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Sandi_T
(OP) User ID: 17391665 United States 08/21/2012 10:19 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hi Sandi~ Quoting: Anonymous Coward 19473138 I could use the insight if you have the time. Thank you. Lucy The forest here is almost as dark as early evening, even though it's morning. The dense foliage above you prevents much light from penetrating. You've been wandering happily for a few hours now, but hunger is beginning to take a toll. You whimper for a while, but no one hears you, so you keep wandering, giving up after a while. You're not unused to no one meeting your needs when you are trying to make them known; you're mute. But the day drags on and hunger increases. You search for your mother's voice and her gentle hands, but find nothing but more forest floor. Darkness is closing in now as the sun begins to set, and cold gathers. You cry again until you stumble and fall, lying on the cold, barren ground. You sleep fitfully for a time, until you hear frightening sounds, not knowing to identify them as wolves. But somewhere deep inside... you know. They say children don't know or understand, but you do. You know if your heart that you've been abandoned and that death is coming with its cruel teeth and its pain. On an unconscious level, you wish that you'd been better. Your father brought you here and left you alone, and your mother cried when he took you--but did nothing to stop him. You are defective, broken, unworthy... and you've been left here to die. Your father told your mother that it was best, but it didn't feel best to you. It feels like fear and pain and loneliness. No one will hear you cry--as no one ever has. You have a brilliant mind, but no voicebox. You don't understand that, but inherently you do know that something is terribly wrong with what's happening to you, and that primal understand leaves you angry at your parents; yet also desperately ashamed and emotionally bruised. Even as a toddler, you have the wits to run away when they finally close in on you. Primal fear unites with the basic instinct of helpless prey... and because you ran, death comes swiftly. I invite you to realize that you are perfect, just as you are. Human error and poor teaching made these people abandon you, not your 'flaw'. You are perfect just as you are. For if your purpose was to be perfect, God would have made you perfect. If you can find no faith in yourself, have faith first that God makes everything exactly as it is, without error. You can always make a new choice. Make the choice to believe in yourself and love yourself. You can never believe in the love of another, until you believe yourself to be worthy of it. No more requests in the "Strangest things" thread please. :hf: Past Lives requests thread: Thread: That Which Once Was: Past Lives |
Sandi_T
(OP) User ID: 17391665 United States 08/21/2012 10:40 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hi Sandi, Quoting: Anonymous Coward 1405996 Thank you so much for being so generous with your gift, that is really kind of you. My name is Ian, and I would love to know about my past life or lives and how it affects me in this current life. Thank you so very much for your time! You are Geisha. What most people don't know, is that the first Geishas were men, not women. Your job is quite simple, really... you are an entertainer. Westerners of today might think of you as a pop star. You are frequently required to play parts as a woman, but you are not in any way homosexual. You greatly enjoy the courtesans sent to you by your patrons, and you appreciate the female form in all of its variety. Yet because you play women, there are frequently those who believe that you would enjoy the attentions of men. You have never had a problem with rebuffing these requests. But your fame has spread and increased, and as it has done so, thus have these undesired requests increased. At last has come the day when you can no longer politely decline--in fact, you aren't being given any choice at all this time. It is considered a great dishonor to be taken in such a way, and this particular 'noble' and his cronies have enjoyed dishonoring and injuring you. Because you are on the smaller side, you were easy prey for them. Through their cruel abuse, they have injured you internally, and you are dying. As you lay dying, you feel broken inside in more ways than just that one. You long for ritual suicide, but you know that you haven't the strength to carry it through. You feel utterly dishonored on every level, shamed and abused and alone. For all your fame and all your fans, you are dying in your own body functions lying in a street like the rest of the trash. You feel as if you've been stripped of your humanity, stripped of your pride, stripped of your dignity, and unworthy of even the barest flicker of hope. All you can think of is how the people will gasp at your disgrace when the news is spread. Intellectual understanding that you were helpless does nothing to alleviate the miserable shame and horror spreading