The Lord Jesus Christ Says: " Harold Doesn't Really Know." [Published May 17, 2011 - Fulfilled May 21, 2011]

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Don't give up hope.

There have been many days I just wanted to flip out and go nuts.

Do you know how hard it is to keep such a deep grief and anger down?

Have you ever been so badly crushed you just scream and scream and scream in agony like your guts are beong pulled out with a hot wire from you rear end?


Have you ever felt a hate and a betrayal so DEEP from the ones you were brought up to think were the "Loving" ones only to find out the HARD way that they were in fact the very representaion of all that is EVIL?

Have you ever watched a loved one DIE at their hands..a loved one who spent her life trying to HELP them only to have them turn their backs on her on self rightous indignation because they dared to point out what I am pointng out now?

My mother is DEAD because of fake christians..DEAD..and gone..and I miss her so much. All she ever did was love people. She gave her life in the service of others.

It was AOG christians that killed her.

It was AOG type christians that almost BASHED me to DEATH LITERALLY because I too dared to ask "If you ARE real christians where is the LOVE? why do you always condemn others and put people down with bible verses and hate?"

It nearly cost me my life.

It ALMOST cost me my salvation too...I ALMOST walked away from the Lord at that point.

So my journey went on. Year after year and church after church. Searching for that LOVE that I KNEW was real..having experinced it..but never ever finding it in ANY type of christian...with a couple of RARE exceptions.

I felt I was the only one who had really MET the Lord..no one else could describe what I saw and knew when I was born again.

I tried them all..the same HATE was in every denomination..every church..and every heart. NO one knew what love was. They knew their bible and they knew doctrine and they knew how to HATE everyone who didnt see things THEIR way. But they never KNEW what love was...having never met jesus for themselves.

Once you know what real love is you also know what real evil is as well. The contrast is so obvious.

Making a prophecy that comes to pass does NOT mean you have love. Doing a miracle does NOT mean you have love.

Only LOVE is real and sometimes I wish Jesus had no shown me what REAL love is. Because I have spent my life now with eyes opened to the truth of how evil christianity has become.

There are true christians. I have met three or four. But they too are shunned for the same reason the pharisees shunned Jesus..because he had a terrible habit of telling it like it IS. They did not LIKE what they heard because it exposed their black hearts underneath the doctines and dogmas.

People point out my hate...and yes..I do have hate. What human being does not at some point have hate?
God has hate to. He hates EVIL.

I know how he feels because I hate EVIL as well. I LOATHE it.

Its one thing to hate for the right reasons and another thing to hate for the wrong.

I have hate..but for the RIGHT reasons. I HATE the fakery. I HATE the pretend. And I have spent my life seeing it all around. Pretence. fakery.

The ones who are supposed to have the light are the very ones who are the darkest of all.

The turn people AWAY with their self rightous trickery..their smug "IM so holy and YOU are evil and will BURN in hell" arrogant smugness.

They mock anyone who dares to point out their OBVIOUS lies and hypocrisy.

I know I am not perfect. I am far from it myself. But at LEAST I am honest about it. I wear my heart on my sleeve. You all know me. YOu see what I say. You see the agony in my heart. YOu may or may not understand. You have not lived my life. You have spent most of it in a bubble..protected form the storms.

My life has been nothing BUT storms. And no shelter could be found..in any chiurch..in any book..in any prophecy or doctrine. No love was to be found. Only more hate and judgment and condemnation.

So now I am dying from a broken heart. Crushed by the ones who pretend to be the "Loving ones" but who are really all that is evil in the world.

The reason I lump all chrsitians together in what I say is because only the FAKE ones get offended by it. Only the FAKE ones fight and spit and kill and judge.

The real ones..the ones who KNOW what love truly is..read it and say "I UNDERSTAND"...and I love you."

The fake..just HATE and make excuses and say "Its the OTHERS who are like that..NOT ME...you need to REPENT or be BURNT IN HELL for daring to come against ME the holy one"

YOu see what I mean?

