just been given a sign READ

it is so long to explain in full detail if you have anything to ask then ask but cut short basically for the past 4 years i have been on a journey trying to figure out what we are my spiritual journey i guess. past few months felt like im finially getting somewhere could feel something big coming up. today had marijuana (after quitting for 2 years) it felt crazy nothing anybody was saying to me was registering, i was just the most relaxed been in my whole life this was something different though i cant explain i felt in a state of mind where everything about the world was infront of my eyes i dont know how to put it into words. when i got in i kept having wierd signs and something told me to meditate i did i put a deep relaxation sound track on. then the chitter chatter starts in the mind , i do the usual try and block it or try think of something else, but something told me stop, just listen, i listened to my thoughts and they felt like my friends, like all this time they have just been telling me the answers. i listened and i noticed all these thoughts i thought was bad, was just telling me the answers i had been looking for these past 4 years, there straight infront of me, i listened and listened and enjoyed every thought because it was just another answer i had been searching for. after about 1-2 hours i had listened to them all and my conscious was clear i had nothing left to think about and was in an even higher state of mind. my brain was doing something it had never done before and every felt as if it was right its so difficult to explain but answers were coming all at once then it just stopped, what i seen in my third eye was cells connected together running at crazy speeds like a computer but a zillion times better then wired up i got told we are all like computers but on a larger scale much larger, imagine sims the game that but us. a voice didnt tell me this i seen it if that makes sense, after that something said here, i had to come here and tell people, i dont know maybe someone would see and this would go further, i dont know but something :S:S i just said what my fingers typed sorry if i dont explain clear