through you like the poisons from your ruptured intestines. You die in shock, your greatest pain that of the heart rather than that of the body. And when you are gone, your name is stricken from society, to be spoken only indirectly, in whispers in quiet places--and this remains with you as part of your shame, as well. I like the Avatar saying, "I see you." Because it really means something. And I wish to say to you now, "I see you." I see your heart and I've touched your soul. I know you, I see you, and my soul sings your name with pride and humble honor. You have come through much and have done so with all the dignity you wished to have, but never believed you did. I honor the strength of your spirit. No more requests in the "Strangest things" thread please. :hf: Past Lives requests thread: Thread: That Which Once Was: Past Lives |
Sandi_T
(OP) User ID: 17391665 United States 08/21/2012 10:56 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hi Sandy, I would love reading. When I was born I always had a sense of being here for a purpose and always seemed to have this knowledge instilled in me. I know it is there but I am having trouble figuring out and putting the pieces together. Quoting: Thought 9223954 When it's time for you to put it all together, there will be nothing that can stop you. Once more we find one who lacks self-trust. People frequently ask me how I do what I do, and the answer is imagination. I focus on the person, and then I imagine a scenario. Then I trust that my 'imagining' isn't really imagination at all, but a message from the Source of all things, which I call God. In what we would think of the primordial time--the beginning, the first, the moment of conception--there was only that great Source. That time was infinite eternity, wheels upon wheels of light, and color, and sound, and emotion. Love was all there was, thick and heavy... love has weight and mass and density and it is like dense soup. Within that soup was the embrionic spark of something greater. The inkling of what was, and what was to be again. The surface of the great endless lake of love heaved and billowed and life sprang forth like a diamond shower. Each droplet a part of the whole, containing a prismatic image of all that was, and that now is, and that would be again. Every finite drop held the infinite within it. The infinite held within it, every finite drop. You and I and all of us were born in a sprinkling spray of light rising from the lake that we would call Love. Each of us sang our own song, and as the eons stretched forward and back, our song and our dance and our lightshow held all the memories of all our lives and every action we ever took. And thus Love differentiated and the perfect holographic prisms danced eternally throughout infinity, before and after our own creation by the Great Source. There is a longing within you to return to that moment of creation. To spring again, eternal, from the place which you first sprang. I tell you now that you can visit that moment--that instant when all was clarity and when you began. But first, you must trust. Go into meditation and imagine yourself as part of everything. Become the breath you take in, become the breath you release. Then imagine that love is all around you, thick and warm and perfect and beautiful. In so doing, you go back to the womb of the infinite. Returning to the lake of love and merging with it will bring you back to that place of holographic perfection before you were you and before you expanded forward and backward in infinity as a singular spark of the divine. Most fear doing so, for before we were sparks, we were an infinite whole. Some believe that when they merge with the infinite whole, they will cease to exist or to be aware. Yet this is not true. You will be submerged more fully in yourself than you have ever been before. I invite you to make a habit of this meditation. When you least expect it, you will understand how you are whole and yet only a spark of the great Divine. You will come back here understanding why you are your purpose. Why you are the greatest purpose there is. No more requests in the "Strangest things" thread please. :hf: Past Lives requests thread: Thread: That Which Once Was: Past Lives |
Sandi_T
(OP) User ID: 17391665 United States 08/21/2012 11:01 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hi Sandi! Can you please tell me what page your on? I just want to keep watchful..thanku! Quoting: Anonymous Coward 788508 Still on 5. I've had much going on in my life. Trying to juggle everything, and sadly putting food on the table and caring for my daughter have to be my priorities. No more requests in the "Strangest things" thread please. :hf: Past Lives requests thread: Thread: That Which Once Was: Past Lives |
Lazurak
User ID: 13729779 United States 08/22/2012 01:18 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | One other small question I hope you might be able to tell me if my grandmother Doris who passed on sunday afternoon has been reincarnated again or if she was allowed to move on. If you cant help me with this its not a big deal. I am glad enough to be able to get a reading from you in the first place. Thank you for what you do and the time you sacrifice to do it. |