Thats why Jesus told the parable of the pharisee and the tax collector in full hearing of the pharisees themselves.

The ones who were offended were the ones who were the guilty.

Anyways..the anger I feel is a rightous anger..and a very HUMAN anger. I would NOT be very human if I did not feel pain over what happenned.

It is not a sin to say what one really feels but it IS a sin to christians to point out hypocrisy and pride because it exposes them for what they really are.

Pharisees..modern day ones.

They think they have the light but they put forth darkness.

You can tell who is really of the lord and who is not.

A real christians gathers people in with LOVE.

A fake on scatters them with threats of HELL and JUDGMENT and DOOM..especially if you dare to disagree.

jesus said "They will KNOW you are my disciples by their LOVE..."

There is NO LOVE to be found in and church..just scripture and dogma and hate and self righotus puffuppery.

There is NO LOVE to be found in constantly threatening people with HELL all the time.

Try love. It works.

I have seen perhaps two threads here at GLP where LOVE was tried instead of hate filled judgment.

Lots of people..even Hard truth..responded and began to soften.

You attract more bees with honey than viegar.

try it some time.

As for me...I am going home soon. My life is done. I cant wait to die now. Ive had enough. I am so tired..so worn out.

What I have wrong physically is something that cannot be cured by doctors. Its a broken heart. Stress damage. Irreversable. So be it. I want to sleep..to rest..to go home..to the Love I knew when I was 15 and met the REAL Jesus..who loved me..who..loved..ME..for who I am..for what I am..and he told me then//"One day you will understand your life and the reasons for what you are to go through. Until then just trust me..do not trust man"

He knew then I would be led astray for a while. But that was the lesson..to learn the difference bewteen REAL love..and fake love..REAL light..and fake light. REAL christians..and fake ones.

Now I know.

I have posted what I have learnt all over GLP..playing roles to make the point.

It has worked..because most people here at GLP will no longer be FOOLED by the fake,,let alone listen to them.

My job is done. I can rest now.

Although I have many MANY imperfections..at least I know JESUS understand them..and forgives those with an honest heart.

I am honest..and have hidden nothing now.

Perhaps..now..you will understand..that God does work in ways we never can truly figure out.

If my whole life has been for this one time..these few weeks at GLP doing what I have done to immunise people against the FAKE..then it has been worth it.

From now on..forget about me..dont even worry now about me..no..dont even pray.

I want to go home..I long for it with all my heart.

Peace...love..rest..and my family await me.

And I truly apolagise for those ones here I may have hurt or insulted in the process...those who were trying to help me..but whom I misunderstood in my "Zeal"...forgive me. I am so sorry.

God knows my heart..and he knows I make mistakes.

Please forgive me if I have made one against you.

Hmmm....your mother died because of 'fake christians?' wow....somehow I 'smell a rat' here unless you explain fully. If not, then you an accuser of the brethern just like your father. The LORD JESUS does not give someone the job of 'exposing fake christians' ..... that is the devil's work. You, my friend, are a deceiver. I will recant my position if you explain fully what you mean.....but accusing the brethern is not from GOD.....period.

Behold, a certain lawyer stood up and tested him, saying, "Teacher, what shall I do to inherit eternal life?"

He said to him, "What is written in the law? How do you read it?"

He answered, "You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your strength, and with all your mind ; and your neighbor as yourself."

He said to him, "You have answered correctly. Do this, and you will live."

But he, desiring to justify himself, asked Jesus, "Who is my neighbor?"

Jesus answered, "A certain man was going down from Jerusalem to Jericho, and he fell among robbers, who both stripped him and beat him, and departed, leaving him half dead. By chance a certain priest was going down that way. When he saw him, he passed by on the other side. In the same way a Levite also, when he came to the place, and saw him, passed by on the other side. But a certain Samaritan, as he traveled, came where he was. When he saw him, he was moved with compassion, came to him, and bound up his wounds, pouring on oil and wine. He set him on his own animal, and brought him to an inn, and took care of him. On the next day, when he departed, he took out two denarii, and gave them to the host, and said to him, 'Take care of him. Whatever you spend beyond that, I will repay you when I return.' Now which of these three do you think seemed to be a neighbor to him who fell among the robbers?"

