Feedback requested

So, since 2007, I've been going through a self-awareness "awakening". I entered the rabbithole, and haven't looked back.

Since then, I've taken a harder look at the things that happen in the world, and never take them at face value.

This awareness makes it somewhat difficult to relate to other people, and have found that the vast mass of people in the world really are sheep.

A few months ago, I had a new feeling about myself. That I was "special" (not short-bus special). What I find interesting is that although I do not yet know my purpose, I don't think my life is meant inflict any sort of huge change on the masses. In short, I'm not meant to do something "big".

However, it's interesting that I look back on how my life has played out so far and see that I truly have found my soul-mate-- that can appreciate how I view the world, and shares some of the exact same ideaology. (amongst other things)

I've always been a lucid dreamer, and it's gotten stronger as I've grown older. Last night, I participated in a dream with other people I did not know. I sat at a table with a seer and we were all able to ask questions.

I asked if I was special. The answer was no, and I was quite disappointed. This dream has somewhat bothered me all day today. Was this dream just farking with me, or is this the sad reality?

If anyone has any insight or feedback they would like to share, I will gladly accept any (even if I get joked at too).

Additionally, if anyone has follow up questions to ask in order to help formulate their feedback, I will gladly answer. I guess I am also looking to see if other readers have experienced this as well...