I'm starting to feel like I'm heading toward a cliff with no chance of turning back...

or you can sip some tea and calm your mind.

are you your temporary body or your eternal spirit? when your body dies does your consciousness stay with it or fly free from it?

I can't help but feel that our reality is heading toward a change like hasn't ever been experienced on Earth before or at least in a very long time.I'm not necessarily talking about collapse, doom or Armageddon. There may be death, but I feel that this will be a time, so amazing and mind warping, that it will cause many people to commit suicide or lose their minds from fear.

I'm personally becoming so tied up with this coming change, that even if it is all BS and none of this ever happens, I can never go back to the life I lived before. Studying, researching and preparing for this coming event has changed me and I can never go back to being a 9-to-5 working slob, buying houses, cars and going to the movies on Saturday. I now find that I have become a willing outcast from the rest of society. I have committed myself to this change one way or another.

Please understand, I am not afraid of either outcome. Even if nothing changes in the near future, the cliff is still approaching for me. Either the cliff created by the coming events or the cliff that I have created for myself. My life will end soon, one way or another, not out of fear, despair or sadness, but because I am ready to move on. One...way...or...another.

Love and peace,
Fibonacci

I can relate to the bolded. I spent the last 6 years working a corporate job that I hated because it "paid the bills", and really, I didn't know what else to be doing... Since that time I have come to some profound realizations in my life and grown immensely spiritually. I was laid off in Mid-February and I'm having a very difficult time trying to fool myself into buying back into this superficial reality whereby people work meaningless jobs to pay for meaningless objects that provide no sense of knowledge, importance, or value.

I meant to post this a few days ago...

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Let's talk for a minute about fear. Fear itself is natural. When we are in danger or feel threatened, fear is understandable and is really a good thing. However, most fear can be debilitating and limiting. We first must understand and accept that separation and disconnection from other people is the primary cause of most fear. Society today is built on separation and as such, todays society is fear based. So, to get rid of the fear and anxiety, we are told to reconnect and bond with people, friends, the church etc. This causes the fear to ease, but I believe that this is the ultimate trap. Our desire to end the fear and suffering leads us back to society, family and other societal bonds, causing us to never follow our own true path to ascension. When we feel the need to end our fear and return to the safety of others, we ultimately end up living the life others expect of us. This, in my view, is the ultimate form of control and is the primary source of all of our suffering. This need to live our lives the way others expect of us is nothing less than spiritual slavery. This is our age old Earthy enslavement.

In truth, to become the ascended beings we desire to become, we need to directly face our fears and to even embrace them as part of our Earthly condition, not suppress them. Our constant need to stop the fear keeps us under control, suffering and enslaved. It is not until we see our fears as necessary for our spiritual growth can we begin to be truly free. Many wise beings have told us throughout history that the path to ascension is very difficult and lonely at times. This is because we must travel our true path alone. That is the key. We don't try to end our fear, instead we must accept our fear and loneliness as part of our spiritual growth with balance, love and courage.

This is why so many real ascended masters sought long periods of solitude or became hermits. The separation, loneliness and the associated fear are a natural part of the growth process. So many people today believe that they are becoming awakened. They join groups, desire close spiritual friendships and personal teachers. They join organizations that promote bonding, closeness and spiritual intimacy. These people are actally being deceived and are kept enslaved by the same system that they were trying to escape from.

Family, in my view, is a major source of our fear and control. I don't believe that the people we know as our family are any closer to us than the rest of the people on this planet. They are just people that have come to incarnate with us here at this time. To believe that our family is somehow a special bond is one of the ultimate traps to keep us enslaved and in pain. We will do or be almost anything do keep from losing our friends or family.

Now don't get me wrong. We should love them all! They are struggling through this matrix and doing the best they can just like we are. We should love all life really. We just don't need them close to us all the time.

The true path is a path that we must walk alone, with courage, love and balance. We don't need a teacher, guru, priest or master to show us the way. We don't need a husband/wife, friend, brother/sister, father/mother to encourage and to comfort us. What we need to do is to treat all beings as our true brothers and sisters. We then must accept our fear and walk this amazing world alone, being the being we need to become. Only then will we be able to follow our own true path with grace and love in our hearts.

I know that this understanding will not resonant with many, but that is ok. Do what feels right for you. Not what someone else expects you to be.

Peace,
Fibonacci

Nothing is going to happen that bad people in charge didn't make happen.

Stick to your guns.

every seen that begining 'ish seen of joe vs the volcano with tom hanks....