He said, "He who showed mercy on him."

Then Jesus said to him, "Go and do likewise."

I love you Grace, but I"m going to have to disagree.

When someone is hurting, we can't and shouldn't tell them that their pain isn't real or justified. Regardless of what happened, his pain is real and it's not our place to judge that.

We can and should attempt to help this person move past the pain and into a better place by encouraging the person and showing them love and understanding, as best as we can by giving scriptural guidance and prayer. The rest is up to them.

You can't put out a fire with gasoline. Only cool water soothes a burn and will eventually extinguish a flame.

Yes, I see exactly what you are saying.....and I hesitated to post this.....but he is accusing christians of hypocrisy and being fake and that is what killed his mother. I said in my post that I would recant what I said if he could explain it further. He made a very heavy statement and now he needs to explain or he does sound like he following the crowd here at GLP and bashing christians for being so hypocritical.

I feel like I can talk with authority because I've been through the 'I think christians are fake and lack love' phase. It is a bad place to be and it is from the enemy.

Also, there is a real movement here on GLP to discredit christians by making up stories of how awful they are. Again the enemy.

I have been hurt by chritians and non-christians. They both are sinners and can be quite horrible at times....like all of us. The only difference is that christians have been saved BY GRACE. Their works might not always reflect this. But we cannot judge their hearts.

I will be the first to admit I am wrong for posting this....if he gives facts to back it up and they are crediable.

This is not a courtroom, and he's not on trial and doesn't have to explain anything if he doesn't want to. It would be nice if he would shed some more light on the situation, but he is not obligated to share personal painful memories if he doesn't want to, and I won't crucify or condemn him for it.

The fact that he is suffering, and his pain is real, is good enough reason for me to try and help this person.

Forgive me please for speaking openly about my thoughts. I'm sorry and do not want to offend anyone. I love all of my brothers and sisters, even the ones who don't love me back.

Again, I mean no disrespect to anyone, forgive me.

A few days ago I had a short vision, and I just had it again.

I saw Jesus, and then I saw a whole crowd of people coming to Him. All of the people were broken. Some in wheelchairs, some on crutches, some with open wounds and bandages. All were making their way to Him and He was welcoming them with outstretched arms.

Beautiful!

There is no "Moving forward" from here.
When one comes to the end of ones life there is no more "Forward".

Its all behind me now. My life is about over and Im glad it is.

If the whole purpose of my life was to be crushed and abused a the hands of the onse who SAY they know him then my destiny is complete.

Jesus had the same problem.

The pharisees killed him too.

AS I look back over my life and the events of it I can see a reason I can see a pattern and I can see the lessons.
Maybe the entire 42 years of my life was to learn one thing and one thing only...

Never trust men and never EVER trust christians. I made the mistake of doing both.

Lesson learnt.

The final lesson is the one im learning now.

The lesson of "Letting it go"...and dying in peace knowing my race was run and I overcame "Hypocrisy" and fake religion.

I met the Lord Jesus when I was 15 and never ever in my entire life did I see that same Jesus in the actions or faces or churches.

Jesus was LOVE. Pure love. Gentle love. FORGIVING love. Understanding Love.

All the "Believers" I have known in my life were the opposite.

But back then being a child I thought "They are the grown ups so they MUST know the way" ..well..they knew the way all right. The way of death. I followed ignorantly and it cost me everything.

If it was not for the meeting of the REAL Jesus I would have turned my back on God forever at 17 when I was almost bashed to death in a pentecostal church for the "Sin" of daring to ask a question.

I asked them the same question I asked here..WHY the double standards and hypocrisy and total lack of LOVE?

I got bashed almost to death the same way I have been here.
The question was
Bashed" out of me with condescending smart assed hypocritical crap.

Back then they used their fists. Now its words. But the SAME ATTITUDE is the cause of both.

I now understand what EVIL is.

