says he remembers finding him. It does follow my son at different points in his life and always will. Please take care of yourself. I allowed myself to grieve and then I had to pull myself together for the sake of my son's wellbeing. Hopefully someday in the future you will have a grandchildren and see your husband in their eyes. My best. |
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GunnyJoe
User ID: 11837226 United States 05/26/2013 02:07 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | My thoughts and prayers to you and yours in your time of sorrow.he`s in a better place and no longer in pain.The people you lose still come around and look after you,just look at what goes on around you and you will see it. A gesture,a scent, the way things work out sometimes. Have faith,we ALL rejoin the family eventually. " It`s only weird the first time" ;p |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 1550123 United States 05/26/2013 02:31 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | hi there angel helper,im so sorry for your heartbreaking loss.you ve given me comfort before on glp and knew you were a very special lady from your compassionate responses. I send you my love and prayers my friend,for you and your daughter....what you said about your husbands blue eyes moved me to tears..just beautiful,he must have been very special.may jesus comfort you in the days ahead. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 40534650 Thank you...it was an honor to give a few heart felt words to you when you needed them. I am here if you need me. I wish i could see him.......one more time. I wish God would grant me one more time to see him without him being sooooo sick. I am so sad. I am so sorry you are going through this. What a good wife you have been. May God keep you strong. And the Bible holds out a hope of the resurrection so loved ones can be reunited again. Always have hope that you will see him again. [link to wol.jw.org] |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 40445447 United States 05/26/2013 02:48 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | So sorry for your loss. Prayers and hugs. Tell your daughter she seriously needs to go even though it seems the hard thing as his last wishes will haunt her if she doesn't follow them. She can make her life and the world a better place by going. It opens up so many possibilities. We need people like her to make a difference. She should go for him as a tribute.She is being selfish to not go unlike she is seeing it being in grief. |