As a child, I always loathed 'acting' or 'role playing' that might have been encouraged under various circumstances in a school setting, it made me cringe. It always felt so unnatural and 'not me!'. I still can't stand it as a middle-aged adult. I only know how to be one person, and that's myself. Integrity is so important and I cannot bring myself to display fake emotions, or to bite my lip and not let my true feelings be known, about anything and everything. Laws of social interaction (or mores) play such a huge role in shaping and guiding peoples' behavior and they don't even realize the superficiality of the large majority of social interactions that take place. So many people are consumed and conditioned to act & behave like they learned you should given the circumstances, that they need to act & behave in a certain manner or risk ridicule and social rejection from the peers around them. It accounts for some much of the bullshit that occurs in society.

I think at some point when your consciousness adapts or grows/changes, you realize that you don't need to form your identity based on the social approval or recognition of others. That enables you to be your true self and honor your individual feelings & emotions without the filter that is the social feedback of those around you. It feels so liberating. I don't have to feel bad about or pretend to have a loving relationship with my brother just because he's "my brother". I don't have to pretend to be happy for someone I barely know at work when my coworkers decide to have a bridal or baby shower for a coworker I have no meaningful relationship with. I don't have to agree to attend social events if I don't have a genuine interest in going. I'm not attending a wedding I don't care to attend simply because I was invited and it might be perceived as 'rude' not to attend.

I think you start to break away from all these social constraints that really inhibit people from being and outwardly projecting their true identities & feelings. I feel honesty & integrity are such vital character attributes. You might piss somebody off along the way but at least you can take pride in knowing that you were always yourself, and never somebody else that others wanted or expected you to be. I feel like anyone around you who might not understand, eventually will 'get it', they just are a little further behind in the process that you are experiencing, and eventually, in this life or the next, they'll understand why you expressed yourself in the manner in which you did.

No more group think. Everyone need start thinking about who they are and how they really feel in their heart, and stop focusing on how others will perceive them.

Something is coming, and I am so glad you got away from mainstream society.

I want to move into the woods and never come back as each day passes.

Thank you for this, OP. This is exactly how I feel. I have been feeling this way for a very long time. I probably just noticed what it was though about 9 or so years ago. It is getting considerably more difficult by the day though, just over the last few months. Something is about to happen, I don't know what or when, but I feel it more and more every day and make sure when I tuck my kids into bed at night that I have absolutely everything in order. I am not afraid for myself or my kids, I welcome it. I am, however, afraid for other people in my life who I don't think will be able to handle whatever is to happen.
I don't hate my job, but I feel like it is a complete waste of my time, etc. In reality, it isn't, it pays my bills and feeds my kids, but I feel like I shouldn't be sitting here at work all day while my kids are in school. I should be with them, we should be exploring, or having a picnic, or painting, or something. Soon.....

Its getting late here..but had to give you a huge special hug before I go

People are starting to become deprogrammed.

Many will wake up and go crazy once they reallize what has been done.

OP you are handling it well...MANY WILL NOT.

I agree OP. I would like to believe that I shed my fear a few years ago. I have become somewhat of the black sheep of the family in doing so. I prefer to walk this path alone as I have been able to trust my instinct, try and think logically, and look at the big picture here. I grew up in a huge Catholic Italian family and our family is very tight-nit which I think can be a bad thing sometimes. Ideas and views become scewed by the family and before you know it everyone starts to think and opporate the same way. I can't even bring up half of how I feel as it gets me a look of confusion for not believing in the almighty and instead believing in myself. I feel they will come around on there own when they need to. In the meantime I will continue on this path as it makes ME happy. Peace and love to you OP and to all the others in this thread.

you are not alone my friend

"made me think it's an age thing."

How many responding to this thread are "questioners"? The mere fact we're here would indicate that we all are, accepting less and less the "information" we're being fed as-is - and that starts at a young age. When you get to the "omega point" where you trust almost nothing from outside, you're flying solo. Perhaps that's what all of this is about.

we can make the universe smile! rainbows connecting hearts!



thank YOU XX

Wow you guys are great! Wonderful energy!!!!!




Joy and Love

No, I don't believe it is about age, but about remembering.

It is about finally having the understanding and courage to follow your own path through this matrix. Once you decide to live life your own way, you are then beginning to awaken to what this reality is really about. This can come at any age. I find many children already have this understanding and then lose it later because of per pressure, control and bullying.

Peace

Peace