Evil..TRUE evil...of the PUREST kind is only found in churches.

What you see on the streets is a muddy kind of evil. Wars and death and killing and murder is what I call "Muddy" evil. Why? Because at least THAT kind of evil is not hypocritical. What you see in the evil of the streets is what you get. It does not say it is one thing and does another.

It says "I AM evil and EVIL is what I do so live with it"

But in the churches and in the majority of christians I have known here and in the world its..

"I am GOOD..but EVIL is what I do..I preach LOVE..but HATE is what I show..I preach CARE..but CALLOUSNESS is what I DISH OUT"

Jesus had a REAL problem with fakers..ones who decieved themselves with doctrines like the pharisees.

They knew the bible..went through all the motions..big noted themselves like Once4all does..but when push came to shove they were the VILEST evil creatures in the world.

The purest EVIL is the one who PRETENDS to be good and tries to make a NAME for itself.

Its PRIDE and pride is EVIL.

The church of today is EVIL..the hearts of christians is EVIL as you can clearly see by their utter LACK of love.

The just judge and hate and curse and threaten and bash.

And then when I am hurting..angry..grieving..I am kicked when down. I tell the TRUTH about them which only brings OUT the truth ABOUT them..you see it clearly in their judgmental hate filled replies..their
Oh so self rightous condemnation of me for DARING to speak the truth.

Well..its over now.

Ive learnt that throwing pearls in front of swine IS in fact a waste of time.

Jesus was right.

Let the dead bury the dead.

Soon I will be dead too.

My life has been a lesson in what hypocrisy IS as compared to LOVE.

I was so ANGRY for so long. But now I see that anger is a phase. You get over it..and wipe the dust of your feet and walk on by.

Why should I let what happenned to me at the hands of the "Once4alls" of this world destroy what peace I have left at my end?I am now letting it go.

I have said my peice. The anger is gone now.

Now I can rest and go and join my mother whom the church killed as well.

Accuser of the brethern:

"They knew the bible..went through all the motions..big noted themselves like Once4all does..but when push came to shove they were the VILEST evil creatures in the world".



"Why should I let what happenned to me at the hands of the "Once4alls" of this world destroy what peace I have left at my end?"

Your very kind to by typing all this Lisa. If poster does not openly and honestly respond then she/he is just playing games.

I'm sorry for what has happened to you and your mother. But you did insult Once4All in those posts.

I'm sorry for what has happened to you and your mother. But you did insult the OP (O4A) in those posts.

I used him as an example.

He insulted and mocked me a few times a while ago and it reminded me of how the others treated myself and my mother.

He never apolagised for it either.

But I you like I can name several others who are far worse.

Swordofgideon..godsontoo...ICE...they are the real wolves..the real hateful ones.

So if you like I will renounce my use of once4all as an example. At least he tries.

The others..are just darkness pure.

Once4all...I spoke in pain and anger. Please forgive me.

But also...learn to be humble and apolagise when you inadvertantly mock someone.

I used him as an example.

He insulted and mocked me a few times a while ago and it reminded me of how the others treated myself and my mother.

He never apolagised for it either.

But I you like I can name several others who are far worse.

Swordofgideon..godsontoo...ICE...they are the real wolves..the real hateful ones.

So if you like I will renounce my use of once4all as an example. At least he tries.

The others..are just darkness pure.

Once4all...I spoke in pain and anger. Please forgive me.

But also...learn to be humble and apolagise when you inadvertantly mock someone.

thank you for your post. I do understand your pain....I have been there for years. But the LORD pulled me out of it and placed my feet on a different path. Remember that Jesus heals and keep your eyes focused on HIM. At all costs we are to keep the unity of the brethern....that is why forgiveness is paramount....forgiveness is one of our highest callings!

Peace and blessing to you my brother!


I am going but should be back in the evening....

Strike Three!

October 21 ???

Harold has been kind of quiet, hasn't he?

Yea, but not quiet enough. Now he's saying the world is ending in October.

A well placed flag...... Thanks!!!

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strike three?