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User ID: 22377811 Canada 08/22/2012 09:18 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hi Sandi! Can you please tell me what page your on? I just want to keep watchful..thanku! Quoting: Anonymous Coward 788508 Still on 5. I've had much going on in my life. Trying to juggle everything, and sadly putting food on the table and caring for my daughter have to be my priorities. Sandi, you are doing a fine job. Personal life comes first! |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 788508 Spain 08/31/2012 01:18 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hi Sandi! Can you please tell me what page your on? I just want to keep watchful..thanku! Quoting: Anonymous Coward 788508 Still on 5. I've had much going on in my life. Trying to juggle everything, and sadly putting food on the table and caring for my daughter have to be my priorities. Thats ok Im not in any hurry and I dont even mind if you suddenly say you cant do anymore readings for whatever reason..Im amazed that youve done this much already..anyway, you and your daughter should always be first priorty, I know, I have a daughter also!.. blessings |
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Anonymous Coward User ID: 14226679 United States 09/02/2012 11:46 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Sandi, I think you should temporarily close the thread till you get caught up, like put closed in the subject line, because having an endless amount of reading to do will be discouraging & daunting to you. Quoting: Anonymous Coward 14226679 I agree. There needs to be an end, to have some sense of accomplishment, it its just endless pages and pages then she'd lose the motivation to even do it. Its like a never ending crossword puzzle, you keep doing it but it keeps growing, eventually you'd tire of the whole thing. |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 23048784 Ireland 09/02/2012 12:20 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Hi sandi T, I feel compelled to tell you to look into Eckhart Tolle - specifically his 'pain body' theory. (youtube is a good place to start) I think you might find it enlightening and freeing - although i'd say you're indulging in these gems already! :-) My story is similar to your own - but i've never told except one soul. For days now i have been wondering whether to mention it to you - and as your thread is on page 1 of glp today...i felt that was my cue... Not sure when you'll get to read this but hope it is received as warmly as it's intended. All the best, BP. x |
Sandi_T
(OP) User ID: 17391665 United States 09/02/2012 05:04 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | I have everything going on that you could imagine. My daughter is out of summer school, but not in regular school yet. I'm trying to get the house caught up for winter (it comes on fast in NH). I have to go to NC with my family next week. My boss is moving and thus she's having me around for very long hours each day to pack and such. I'm not packed for next week's trip. We're expecting company for my daughter's 6th birthday--granted, it's not until next month (Oct), but I have to start making a few preparations now. We had a dampness problem in our storage and had to excavate it (rhetorically speaking). I'm just sort of frazzled and overworked right now. It's not forever, and I apologize to those waiting (patiently or otherwise). I'm not tired of it, I'm not over it... I just have too much on my plate and barely any time for anything at all. There's a lot more going on, but I won't go into it all, lol. No more requests in the "Strangest things" thread please. :hf: Past Lives requests thread: Thread: That Which Once Was: Past Lives |
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Forum Administrator User ID: 19147018 United States 09/04/2012 04:57 PM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | if you believe that Lady Jane Retard, Spirit is strong enough to make it so. hell, there are Ministers Spirits still waiting in their graves determined to see Christ resurrect! like Bill Hicks said, once you get to Hell you will realize its a collective Christian delusion. (hey! there's nothin but Christians here!) of course most of us will be moving on to newer experiences and lives. Well, are you not just a little ray of sunshine??? Fate whispers to the warrior "You cannot withstand the storm" the warrior whispers back "I am the storm" INTJ-A |
Anonymous Coward User ID: 23211980 Australia 09/05/2012 01:45 AM Report Abusive Post Report Copyright Violation | Angels massaging your mind. They appear as white......for the moment. Their appearance will change later on. Your fear is showing, oh brainwashed one. Your fear will always hold you back. It's for a reason - and the one you think is out there is already in your mind and body. Begone with ye. |